My name is Maira

- Go to jogja -

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Three days is enough, I think, to feel sad about the new relationship that dimas has.

I left my wounds open, with no intention of contemplating or treating.

I allowed myself to accept all the laughter offered by my best friend, as well as my office friend.

For a week, I stayed at nia's house, and chose to feel tired again to leave work from nia's house.

That's all I did, so I fell asleep because I was tired, when I got home from work.

I closed my mind to dimas.

I'm sure by ignoring the wounds in my heart, sooner or later, I can forget dimas.

I want to be as quick as possible to remove the dimas shadow from my mind.

Coming back to meet my family, I wish I could make me feel better.

Going home is also a time I have been waiting for a long time.

I was finally able to meet the people I loved, after six months apart.

Nia and aunt rosa drove me to the airport this morning, and in less than two hours, the plane would land at the airport.

I told my mother not to pick me up, and asked my family to wait for me at home.

I also cut my hair over my shoulders.

I want to forget my love for dimas, and be the new me.

The last time I had short hair, when I was five years old, after that, mom preferred to let my hair lengthen.

My short hair made me feel more confident.

I love to travel by plane, because I love the view from above.

I could see every area that passed by looked so small.

The view from the window of the plane, always makes me lulled, until I did not realize that the pilot had announced, soon the plane will land in Jogja.

As soon as I got off the plane, my smile began to be etched.

I could finally breathe some more air, I thought to myself.

When I just got out, and just wanted to call a taxi, my mother shouted my name, and immediately hugged me.

I was surprised that all my family came to pick me up, when I told you to wait for me at home.

Alan also just hugged me, without trying to joke or insult me.

Rani cried as she hugged me, I could feel her stomach poking slightly as I hugged her.

"No ma'am, Rara said what, I'll soon have a grandchild" I told my mother.

I hugged Rani again and wiped her tears.

Dad asked us to walk right away, because we were bothering other people who wanted to pass.

In the car, Rani told me that she was having business in salatiga, and just returned to Jogja tomorrow.

According to rani, mia was already impatient to meet me.

Rani also said, the age of the womb has entered the fifth month.

I was very happy when I heard that Rani was pregnant, because she originally wanted to delay for a year.

Rani told me and the others, as we gathered on the video call.

Me, rani, mia, kiki and nia did agree to have a video call schedule once every two weeks.

And during these six months, never once did we skip our video calling schedule.

"Sister, you have to be more patient and hold the emotion, let alone angry not clear with me, it's big no, because suddenly again already want to have a baby", I told alan who was busy driving.

Alan only smiled cynically, and said that he had been unusually patient to face me who was a stone head.

As soon as Dad's car came into the neighborhood, I saw that my grandparents were waiting for me outside their house, chatting with the neighbors.

Grandma walked right up to us, as soon as she parked her car in front of the house.

I got out of the car and ran to Grandma and hugged her.

"Maira, why is it so long ago to come home" said the grandmother in my arms.

"Sorry grandma", I replied.

Then I took off my grandmother's embrace, and hugged my grandfather who was already standing next to my grandmother.

Grandfather then asked me to go to his house, and rest at the home of grandfather and grandmother.

Sis alan, rani, father and mother also went to the grandmother's house.

For the rest of the day, some neighbors came to see me, and asked me how I was doing.

They said that I was very brave, because I had decided to wander and live alone.

They also said that the environment became quiet, because me and kiki who usually make the atmosphere of the neighborhood crowded, had gone.

Kak alan still hope that I will choose to return to Jogja, and leave the sparkling city of Jakarta.

Neighbors then decided to return to their respective homes as soon as the adzan maghrib reverberated.

Alan and Rani go home after dinner.

I chose to stay at my grandmother's house and sleep with me.

"It still fits if the grandmother sleeps equally" asked the grandmother, when the grandmother entered the room that used to be used by the mother when she was a girl.

"Loading noodles, the mattress is wide" replied the mother.

The grandmother then asked the mother to move to the side near the wall.

I slept in the middle of my mother and grandmother.

"Rara seneng in Jakarta", asked the mother while stroking my hair.

"Yes, yes sad", I replied to my mother.

"Sadly because it is far from family, his art, because he can make money" I said again with a big smile.

My mother and grandmother smiled.

"Mommy is sure, Rara will also be able to meet again the same people who can love equally unconditionally" said the mother to me.

I then bit my lips to hold back the crying, mother must have known that dimas had a new boyfriend from rani.

"Yes, just calm, down one, later also grow a thousand" said the grandmother trying to change the atmosphere.

Grandma then recounted a funny event when she first met grandfather.

"Grandma's still inget", I asked to cut the grandmother's story.

"Yes still dong, the body can start to conical, but the memory of grandma is still sharp" said my grandmother to me.

"Grandmother also used to be still inget, when you were born" said grandma.

Grandma chose to tell the events of my birth, rather than her story with grandfather.

According to my grandmother, I was born at night.

At that time the doctor who handled the mother was out of town, so inevitably grandfather had to find another doctor.

Dad was also at that time being served to bogor, so only om raka, grandfather, grandmother and brother alan who accompanied the mother.

Alan's sister cried all the time waiting for the mother's delivery in the hospital, and it was quite troublesome om raka.

"Kak alan emang was born troublesome", I said cutting the story of grandmother.

My mom and dad laughed at my words.

Then my grandmother continued her story.

After I was born, my sister did not want to come home from the hospital, she chose to wait for me and my mother in the hospital.

I was born poorly, so my mother and I had to be hospitalized for two weeks.

Grandma also said, that alan's sister always followed wherever the baby carriage that took me in the move.

Whenever alan's brother is not seen in the inpatient room of the mother, om raka just look for where I was taken, because alan's brother will definitely be in front of the room, where I am.

I shed tears hearing Grandma's story.

I then remembered that I always disliked every time alan scolded me on telvon, when I was in Jakarta.

Now I know, it's all because alan was worried, he couldn't see me anymore easily, because we already live in a different city.

"It would mean if alan's brother was angry, rara was horrifying and understood" said my mother to me.

"Yes, the first week of your new time in Jakarta, alan always comes to grandma's house, to complain whenever you do not pick up the phone" said grandma.

"Nearly two months, every time you go home from work, you must immediately call, if you do not lift, you must immediately call father, get angry, ask that you be invited back to jogja", said mother adds to the story of grandmother.

I can only laugh hearing that.

"Even rani to tell mother, if it is not husband rani, rani already live" said mother, while imitating the way rani spoke.

Mother and grandmother then laughed, recalling the behavior of alan for three months after I left for Jakarta.

The haru feeling I had in my heart, turned into relief when I found out how unfortunately alan's sister was to me.

I don't have to worry about losing the one person I love, because I have a thousand people who will always give me unlimited love and affection.

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