Love Stifled By Destiny's

Dejection

"Aaah, what a shame my fate is for not being able to get you right away, Amel. So much 'is your love for Alex that you don't want to be with me now?" ask yourself when you are pensive.

I've swallowed the bitter disappointment of a very big one. Who suspects that the application that has been prepared carefully has been rejected outright.

Amel is not like most girls, even though he comes from the descendants of rich people, but he never one bit to be arrogant let alone show off his property. This self is so fascinated by the tenderness and kindness of his heart. I have long had a heart for him in our friendship, though we have often been close and spent time together never once did he know that I had fallen in love with him. With all my courage last night, this self tried to propose her to be a wife, but how unfortunate my fate turned out to be his love Alex was still engraved beautifully in Amel's heart.

I sat pensively on the balcony of the house to see the flickering of the stars that were emitting their light, which was behind the white clouds that were covering some of the charm of its beauty. The head is now full of thoughts how the fate of my love that claps this one hand, is it possible that my love for him can be united or not? Or it will be destroyed to end there is no longer a love story.

"Do I have to kidnap her, and take her away to marry me by force? Ah .. ah .. no .. it's impossible!" The head shook strongly.

"Haiiist, why is my mind thinking so much about doing that? That means it's the same as forcing Amel's will to love me. There was no way this self would do that long to do to him. And if all that happens parents will certainly bear shame, due to stupid thoughts and mere lust. Heeh, what am I supposed to do?" a heart that keeps wondering.

The shadow still vividly remembered when asking for his love agreement to make a wife, but what happened? Amel looked so shocked and shocked, as if his face last night was predictable that he would definitely reject her. Over the uncontrolled anger again, who would have guessed that it almost filled the emotions that had peaked last night by breaking all the glasses and dishes. But again I remembered, it was not my fault nor anyone's fault that in Amel's heart there was still the name Alex. I really understand all that, but Alex is no longer in this world, what is the fault of this self if it fills the emptiness of his heart?.

I was a bad man, impatient to wait, to open Amel's heart to me.

"Heeh, should I apologize to him for my mistake last night? I can accept everything patiently, but there are times when patience has its limits and until when to hold on to wait for everything. Patience .. Patience Iwan," I said in my heart trying to strengthen myself.

Patience of holding ourselves that we want, will this self be able to live it, that is to continue to survive? I don't want to lament the failure to get his love, my job is to correct only the wrong that was rude to him last night, to have failed a hundred times to get Amel, then I'll figure out a way over a thousand times to get that love.

Now I can only have a chest and must be strong when I get rejection from him, maybe I am too confident for the long time Amel left Alex, Alex, so with the stupidity that I have had the courage to apply forcefully to my own friends.

A disappointment still feels so painful.

It was as if I was a man who didn't deserve it.

Maybe I deserve to be just a secret admirer of his love.

I used to smile when he was near me.

It felt like I wanted to express my love to her, from the very beginning.

But in reality, this self has lost quickly with Alex who has been made first with Amel.

"What are you wearing to me, Amel? Until I can't get away from you?" for me in my heart I feel anger.

"What's up, Ivan? Looks like mama noticed you're daydreaming all the time?" ask the mother who approached me.

"Eh, mama. There's nothing!" reply relax.

"really? Mama knows you have a problem again" guess what he said.

"Heeeeeh, yes ma. Iwan there's a little problem!" I answered with a long breath.

"Where's the proposal? It worked?" ask him.

"That's my problem now, ma. For Amel rejected it!" sahutku.

"You have to be patient and keep fighting to get it!" mother's words gave her spirit.

"But it felt like it was all so difficult and impossible. Adored and the mind of Amel continued there was only his old lover Alex," I complained bitterly.

"Mama knows, Iwan. Maybe he will have difficulties too and will not easily forget all the memories with his old lover. But he's dead, isn't he? Just slow. Amel seems to need time for all that, so you need to be patient. Slowly but surely stay close to him. If he starts to forget, knock on the door of his heart that had frozen just one love of the past, then you will easily be able to master it. Mama will support you, so don't give up. Women are difficult to forget the person who has been patched in his heart, but if the wound has healed then all that will be easy in his way," at length advice mamadap patting slowly on my shoulder.

"yes too. Thank you, ma. Iwan will continue to fight for Amel until his heart is completely broken to accept me," said my spirit has recovered.

"Good, son. This is the child of the mother who never gave up to get the adoration of the heart," he added softly.

Only a sweet smile given by my mother, for my spirit that has begun to recover fiery again due to his advice.

"The mother said, I must not give up, his heart is still locked in Alex's name, maybe if I was still being kind and always by his side, he would eventually melt also on my struggle. Yeah right, you've got a lot more patience to get you Amel!" a heart that still wants to fight for the heart.

"Just wait for Amel, surely you will fall and submit to me, for your love is still closed today. Surely you will feel happy when you are with me later, like the happiness you once lived with Alex first!" I hope you can get it easily after this," I promised to believe in myself.