Love Stifled By Destiny's

Tries to go

My situation is always troublesome Mr. Ahmad's family makes me quickly want to get out of his house. At first they did not agree to my desire to leave, but because I insisted on looking for the whereabouts of my mother and beloved heart, they finally allowed though heavy hearted.

"You take good care of your condition, Alex!" said pak Ahmad advising.

"Okay sir, thank you for the kindness of my father's family towards me" I said.

"Sister Alex ... Alex's brother?" call Budi.

"Yes, why baby?" I approached him directly. She seemed to be sad when she was going to say goodbye to me.

"Sister Alex, don't forget Budi. If you have time to play here! I will miss Alex!" The cry Budi said as I hugged.

"Good Budi. Don't cry anymore, ok! Cook a child of a champion kebangaan brother can crybaby. I promise, if there is a chance, I will always stop by and visit Budi," I said to calm him down.

"Promise, huh?" he said he didn't believe.

"Sure, promise!" I cut her pinkie with mine.

"Then I'll leave first, sir, ma'am?" I said that kissed the hands of Asih ma'am and Ahmad sir.

"I also say hello to the legi as well, aunt, uncle!" say Niko's following along.

"Yes, Alex. You be careful, don't forget to tell us if it gets there," replied hoarse Asih.

"Yes, mom. Surely it's. Da .. da, Assalamualaikum," I said softly as I waved my hand.

"Halaikumsalam, watch out for you on the road. Bye ... bye .. bye," said everyone waving their hands.

Niko and I are now riding a motorcycle, to get back to the hamlet right where my mom works, but because mom is no longer in that hamlet, she said, by being forced to join Niko's work and contract a house for where I live in the meantime.

Armed with martial arts, the determination to find out the news of mother and Amel, did not undo my intention to give up immediately, although I did not know where to start to find information about them.

I work as a construction worker, while Niko is a foreman, in house-building projects. Because I do not have izasah, any job I have to do in order to survive.

"Alex?" call Niko to surprise me while daydreaming.

"Yes, Niko. What's up?" my many.

"No pa-pa, is it lunch?" tanyakanya.

"It."

"I'm sorry Alex, for not being able to find you a decent job like everyone else. You're okay with this job?" tanyanya hesitates who is now taking part in sitting lesehan on the ground.

"I'm fine with this job. The most important thing is to be able to connect my life and to rent a place to live. Instead, I said many thanks for your services that I always bothered, so hard to give me a job," I said thank you.

"Oh yes, Alex. Do you still love Amel?" the question surprised me.

"Come, Niko. In my heart there was still love that remained the same for me, but since my face had been broken, it felt like I was afraid to have it and come back to it again!"

explained me.

"But? Aren't you the one who hasn't given up all this time?" ask him again.

"I never gave up because I was poor, but things are different now. My face like this muster, will be afraid if it will make him feel embarrassed to be able to love me again," frightened, I said.

"I don't think Amel is like that. When she heard you died, Amel was the first one to be so beaten up that he didn't attend school for a week. His body is getting thinner, plus the death of his parents. But now he's changed a lot! more mature and not spoiled anymore like time with you," Niko tried to tease me.

"Isn't he? It's good that he can be more mature, let alone independent. He should have changed to be able to take care of himself, I confirmed.

"Let's get back to work, so we can finish this house renovation job quickly, the hot sun is getting higher and higher" I told him.

"OK 'lah."

"Oh yes, Alex. If there are no obstacles, about five months more we will get a big project, namely the construction of a new school, but that is far away in the city of Semarang. If we can all get the job done quickly, it's a good bonus later" Niko explained.

"That's why? Then can we have a dinner party?" godaku.

"What the hell can Niko do. Definitely dong! We and other friends, will still have a nice dinner party," Niko replied.

"Hore .. hooray. Wow, that's fun, boss! Steady anyway," the voice of all the happy coworkers over Niko's words just now.

Unrestrained longing can not be denied anymore, but what else to do when loved ones are far away in the eyes, who do not know where it is now?.

Salalu heart asked and worried, whether she was now okay or just the opposite.

"I'm so worried about you and your mother, Amel. Are you all right to live this life without a brother accompanying you?" heartbreak speaks.

I'd love to see your face, even for a second.

The desire to hear the voice, now also feels strong.

It feels so bad to hear your chattering chattering storytelling, and with your jokes that always emit a smile.

My longing for you, now so irresistible, feels once now that I have lost your figure so much.

The heart says it wants to meet, but on the other hand I'm so afraid to meet him. When I see the condition of my face right now, whether he will still love me or avoid it, which is when I see my face that is like a ghostly monster walking scary.