Love Stifled By Destiny's

Persuading to eat

You are like a solicitor endlessly making happy.

Your typical dashing voice, now it has not been heard again.

A sweet smile, now as if lost swallowed by time.

Silence now days without your shadow.

The world seemed to smile sincerely when you left is not here anymore.

Goodbye, my dear Alex.

The body left only by the skeleton has now been placed on a stretcher, accompanied by mourners, to bring his departure to the final resting place. The funeral took place solemnly, with mounds of earth already sprinkled with so many roses of various colors. Now Alex's funeral has been surrounded by schoolmates, teachers, and our closest neighbors.

Mourners began to leave the cemetery. Me and my parents have not yet moved from the cemetery area, it feels like we are so unbearable to leave the middle bik Sari alone. He looked so devastated, staring blankly at the mound of earth that was still reddening its color. Bik Sari continued to stroke the mound vortex of the ground. I don't know how long his tears drip, like there will be endless tears. Alex has managed to make everyone feel sad and lost his figure, including the school teacher and his close friends.

Frangipani flowers began to fall from the tree, fell in a cemetery that was already deserted. Bik Sari now battered hugging so long mumbled the burial ground, his eyes were still the same that was a little damp due to the unceasing tears.

"Bik let's go home, it's getting late!" my words that have surprised bik Sari.

"But I still want to see my son" he replied.

"We know, bik. You love your son so much, Alex. But let him go and lay him by his side, let him be at peace in his new world. Aunty do not do this, because if you dissolve in sadness, Alex will also not calm there," said mama helped persuade bik Sari.

"Yes, bik. It's true what the mother said. Affirm Alex let him also smile happily, when you see you are happy do not cry it continues. Come on, let's go home first. If there's time we can come here whenever we want" I said.

"Non good!" answer him shirk.

His hand now stroked the soft gravestone that had been designed, as if his heart felt heavy to leave. With my shoulder, I tried to lead Bik Sari to leave the burial area immediately. My heart was already sore as it left its vortex, but the face was still trying to smile sweetly in front of both my parents and bik Sari. The world seems to have collapsed thinking about how my life will be, without Alex on this side anymore.

Didn't expect everything to happen so quickly, and now I'm trying my hardest to clear things up. Every human being will leave this mortal world, surely everyone will experience the spirit of his body, that is, to face death. I tried to accept everything by being steadfast, even though it was so heartbreaking.

No matter what the situation is, my focus is now on Alex's mother, because her gaze is always so empty, as if she is unwilling that her only child has now left this world.

"Bik Susi, eat up!" Tell me.

My hand had brought a tray of food, tried to offer food to Bik Sari, because for several days no food entered his stomach.

"Put it down, non. Auntie is not feeling well!" answer him lethargic.

"But bik, it's been three days aunty just daydreaming and rarely to eat," said I persuaded.

"But bik" I said disagree.

"Not really, just put it there. Aunty will eat later" she replied reassuringly.

"Heeh, alright bik!" I replied that I would not continue to persuade him anymore.

Since Alex's death, make Sari become more silent and not many words come out of his mouth, talk only as necessary, it feels like this self is so worried about his condition.

Today trying to persuade him to eat, by bringing food into his room, the intention of the heart so that he has strength that can arouse energy, because this self has been worried about the situation of the increasingly sari bik like a pale and weak undead. His job is now just daydreaming in the room just don't want to eat. My situation is now very inversely proportional because it wants to serve his own maid, but what is important is that he is in good health has been able to make me happy.

Somehow the heart felt quite unsettled and agitated, as if Alex was still near me. It feels ironic that this life, because it is too hoping that Alex can be present and come back to life in front of me now, who dreams and hopes to be in love with us again.

Silence, in my house now. Usually there are always laughter and voices that decorate my life, but now it feels very quiet and so empty.

It felt so quiet, that it felt like something was different and lacking. I was stunned in the bed, trying to take a deep sigh, with my face looking up at the ceiling of the house, and, the head tried to shake quickly when the shadow of Alex's face was back present that was already dancing in the mind.

"Ah, what's happening to me now? Alex's face pops up often and it really bothers me?" my girl rubbed my face rough.

The night had moved past the middle, quite even a week had Alex left me. I came back again and again unable to sleep, it felt like the eyes wanted to be closed but it was very difficult to do so, Alex's shadow always came back to fill my mind. His laughter so sweetly filled my imagination, as if Alex was talking to me and joking together.

"Ah shit! Why did I get this way? I don't think his face, voice and laughter can be forgotten. Ooh ... Alex, why do your shadows always haunt me? I love you so much that your face can't always be lost in my memory. O Lord, take away my thoughts and feelings about her, for I am utterly tormented by her shadow that continues to be present" I have ruffled my own hair, it turns out the delusion comes back again and again to haunt itself.

Only this silence can bury all tastes deeply. Now enough is enough to be a memory and a mere wishful thinking.

"Where are you, bik?" ask mama when bik Saei serves food.

"Thank God, I am kind and sincere about all this, madam!" he smiled at the sumringah.

"Alhamdulillah then, bik. We also feel happy for your return as if you could smile again" said mama was happy too.

"Yes, bik. Amel was also happy, aunty could smile widely again!" As I said.

"Yes, non, mistress. Now aunt is beginning to realize Alex's departure. For what reason we continue to grieve, when the person we remember is no longer in this world," he replied with patience and understanding.

"Yes, bik. You have to keep fighting through this life. Keep up the spirit, bik. If you are happy, Alex will be happy and calm there," said mama again.

"Yes, madam. Definitely it!" answer agree bik Sari.

Finally the mother of the person I love can also come out of sadness, because I am so afraid if anything happens to him who increasingly does not want to eat and thin his body.