Love Stifled By Destiny's

Kangen is with him

Why are you quiet, Alex?" niko asked curiously as we were boarding the bus to continue the journey.

"I'm fine, man!" weak answer.

"You're patient" he said as if knowing what happened to me.

The meeting that just happened made me miss him even more. As happy as he was after three years apart, the accidental fate brought us back together. But I didn't want to get any closer to him, because the shadows on my face that had been broken like a ghost monster, scared me even more that he would be further away from me if he had seen it.

"Alex, are you okay? From that moment I saw your gaze was always empty," asked Niko when we arrived at work.

"I'm fine, Niko!" weak answer.

"But your face shows something you're thinking about. I know you must be lying now, Alex. I've known you for a long time, you must be thinking about meeting Amel, right?" he asked again.

"Heeh, does my face look like that? I did think of him, who must have missed him too. But what else! I don't think I'm ready to face it. I was so afraid that this scary face of mine would make her run away from me even more" I replied hoarsely.

"Are you very sure of your actions that you want to stay away from? Amel loves you very much. I'm sure for sure he will accept all your circumstances now, even though your face has been damaged even though" said Niko reassured.

"I know, Niko. But I think this self no longer deserves to be with him, whose face is so perfectly beautiful and beautiful. Surely he would be better if one day can find someone who is more worthy of him, unlike me who is already ugly," I said humbled myself.

"All right, it's up to you, Alex. All decisions are in your hands right now. As your friend I can only support you from behind. If you are happy, surely I will also feel the happiness that is in you," he said.

"Thank you, Niko. You are a friend who has always been there for me" I said with a sweet smile.

"Yes, Alex. You're welcome."

This self who was shocked at the unexpected encounter just now, now made me only able to be silent a thousand languages. The mind is now floating around, remembering the times of love stories that were yesterday.

I have to keep thinking positively over and over again, to make it all feel good.

It must rise better than all life lived, a painful tragedy from the past.

Love is indeed beautiful and intoxicating, who is affected will feel sure to be absorbed into it.

But a shy love that is not worth the loved one, will make the feeling turn into fear.

Without feeling a lot of clear tears, have tried to rush flowing down the cheeks. The decision against him who wants to stay away, will make me feel worse. But whatever it may be, it is all planned by the merciful God. Maybe someday the sense of inferiority will disappear by itself, if if he wants to accept the sincere state of this self.

If patience in trials can be passed, hopefully the sense of adversity will be replaced by the Almighty Creator of this universe with a sense of happiness.

"Your face is terrible, Alex. Surely Amel will be ashamed to be with you, so back away from him. You should stay away from him. Yes, it's true that you should stay away from him" I said inwardly to myself.

Hands rubbed his face violently, feeling eager to scream out loud, to vanish a freedom of longing. Although it is right near him, but this self is really quite restrained, so do not need to touch it immediately.

In the mind consciousness, the heart has tapped out a love, which is broken.

It turns out that the shadow of a lover always comes back dancing to fill my mind.

His laughter was always chatty in speech, as if it were playing with his merdunya in my imagination.

Sickness, pain, but this feeling must remain in patience, which has been felt at this time.

the most beautiful thing that has ever been passed, cannot be repeated to be with him.

She is a friendly, kind girl, I deserve to be interested in her.

What a fortune, it turns out that he loves me too.

Because of the complex on my face, it scared me.

What a terrible fear, no longer able to greet him and love him again.

A few hours ago, upon meeting him, it felt like my throat was choked, that this self was incapable of saying a word. I could only speak a thousand languages looking at the mouth of a lover who was endlessly talking casually with Niko.

"I miss you so much, Amel. I'd love to hold you, after all these years we're no longer together. Do you miss me too? Aah, you may also miss, but that feeling may be gone when you know that I am gone in this world," the concocted heart that still has its shadow torturing itself.

The banyangan banyangannya back milleran, beautiful face that has long been invisible to this self, really make my heart increasingly feel reassuring, to continue to miss him.

"Hey buddy, just daydream from earlier. Eat the rice wrap, cold hunt and will not be tasty to eat," said Niko told me when again I daydream.

"Yes, Niko. Thanks for reminding me. Heeh I don't know what's happening to me right now?" my lament.

"You must have missed Amel so much, that he's always on your mind right now" Niko guessed.

"You said, Niko. It's hard for me to just forget it" I replied.

"It all seems difficult, but if you slowly master the science to forget it can, I am sure because you are now separated by distance. Maybe you imagine Amel, because it has not seen him for many years," added Niko while giving advice.

"That's right, Niko. I'll keep trying to master that science, so he doesn't expect more from me. I thought Amel was dead, so maybe he had forgotten me a long time ago" I replied.

"You are calm and patient. Surely all you can do easily," said Niko encouraging.

"Yes, Niko."

There was a pain that sliced, as I was trying hard to maintain our love at that time.

This self is very sure that there will be no one, who will be able to make me turn away from Amel forever my love is only imprinted for him.

But God turned out to have distorted the story, by testing us, by separating the fabric of our love affair.

"Well, what is this self-power. I am just an ordinary human being who is unable to rebel against the destiny that has been determined by the All-Giving Living. It is better that I should be much grateful for the lives that are still attached to the body not to leave this world," I said in my heart.

Only patience and sincerity can strengthen the heart, which is being upset no longer by the taste. The tears do not seem to stop dripping, even though the hands are doing work, because the mind continues to float thinking about it.

Farewell is the way God provides, in order to mature what true love means.

I continue to believe that the pain of a separation can be the door to the path of consciousness.

That a boyfriend is not necessarily the best mate, for us to live a domestic life later.