My name is Maira

the storm that survived -

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The jealousy that I thought would be extinguished as time went on, turned out to remain burning in every corner of my heart.

My meeting with dimas, I always start by looking at the contents of the cellphone first, when dimas came to pick me up at home.

Then I just agreed to walk with dimas, when I was done looking at the contents of the dimas phone.

I still let dimas touch me, but the dimas touch I always felt was so special, now I don't feel the same anymore.

Dimas was still the same, carefree and passionate as he touched me.

It's just that I always felt a sudden sense of emptiness present, after dimas finished his touch.

I realized I wasn't as happy as I was.

My quarrels began, if dimas came, and I saw a message I did not like, especially a message from zahra, even though it was just a standard message.

I was also angry when I saw a message still stored on dimas' mobile phone, which came from a female colleague dimas.

Unknowingly, I became a very jealous maira.

I'm always jealous and angry about the little things I do.

It was like taking pictures with a girl friend of dimas, or when I called dimas and I heard another woman's voice.

I used to feel used to seeing photos of dimas embracing his female coworkers, but now I'm getting more irritable and jealous of trivialities.

I also immediately asked dimas to come home when dimas came to see me, but I still had a sense of anger with him.

Not infrequently I also immediately turn off the dimas telvon, when the dimas just silence, and do not answer my jealousy.

My jealousy and anger that often arise in my meeting moments with dimas, making dimas replace all social media passwords.

Dimas also didn't bring his phone anymore when he came to see me in Jogja.

Dimas always reasoned that he forgot to bring his phone, because he was in a hurry, and was worried that it would be too late to see me.

Dimas also instantly distracted me, as I began to talk about my jealousy.

Slowly, dimas began to withdraw from me.

Dimas rarely called me, and often did not answer my phone.

Dimas only left a message for me after I started getting angry.

My encounter with dimas also began to diminish.

In one month, I was only supposed to see me twice, and even then we only spent time in a hotel room.

Dimas no longer gives me room for jealousy.

Dimas also ignored all my anger, he instantly dodged whenever I started to get angry out of jealousy.

Dimas completely ignored my jealousy, as he blatantly tweeted back to his female co-workers.

Dimas completely ignored my anger, as he preferred to hang out with his co-workers on holidays, and not see me.

The relationship that started to cool went on for the last three months.

The highlight of my relationship with dimas, was when I wanted to inform dimas, that for the mid-semester holidays, I would go to kebumen with my college friends, to do fieldwork.

"Dimas is still in the bathroom, I'll tell you when you're on the phone" said a voice that always made me jealous, as I called dimas.

I called dimas to let him know that in two weeks I was going to go to kebumen, but the zahra who picked up the dimas telvon, I immediately turned off the telvon.

After the telvon, for two weeks I waited for the telvon dimas to give me an explanation, but dimas did not even call me, or visit me, to dampen my jealousy, or calm my anger.

I went to kebumen with my anger at dimas, for dimas ignored me completely.

The decision to practice fieldwork in kebumen, has been me, dita, ayu, and bowo talk starting from the beginning of the seventh semester.

Ayu, finally decided to invite us to practice work in kebumen.

According to ayu, there is a rural area in kebumen, which all areas are already connected to the internet network.

Even every home has been installed on the Internet.

It made me and bowo interested in introducing the digital economy to them.

We then make a work program proposal for work practice at that location.

The campus immediately agreed, as well as the village that we will go to.

We chose to travel by train to kebumen, once we finished the semester exam.

Uncle ayu who happened to live in kebumen, would pick us up at the station, and he would drive us all the way to our destination village.

We were greeted by the figure of the man who had dimples, which made his smile very sweet, when we reached the village door.

We call him Vishnu sir, to keep our manners.

We introduced ourselves to him as well.

Uncle ayu said to come home and leave us, after he left us to the vishnu.

Mr. Vishnu then invited us to see the house that will be our residence, as long as we practice work in his village.

Mr. Vishnu asked us to rest and pack, and he also asked us to contact him, if we needed anything.

Afterwards, he left the house where we were staying.

At around seven o'clock in the evening, the vishnu asked us to gather at the village hall, which was located about three hundred meters from the house where we were staying.

There were already five elderly men, as well as two middle-aged mothers already present when we arrived at the village hall.

Mr. Vishnu immediately introduced the figure who had welcomed us, they were village officials and also some village figures.

Mr. Vishnu then began to tell his dream for the village he lived in, which is also his hometown.

Mr. Vishnu also said, in addition to working in the building shop owned by his father, he was also the originator of the idea to make his village connected to the internet.

Awe of the figure of Mr. Vishnu, we can not hide from our facial expressions.

He said he was very happy with the proposal he brought to his village two months ago.

After discussing with the village apparatus, the vishnu immediately agreed to our proposal.

"Sir vishnu, indeed all villagers already understand how to use the internet properly", I asked him, after he finished explaining to us about the internet network in his village, and asked if we had any questions.

"Call me, I'm still single, and I'm still twenty-seven" she smiled at me.

"Cieee" said Dita to me.

"All of you also do not hesitate to call me vishnu mas, because we will meet every day, besides, I will also make sure your program runs to the maximum" said mas vishnu ignored the joke dita.

"Village residents already know how to use the internet, but they only use it for social media, or just browsing on the internet" said mas vishnu answer my question.

"I am very interested in the proposals that you offer regarding the digital economy, I have hope that your work program will help the villagers in the future" said Mas wisnu added.

The event was closed after dinner together, and we submitted our work schedule, as well as our program, for a month on vishnu.

Mas vishnu then gave us directions, and a map of his village territory.

He also said that the accommodation and consumption for us will be fully supported by the vishnu and village officials, so he asked us to focus on our work program.

The first week of our fieldwork practice, or our PKL, in the village of mas vishnu, we fill in by explaining the impact of the digital economy with non-free trade in 2020.

We chose to give a preliminary explanation to the villagers whose age range is still in the early thirty years.

We chose that age group, because according to the analysis of vishnu, they will be the leaders for the village economy in that year.

We teach them one by one, and introduce to them the channels of online stores that have begun to crowded on the internet.

We teach participants, starting basic things, such as how to sell on the internet, and how to create an account in an existing market place.

We started doing counseling from nine in the morning to four in the afternoon.

Generally the dateng are housewives, or women at the end of the age of twenty who are not married.

We understand, because the men in the village mas vishnu, make a living by farming from morning, or have a shop that is open from morning until night.

Although our counseling, generally only filled by groups of women, but we are very satisfied with their response.

Vishnu also continues to support us not to give up, when we face difficulties.

At night, we usually immediately make a report, as well as start discussing the title and topic of the thesis that we will take.

On holidays, Sundays, we join the villagers to work to clean up the neighborhood, in the morning.

At the same time, we also have the opportunity to provide counseling about the digital economy to young people in the village of mas vishnu, because they have school holidays.

The young generation in the village turned out to be very enthusiastic about our explanation, because generally they also want to become trading later on, following in the footsteps of their parents.

during the two weeks I was in the village of mas vishnu, I began to forget about my sorrow for my relationship with dimas.

I never forgot to post my activities on facebook, but for these two weeks, I never answered a phone from dimas.

The longing for dimas sometimes arises, but the feeling is erased by the dense activities in the village of mas vishnu.

Besides, I was also usually very tired at night, so I immediately decided to go to sleep as soon as I finished making the report.

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