My name is Maira

always for him - always

***

The taxi stopped in front of the century hotel after circling the bung karno. Dimas then pays the argo a taxi, and gets out of the taxi.

"You're in a carriage or on your own road" asked her when I didn't get off the taxi.

I went straight down, because I didn't want to create a situation that made others uncomfortable.

Dimas took my hand, and took me to his hotel room.

"I've eaten, made dinner, you wait a minute" dimas told me.

I did not answer, and chose to sit on the sofa by the window.

After ten minutes, the bedroom door was knocked, dimas then got out of bed and opened the room door.

Dimas pushed the trolley with a dinner message for us, after he thanked the hotel staff.

I still haven't said anything since I got off the cab, I also just kept quiet as we ate.

I'm still trying to digest everything in my mind and in my heart.

My heart did not want to resist dimas, but guilt began to fill my mind.

Dimas easily, always makes me submit to whatever he wants.

My heart and mind are at war between me giving up and receiving dimas back, or going and leaving behind all the things I've always missed.

After eating, I just sat back on the sofa looking at the view of the buildings surrounding the bung karno hall from the eighteenth floor of the century hotel.

I heard my phone ringing, I grabbed it, and saw who called me, it turned out to be arman.

"Hai man", I said as I answered telvon arman.

"Waalaikumsalam ra", replied arman in telvon

I laughed when I heard Arman.

"Again" asked arman.

"Still out", I replied.

Dimas then turned off his hotel room lights.

"Not late at night" pinta arman softly exclaimed.

"Yes, when you're done, go home" I replied with a smile.

Dimas took the phone from my hand and turned off the phone from Arman.

"Well what the hell, I haven't finished talking" I said angrily at dimas.

"You are nothing, from earlier diem aja, talking the same I also did not, but even really mengelvon someone else" said dimas with a high tone.

"You want me to do it" I asked to try to make the situation calm, but dimas just fell silent.

"Balikin my phone", I asked dimas.

Dimas slipped my phone in his pants pocket, then pulled me roughly and tried to kiss me.

No matter my refusal, dimas kept kissing me, he also squeezed my breasts very roughly.

I lost and shrieked in my arms, I lost because my body betrayed me.

I lost because I loved everything that I was shown.

After I made no effort to let go of the kiss dimas again, dimas kissed me gently, then slowly took off all my clothes.

Dimas took me in his arms into the bathroom.

Dimas then put me in the bathtub in the bathroom.

The warm water, and the fragrance inside the bathtub calmed me down.

Dimas then went into the bathtub with me.

Dimas very gently touched me, he tried to make me comfortable and calm.

"When you prepare the warm water", ask me on the dimas.

Dimas did not answer, and chose to wash my body, and occasionally kissed my neck.

After that, dimas took me to bed and then covered me.

"Udah ya angry, I'm afraid if you are angry" said dimas to me.

I just smiled without saying anything.

Dimas then walked into the blanket, and hugged me.

"My feeling is still the same for you, you are still in love with my heart, not replaced by anyone" said dimas while hugging me.

"But you choose the other one" I said to dimas.

"I don't expect you to be sorry for my stupidity, I just hope you stop being angry ra, I know, I made a mistake, but I could not have ra, just this once, you accept me again", pinta.

I did not answer, I knew without that, I had wholeheartedly become the property of dimas.

Dimas later recounted that he had been planning to see me from three months ago, which meant that shortly after I came to solo, but he always lost his nerve, so he was always rethinking.

Until finally, dimas began to see me often post with arman on social media.

Dimas thought, I had forgotten the dimas, and the new dimas dared to meet me to give back the necklace that was given, as a memento.

Dimas wasn't planning on asking for my love back, he just wanted to come for a friendship.

Dimas realized that he didn't need my friendship when he saw me.

Her feelings became clearer as I paid attention to dimas, dimas told me.

"So I was wrong again", I asked dimas.

"Yes, why did you bargain for me to eat, you should have run" dimas told me.

I laughed at dimas' words.

Dimas then kissed me and hugged me tighter.

"If you're still in love with me, why are you dating another woman" I asked dimas.

"Because I'm heartbroken, I need people to strengthen me" dimas replied.

"Why don't you ever look for me", ask me again on dimas.

"I'm afraid, I'm afraid that you've changed" dimas replied.

"Why are you always afraid of me" I asked teasing dimas.

"I'm also confused, I'm like a wet cracker every time you get angry" dimas replied with a laugh.

"I'm angry now, I want to go home" I said to dimas while holding back a laugh.

"Where home, your home is here" dimas said as he grabbed me by his arms again.

The jokes and laughter returned to me, my doubts were gone, I felt like a woman whom dimas loved so much right now.

The matter about mila instantly vanished from my mind.

"I'm so happy you're in my arms right now" said dimas.

"Me too", I replied.

Dimas then grabbed my phone from his pants pocket, and he contacted someone from my phone, who turned out to be a mami mita.

Dimas tells mom not to worry about leaving without saying goodbye, dimas also explains that he left his phone at home.

"Maira mi mobile phone pinjem" said dimas while calling mami.

"Yes, yes dimas knows" said dimas.

Dimas then gave me his phone.

"Ra" said mami in telvon.

I then got out of bed and away from the dimas.

"Yes" I replied to my mother.

"You how are you" asked mami softly.

"Well, my mom is healthy" I told my mom.

"Sorry dimas ya ra, you must be shocked when suddenly came to you" said mami to me.

"Yes no papa" I replied.

"Yaudah you convey to dimas, if it's finished his business tell dimas soon home" said mami.

"You take care of your health, ra, if you go home to jogja do not forget to stop by the mami shop", pinta mami to me.

"Yes" I replied.

Mami closed her phone after saying that she wanted to rest.

"Why don't you bring a cell phone" I asked dimas, after I put my phone on the table, and came back close to dimas.

"Because I planned to go home this morning" dimas replied.

"When you get to Jakarta", ask me on dimas.

"Yesterday afternoon", answered briefly.

"You will continue waiting for me" I asked again.

Dimas just nodded, I then hugged dimas, and felt guilty for making the dimas wait for me long enough.

"Why not just in the package", I asked.

"And you know my address in Jogja" I added.

"If you think so, why did you go back in the first place" asked back.

I then tried to remove the necklace around my neck, and stopped me.

"Still to be discussed", ask me on dimas.

"No", said dimas with a sad face.

"I'm just sprained" dimas said again.

Dimas asked and begged me to stop and try to return the necklace to him.

*

I spent the end of my week with dimas, dimas just returned my phone after he was going home to solo.

Dimas promised to let me know when he arrived, and dimas promised to visit me in Jakarta every two weeks.

I went back to the boarding house feeling in the clouds after dropping us off at the airport.

***