My name is Maira

the First Storm -

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I immediately wiped my tears when I saw dimas, then I stood up and walked towards dimas.

I gave the book to dimas.

"I want to go home, now" I said to dimas without looking at dimas.

I took my backpack, and brought my suitcase from the bedroom floor.

Dimas then took the suitcase from my hand, and tried to hug me.

"I wait downstairs" I said to dimas in a fairly cold tone, then broke away from the dimas embrace.

"Ra", call dimas, when I get out of the room without seeing him again.

"Ra I can clear" said dimas, chasing me, and trying to grab my hand.

"I want to go home now" I said to dimas, releasing my hand from his grasp.

I got down, and I got straight into the car at the dimas, as soon as I got to the garage.

"I won't walk until you give me a chance to clear up" said dimas, as he was by my side.

I got out of the dimas car, got out of the dimas house, and immediately waved at the taxi I saw parked not far from the dimas house.

When the taxi was in front of the house, dimas immediately pulled my hand, when I was just about to open the taxi door.

Dimas immediately apologized to the father of the taxi driver, because he did not take the taxi.

"Okay, I'm anter you go home now" said dimas, who sounded like he was losing his temper.

On the way, I held myself back as much as possible from crying, anger overflowing in my heart and mind, keeping me quiet all the way.

"Ra heard me dong", pinta dimas while grabbing my hand.

I immediately pulled my hand from the dimas, without looking at the dimas.

Dimas finally chose to keep driving his car, and did not ask me to speak again.

As soon as I got to the front of the house, I got out of the car, and went into the house without saying a word to chew.

I also ignored my mother who called my name, and I went straight into my room, then locked the door.

The cry that I held for two hours, finally broke.

The word that was written for zahra came back to dance in my mind.

I did not leave the room for the rest of the day, I chose to lock myself in the room, and stroke the wound in my heart.

*

The next morning when I came out of the room, my mother gave me a compress to compress my swollen eyes.

"What the hell is ra, the story of dong is the same mother" said the mother when accompanying me sitting at the dinner table, while helping me compress my eyes.

"No papa ma'am, no more crying" I replied to my mother.

"That night you were out of the room until ten o'clock, she said she had to go home because she was working today" she said.

"Dimas also said that Rara misunderstood me" said the mother again.

I just smiled cynically, and didn't answer Mom.

Mom left me alone in the kitchen after asking me to eat my breakfast.

At about ten in the morning, we left for the house.

Alan's sister was behind the wheel and father was next to her, mother and I were sitting in the middle seat.

"Dimas has an affair ya ra in solo", asked alan with a joking tone, as we were on our way to the house uti.

"Yes right", asked alan again with his annoying smile.

I didn't answer alan's question and just turned my face out the window.

"Everything can be discussed well, if there is a problem to be solved" my father told me.

I just fell silent, and did not answer father, nor respond to alan's joke.

"Udah lan, you focus on driving, dad too, rest well" said the mother to father and sister alan.

Mom pulled my shoulder and hugged me without saying anything.

A strong wind greeted us when we arrived at the house.

I immediately felt a little calm, when I saw the home page.

My fragile soul, felt someone welcome with a warm hug as soon as I opened the car window.

Uti came straight out of the house, as soon as dad's car came into the courtyard of the house, and uti immediately hugged me, as soon as I got out of the car.

For a moment I could forget the wound in my heart.

The cute star also came straight down from her mother's arms, and ran with her little legs towards us.

I immediately smiled and opened my hand to catch the star into my arms.

"Yes" said the star, with his voice not too clear, touching my nose.

"Yayan" said the star, then pointed to the brother alan who was standing beside me.

"Chicken", I said to the stars, confirming the utterance of the stars.

"Apaan anyway, do not be horrified" said brother alan, while closing the star's ear.

Alan then took the star from my hand.

"Alan", said alan to the star while bringing the star into the house.

*

At home uti, make my heart a little calm, star babble also always comfort me.

During the week at home, I began to forget my anger at dimas, because the stars took all my attention for him.

I chose to blackberry my blackberry, and ignore all messages and telvon from dimas.

Father and brother alan only got three days off, so Wednesday night they went straight home.

For example, after I helped my aunt clean up, I decided to relax on the swing of the star's net on the porch of the house uti.

I closed my eyes, and enjoyed the gentle breeze that came into my face.

"Ra", said a voice I had been hearing.

I opened my eyes, and I saw dimas standing in front of me, with a blue t-shirt and brown shorts.

The anger I forgot instantly filled my heart.

I got up from the swing, and went straight into the house.

"Maira", yelled dimas while pulling my hand.

I looked around, worried that others would hear.

I then pulled dimas' hand and asked dimas to open the car door, when we were near the car dimas.

Dimas parked his car next to aunty Wulan's house, so I didn't see him this morning when I left the house.

The environment of the house uti is a rural environment, so I am worried that it will attract the attention of neighbors, and make you ashamed, if you make a rowdy in front of the house uti, that's why I prefer to take dimas to a quieter place.

I asked dimas to take me to the nearest beach.

I got off the car as soon as we got there, and looked around.

I breathed a sigh of relief as I did not see a single person around the beach.

"Gapain here", I asked dimas, as soon as I saw dimas get off the car.

"Pursue your zahra there" I said again with a fierce tone.

"Ra you misunderstood" dimas said trying to calm me down.

"That's not your book" I asked dimas.

Dimas just kept quiet and let my anger out.

"Not your handwriting", I asked again.

"I can tell you, you were horrified dong" dimas said as he grabbed my hand.

I did not answer dimas's words.

"I don't have any feelings for Zahra, just as much affection as a friend" dimas said.

"Dear" I said cynically.

"Your feelings are not just love as a friend, more than that dimas, even to this day" said I began to feel emotion.

Dimas was silent again.

"If you love him, why do you take me" I said again to dimas while pointing at his chest.

"If you love another woman, why do you touch me" I said, staring dimas with my eyes that began to fog.

"Why", ask me on dimas.

I started to vent all my anger.

"Because I'm so lazy" I said, finally in a low tone, looking at the dimas with a wound.

Dimas immediately slapped me in the face, having already said the thing that I myself felt was very painful, when the word came out of my mouth.

Dimas then realized that he had slapped me, he immediately hugged me.

"Ra, please don't hurt me with that word" dimas said softly and began to cry.

I released myself from the dimas embrace and walked towards the shoreline.

When I got to the beach, I sat down and cried while hugging myself.

Dimas approached me, then sat down beside me.

"I know I was wrong, I'm sorry, I should have thrown the book away the moment you found it, but instead I kept it" dimas said, wiping his tears.

"Yes I like zahra, but it was, my feelings were over for him, I chose you ra" dimas said again in a very soft tone.

"I never belain zahra as you think, I just sympathize with him, nothing more" dimas continued to explain.

"I touched you because I love you, not because of what you said" said dimas, pressing the last sentence.

"I forgot that I had the book, I didn't even want it to be put in a drawer" dimas said.

"I really love you ra" said dimas lirih.

"If you want any proof, so you can be sure that I love you, I will do it" said dimas, looking at me.

"I don't want to lose you just because of misunderstanding Ra" dimas said in a raucous voice.

Dimas finally hugged me who continued to be silent, and I let dimas embrace me without any desire to escape from dimas.

After all, my feelings for dimas were still very strong, but I realized, I was already unable to trust dimas completely.

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