My name is Maira
the Hell of the World -
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Waking up every morning, realizing that I had an unusually heavy burden on my shoulders, made me always close my eyes, and hope that I was dreaming.
I'm not even twenty-five yet, but I've had to incur a debt that wasn't even my fault.
Every morning I could only curse the group that managed to make my normal life become like hell.
The company did not announce directly the total loss, but it was already an open secret in the office.
Of the three affected teams, only two opted out, the rest chose to stay, hoping for good news.
Miss Alice had to bear a loss of two billion, but she had already covered half of it with the assets she had.
Lexi had to bear a billion, and the whole thing was already paid for by her family.
While abi, he was the most fortunate among the others, out of the three accounts he held, only one account had his money stolen.
Nominal abi's loss was worth five hundred million, and he had already covered almost the entirety.
Abi sold his car, and drained his entire savings.
I am sure very well, abi can immediately finish it, because the salary that abi received at this time, has tripled from the salary I received.
I still haven't told my family what happened to me, even with her I still keep my mouth shut.
I plan to endure it myself, and try to find a way out myself.
I also did not plan to use my savings that were not much, to reduce my burden in the office a little.
Over the past month, the atmosphere of the office has never been coloured again.
Everyone chose to be quiet, no one tried to be funny anymore.
Every meeting or meeting, just greet each other with a thin smile.
Just a deep breath I heard, every time I went to the pantry and met one of my coworkers.
Ningsih, we still don't know where he is, he can't be contacted, and the office is looking for him.
Sometimes I get the urge to be like a ningsih, escape from responsibility, but I then remember, if I have a family that I have to keep his good name.
IT visits our room almost every day, to check the computers in our room.
They advised us not to plug external flash drives or hard drives into our computers.
They asked us to remember who plugged the flash drive into the computer for the past five months.
They also took our entire external drive for them to check.
They said they needed to know the origin of the malware that attacked our computers, so whatever might look suspicious, they asked us to contact the IT department directly.
*
Two months I've been living my life like a zombie, if Abi doesn't often accompany me maybe I've fainted from depression.
Abi always picks me up every morning, and takes me to breakfast, he always forces me to eat at his usual place.
As soon as work was done, Abi also made sure that I had dinner before he drove me home.
"Ra, sir Muklis this morning telvon, he invited us to dinner at his house, you want to come" Abi said as we were walking back to the office from lunch.
"Come bi, I can't see anyone anymore" I replied.
"We come to see, who knows after chatting with Mr. Muklis, we have an idea to find a way out" said Abi.
I then agreed to abi, because after all, muklis sir still trusts me to manage his money.
As soon as we returned to the office, miss alice said that the evaluation this afternoon was advanced, around four in the afternoon, because miss alice had to come to the police station, to ask for the progress of the search for the perpetrator, who installs malware on office computers.
"Just like a legal person" replied miss alice.
"There's been a call" miss alice asked us.
We all shook our heads, as we did not contact any of us.
It's like disappearing into the earth.
The atmosphere in the room remained quiet, not as much whispers as it used to be.
Until office hours are over, lexi almost never opens its mouth.
The evaluation, which usually took over an hour, now only needed thirty minutes, as there was no further stale or joking laughter.
Abi and I arrived at Mr. Muklis' house at about seven p.m.
His wife Pak Muklis immediately hugged me and said, may I be strong to face everything.
Mr. Muklis had already received news that I was bearing the losses caused by the actions of others.
I didn't talk much throughout dinner, only smiled occasionally, but more often I listened to Mr. Muklis.
As soon as Abi and I returned home, Muklis handed me the envelope.
His wife just told me to take it, because it's just a regular letter.
Once I got to the boarding house, and opened the envelope that Mr. Muklis gave me, I was very surprised, and immediately called Mr. Muklis to return it.
Mr. Muklis refused, and asked me to accept the fifty million rupiah check.
He said that it was just a small bonus that sir Muklis could give me.
I then thanked him, and accepted him airily, because I needed him.
In the middle of the candle that was slightly burning in my heart, I heard my phone ring, it was my mother who called me.
"Yes ma'am", I said to Mom.
"You're hard to call right now, if mommy's not picked up" said mom a little angry on television.
I'm just saying that I've been very busy lately.
I heard alan's voice from behind mom, he asked mom to give his phone to alan's sister.
"Ra, where have you been", asked alan to me, after he had taken the telvon from my mother's hand.
"In kos aja kak, often overtime so the night continues to return", I replied lying to alan.
Sis alan then told me his dream, he dreamed that I was very sick, when he woke up he immediately called me but I did not answer.
He said that he was so worried about me, that he had plans to follow me to Jakarta next week.
I asked alan to stay at home, because I was healthy, and it was okay.
"You are healthy, ra, if you are sick you go home, brother pick up", said brother alan to me with a worried tone.
Hearing alan's worries, I felt like I was shedding tears.
I then say goodbye to alan's sister to sleep, because I feel tired.
I just don't want to hear my voice change because I'm crying.
Alan closed the telvon after once again asking for my condition.
I assured alan that I was fine, and I asked him not to worry.
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