Love Stifled By Destiny's

Unsurrender

I came home with disappointment, it felt like this self ran into the ocean that sent down its waves, to throw itself out of trouble, and avoid the reality that has existed. But this head already thinks that the awareness of one problem will not be solved just like that, it will certainly bring up a new problem.

Now I'm at the risk of being bitten, of trying to make a decision, even though someone will get hurt later, if what I want can be achieved. I don't care anymore about the meaning of madness, the most important thing I can get for the sake of wanting to get back to Alex.

This self-deprivation of Alex's attitude that asked to break up for our love, made me keep daydreaming. There hasn't been a mouthful of rice in my stomach since yesterday. Mother paid more attention to me, so that this self recovers excited again, but her efforts were in vain because I did not respond to that attention, what I need now is Alex's attention. This soul so groaned in pain, unable to accept the reality of all this.

Alex has gone too far, not telling me that he's alive, and now he's just trying to keep avoiding me. Even when we met, when he visited us in Semarang yesterday, his attitude was just mediocre as if he had forgotten and did not want me.

"Big, Alex. Would I be hard-pressed to get our love again that was as harmonious as it was? Don't you love me more than ever? But why has it all changed a hundred degrees to forget me?" my heart is still in sorrow.

"Amel?" call my mom when I enter my room.

"Yes, mom!" weak answer.

"May mother come in" he gave her permission.

"Just go in, ma'am."

He immediately approached me who was now sitting leaning on the board, and without a doubt he was now following me too.

"Here you are, son, don't be like this. Mother will be sad if you continue like this. All right, for you Alex's face doesn't matter, but did you forget, soon you'll be a wife? Maybe Alex did it all for your own good. You three are like brothers, even if you are just friends. Maybe Alex's move to decide you is the absolute truth, so that you all don't feel a pain in your heart" Alex's mother said, trying to persuade and calm me.

"But, mom. I really still love Alex. My lifeless life is now back to life, but why swallow such a bitter pill?" tanyaku.

"You're patient, son. Perhaps it is for the good of everyone not to be hurt," Gentle mother's voice spoke.

He said so, so that this self can understand the decision of his son. Without being told again, I hugged him with a heartbreaking cry.

It will obviously be difficult to breathe, when the heart loses half of its taste. Really now my only hope is Alex, to give our relationship another chance.

"Just wait, Alex. I will prove that you still love me, I will do all the ways that you can re-knit our love. Just wait, I'll prove it. Although great obstacles have been put in the way, it will not dampen my intention to get you back" My words in my heart with anger have prevailed.

I just mute in the room, this mouth is too silent to speak. I lost my spirit and now my brain is thinking hard to find a way. The mind has been circling but never get an idea, it feels really dead-end.

When destiny is determined by God, man can only live it all.

The hardships of life that befell me, brought about an unexpected destiny.

The lover I thought was dead, he was still alive.

It is happy this heart, knowing he is still healthy, but above happiness, it has been distorted by disappointment.

When the idol does not want to continue our love story, because only a reason friends and his face are damaged.

When I saw his face that was a little bit horrible like a ghost monster, it made me shocked, but now I don't care about it, the most important thing I need from him is a heart. A broken face can be repaired with surgery, but if the broken heart does not love anymore, it will be difficult to treat even with a sense of tenderness in the name of love.

I can still be patient in accepting his decision at this time, but because my love for him is still neatly stored in the heart, the stronger my sense of struggle to get it.

"If you reject it many times, my intention to have you will not just disappear, my mind will soon find a way. Heuueh, I'll prove Alex, just wait!" My spirit speaks for itself in my heart.

A deep sense of disappointment, making this self increasingly uncontrollable for the madness that has stopped in this self.

"Amel, where are you going these nights?" ask mom wonder.

"Hey Amel ... Amel, where are you going?" call him back to wondering.

I didn't answer that question, the move was hasty out of the house, that is to get to Alex's house as soon as possible.

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Good thing tonight I went into Alex's boarding house so easily, maybe he hasn't slept so the house isn't locked.

Braak, the sound of Alex's door opening by force. He was so shocked to see me coming. I clicked, the sound of the key I had managed to play, and I threw it to the right from where I was standing. I approached him who was relaxing lying in a mattress.

"Amira, what's ka-?" Voice restrained.

Lightning-fast legs stepped over to Alex who was still stunned standing. Without his consent. Cuup, sweet lips I crushed gently and ferociously. I held her head tight, so she wouldn't shy away from my kiss. Alex, looks so thrashed want to immediately get away from my actions, seen from the way he wants to push himself to stay away.

"Amel, stop?" Clown with an angry shrill voice.

I still don't care what he says. My axioms just keep going crazy, by peppering his mouth full of passion. Regardless, now it turns to his neck, and I continue to kiss his sex lips with affection. My heart was beating so hard, my face just kept clinging to not let go of our kiss. Alex seemed to enjoy and did not refuse at all.

"Amel, stop .. stop this! What are you doing?" said angry.

"I won't stop until I get you" I casually refused.

Now Alex is trying to hold my hand, to stop me from undressing. Sheerk, the sound of my sleeves being torn wide from the opposite of my hands to her.

"Stop Amel!" again in emotion.

"I don't want to," I refused.

"Enough! Stop this," his voice grinned.

"You lied, Alex. Say, that you still love me, because it looks so from the way you didn't want to let go of that kiss," My tears shed as I spoke.

"Already! Do not reveal any more the love that has been lost" he replied heartlessly.

"Well, pers*t*n with all that!" my answer doesn't matter.

When Alex began to let my guard down from holding me back from undressing, the act of behavior was done again that is to open all clothes. The strong self misses him, for the next time my lips again seduce to kiss him again

"Stop it, I said stop all this," he snapped that seemed emotional.

Bhugh, my body fell on the floor, because Alex had pushed me. Now my sobs seem to slash when his rude behavior appears that is not as gentle as before.

"I'm sorry, Amel!" he said weak in the idle.

Now Alex approached and tried to put his hand on my shoulder, but I threw it hard so as not to touch me. My eyes are now staring intently at him, because my anger has been felt in the air over his attitude just now.

"Don't say sorry .. sorry keep going. I don't want to listen to those words anymore, all I want is love, okay!" I said annoyed with my hands closing my ears, so as not to hear Alex's boring words.

"Wear this" he said, propping a jacket.

He put his jacket to cover my body that only wears a subordinate skirt, with my upper body only covered in a woman's glasses.

"I can't, Amel. This self yesterday-yesterday has said that it does not love you anymore, my love for you seems dead," he said clearly.

"Why?."

"Is it because of Iwan and your face? Is there no other more appropriate reason, which explains why your love is lost?" I ask him to anger.

"I told you there was no other reason, only Iwan and my face were right to make my reason strong" he said, looking away.

"I want you, Alex. Why don't you love me again, isn't that a promise you made, why ... huh, why? I have no life force anymore because of you, and now you want to run away from that responsibility?" my question, with the breath of fireworks is not because of the emotion dominating the soul.

"Not .. no, not that I don't want responsibility. But ah-- , now I really can't love you anymore" she said.

"Whatever you want, I will not give up and stop loving you" said my emotion that has now risen when I sat down.

Brak ... praang .. preng, I threw the vase and the other stuff that went to Alex.

"Belgium ... Aaaaaaa," I cried angrily, as a result of insanity that was hard to control hearing his explanation.

"Amel, please calm down ... calm down," said Alex trying to persuade me.

Tok ... tok, "Amel, Alex? Why y'all? Let's talk carefully, tok .. tok, Amel!" My mother caught up with me and now she's knocking on the door many times.

But we are still in arguments, because I still insist on the right to be loved Alex again.

Brak ... preng, relentless hands keep throwing stuff in Alex's room.

"Stop Amel. Why is it so hard for you to understand that I don't want you anymore" Alex snapped so I stopped touching the stuff I kept throwing away.

"Alright, Alex. If that's what you want, it's pretty clear to me that you don't love me anymore. From this moment, today, I will not love you anymore, goodbye. May you be happy for your decision" said ketusku tearfully, then passed away leaving him.

"Amel wait ... Amel?" Call him who wants to stop me.

Ceklek, my door opened with a key that had been thrown by me, mother just looked at me with a strange look when she came out. Steps continue to run, by continuing to rub the grains that have been dripping.

I don't mind Alex's call anymore and mom keeps calling. However, Alex's previous mistakes I can still forgive, and hope he will change his decision, but it turns out everything is not in accordance with my expectations.