My name is Maira

- From there ketiada -

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Time may be reluctant to freeze, but my relationship with dimas is at freezing.

I'm with the current dimas, like the chocolate cake we made lovingly, but there's a bitter taste left behind.

We like accidentally putting the cake in the refrigerator for too long.

We don't have the guts to throw it away, but we're also reluctant to eat it.

Almost five months passed, after I was angry at dimas on the porch of the house, but our relationship, still had no common ground.

I wanted to choose to give in and accept full defeat, but my ego wanted dimas to fight more and more to earn my trust.

Unfortunately, dimas never tried to persuade me again, he ignored everything.

My encounter with dimas which only three times, in these five months, also tasted sour.

I didn't want to care too much about all that, because I was also very busy completing my script.

Re-binding my relationship with dimas is not my priority at the moment.

Like today, I prefer to focus on thinking about my script.

Today was my first thesis guidance schedule for the final chapter, before I finally had to take the final semester exam, two weeks away.

Almost two hours I guided the thesis in the lecturer room with Mr. Erwin, who is my script supervisor.

Mr. Erwin asked me to revise a few paragraphs.

After I marked the part that Mr. Erwin asked to revise, I thanked him, and then walked out of the lecturer room.

I don't want to waste erwin's time with standard stale bases, because I know there are still some students queuing outside, for thesis guidance with erwin sir.

When I came out of the lecturer room, I saw bowo who was also queuing for thesis guidance, just that bowo did not wait his turn to see erwin sir, but other lecturers.

I decided to chat for a while with the bowo in front of the lecturer room.

I then took out my blackberry from my bag, while hearing the bowo story about his guidance counselor which was quite difficult.

I always put a silent tone when I was in the lecturer room for thesis guidance, it was done so as not to interfere if there is a telephone coming in.

I saw dozens of telvons coming in from nia, kiki, and rani, as I opened my blackberry.

I then called nia, since she had called me the most, there were about twenty missed calls from nia.

"Where are you from on the phone not lifted" said nia as she received a phone call from me.

Nia sounded very angry at me.

"New guidance thesis he, what's up", I replied to nia.

"Ke sardjito now, seto kecakan" said nia with a high enough tone.

I immediately ran towards the parking lot, without saying a word to the bowo.

I also ignored when bowo called my name.

The distance between my campus and sardjito hospital is quite far, although it still exists in the same district.

I tried to get my bike fast, because it sounded like it was hunting me.

As soon as I got to the hospital, I called Nia.

I was just about to ask where Seto was, but she immediately told me in her raucous voice, and asked me to go to the operating room.

I saw nia, kiki and rani were hugging mia, they were all crying, as I reached the front of the operating room.

Mia herself just stared at the wall blankly, mia did not cry, but she looked like a heavy shock.

At the end of the room, in front of the operating room door, I also saw a mother sitting down, in front of two doctors wearing surgical clothes.

The mother seemed to be placated by a middle-aged man, whom I later recognized, who was a seto parent.

I walked over to mia, and immediately knelt in front of mia.

Kiki and Rani who were still crying, also immediately hugged me.

"Mia", I said to mia, when I was in front of mia.

Mia just kept quiet and didn't answer me.

I then looked towards nia, she just shook her head.

I immediately shed all my tears, and hugged Mia.

Seto was hit by a speeding car, as Seto was about to leave for campus this morning.

The accident occurred about ten minutes before the seto reached the campus gate.

The road is quiet, so many motorcycles and cars are speeding.

Riders who happened to pass by, and witnessed a natural accident, immediately contacted the ambulance to take the seto to the nearest hospital.

Afterwards, the police contacted Mia, who was the last person to call.

Hearing the news of his lover's accident, mia did not have time to be surprised, she immediately contacted Seto's parents.

Mia, who was on her campus for thesis guidance, asked Seto's parents to immediately follow her to sardjito hospital, where an ambulance brought her after the accident.

After two hours of surgery, Seto could not be saved, and was pronounced dead five minutes before I reached the hospital.

Seto's life drifted as a result of the accident, only, the driver of the car that hit the seto chose to escape.

He then helped the Seto family, to take care of hospital expenses, and take care of the process of repatriating the seto to the funeral home.

I called alan's brother who was still in his office, brother alan panicked, when he heard me crying, while asking alan to go to the hospital sardjito.

Alan's brother instantly turned off his phone, after asking me to wait for him to come.

I haven't even been able to explain what happened.

Sis alan thought that something bad happened to me, and he felt relieved when he saw me fine.

"You, my brother's son" said brother alan while hugging me.

"Why are you", asked alan.

"Seto died" I answered still crying at alan's brother.

"Seto's mia's boyfriend", asks alan.

I then nodded, then alan calmed me, and asked for the whereabouts of Seto.

Alan's brother who had permission from his office, finally decided to help the seto family, take care of the return of the seto.

Seto can only be taken home at around five in the afternoon.

Alan brought me, mia, nia, rani and kiki in his car.

Alan was driving, following from the back of the ambulance carrying the seto to the funeral home.

When alan's car entered the area of the seto house, I saw a yellow flag already installed.

Residents also crowded in front of the seto house.

Alan chose to park his car not far from the seto house.

We then look at the mia who is still staring blankly, then we help mia get out of the car.

Seto's other family, seen already waiting for seto in front of the house.

Their cries broke as the coffins were removed from the ambulance.

Seeing everything that was happening in front of the seto house, the four of us came back crying, but mia was still staring blankly.

I sensed someone patting me on the shoulder after five minutes of standing looking at the cries of the seto family, and when I turned around, it turned out to be Mona, the older sister of mia who patted me on the shoulder.

"Ra bring mia home" said mbak mona.

I, who happened to be holding Mia's arm, led her straight into her house.

Mia's house is located right next to Seto's house.

We take Mia to her room, and leave her not a second. We tried to offer mia a drink, but mia didn't even answer us.

Kiki's father, mother, and grandfather come for the night to worship, as well as aunt rosa, and rani's parents.

They brought us a change of clothes, and asked us to stay at mia's house, and accompany her.

Alan went straight home the other night, because he still had to take care of the bike we left in the parking lot of the sardjito hospital.

The four of us take turns sitting next to the mia, and give our full attention to the mia.

"Ran, where to go" asked mia about eleven o'clock at night on rani, rani indeed happened to sit next to mia.

Me and Kiki immediately returned to tears hearing mia's question.

"Ra, ki, why are you crying" Mia told us.

Mia finally saw us, after a day of just staring straight at me with a blank stare.

"Mia wants to see Seto", asked nia gently to mia.

"Yes, because it's late at night, but kok seto hasn't come home yet" said mia with a confused expression.

Nia then leads mia to Seto's house, the three of us follow them from behind while wiping our tears that are reluctant to stop.

When we enter the seto house, in the living room the seto family still looks crowded.

We can see the casket seto in the living room, wrapped in green cloth, with the words verse chair, and flowers hanging on several sides.

We also heard the chanting of yasin letters, which were read by those in the living room of the seto house.

As soon as she saw the mia enter the house, the mother who was reading the letter, immediately stopped.

Mia's mother then stood up, and hugged Mia.

"Mia, it's quiet there, sincere mia yes" said mia soft mother.

Mia who saw the paper bearing the name of the seto, as well as the photo of the seto, in front of the coffin, immediately broke her tears.

We immediately hugged mia, mia crying with a very bitter cry.

After a day of silence due to the events that made her very surprised, she finally spilled all her sadness.

We can hear the cry of pain in the heart of mia, because she lost the most precious person in her life.

My heart ached when I heard the cry of the mia, I could only cry beside the mia, as she took a photo of the seto and hugged it.

I never imagined, mia who was always cheerful, and always made us laugh, would cry so bitterly tonight.

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