It's up to God

Inner Speech

In the darkness of the molten twilight, the woman was in a labyrinth of confusion and suffering. Like a ship that lost its compass in an endless ocean, it was swayed in a current of uncertainty. His inner wounds that had been embedded since childhood, were now deepening; extending the shadow of darkness that haunted him.

In the silence of the night, on the edge of the winding path of life, he stood alone. It never occurred to her that the love that was woven with the man was a thin thread that linked two different religions. It was as if he had walked on the clouds without realizing how fragile the balance he was upholding was.

When the heartbreaking news approached him, he was shaken. Fear and confusion ambushed his heart, leaving him wounded and devastated. Apparently, the wall that seemed to be flanking him all along was a wall that hid the invisible differences between them. When the wall collapsed, he was too weak to hold on.

With a voice that was full of tenderness, but full of sorrow, he said words that came out from the bottom of his wounded heart, flowing like an unstoppable river of tears. As he sobbed and his eyes were tightly shut by the cries, his body drooped limp, helpless. He succumbed to the burden of suffering that surrounded him, until finally losing consciousness in the darkness of increasingly rampant wounds.

The fate that hit him like it never stopped. Like a piercing thorn, he felt the pain of every breath of tightness. He who used to believe so much in his love and faith, is now trapped in the torment of loss. The compass that had been leading him all along, had now disappeared from nowhere, making him oscillate without direction.

However, in the deep darkness, there were still rays of warmth left. There was the figure of an elder brother as a strong pillar, becoming a home for the woman. He was the fortress that guarded the woman from the relentless lunge of the life-shaking storm. Although the compass was gone, he had a place that could be used as a foothold. Despite her inability to believe anymore, her brother remained a steadfast backrest.

With open wounds and confusion filling her mind, she looked for a way back. He was trying to heal his deep inner wounds, picking up the shattered fragments of his hopes. However, every step was heavy, every choice being a torturous debate. The compass within him had been torn to shreds and he had to find a new direction to step in.

His never-tired fate showering on various sorrows has changed him. He no longer easily trusted anyone, including himself. In the pieces of wounds that were scratched in his heart, he felt an unbearable pain. In the void that surrounded him, he fumbled in the darkness, looking for an obscure path.

To him, the future felt like a mist enveloping him. There was no longer a bright spot directing his steps. He was drifting in an ocean of uncertainty, not knowing where his life was headed. However, even though he was wounded and staggered, the flames of his will that were still burning inside him maintained his desire to rise up and rediscover his lost identity amidst the darkness that struck him.

On her long journey to recovery, the woman decided to take time to heal her wounds. He sought the support of those closest to him, including the older brother who had become his pillar of strength. With them, he built a new foundation to start over.

In the process of healing, the woman found a new power in her. He learned to accept and appreciate differences, and found that true love was not bound by boundaries such as religion or background. She begins to build healthy, respectful relationships with those around her, choosing to see the good in each individual.

Slowly, the darkness that hit him began to diminish. He rediscovers confidence in himself and embraces life with passion. In a quest to find a new direction in life, she decides to go on a deep spiritual journey, seeking deeper meaning in her existence.

Time passed and the woman began to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Although her dark past still leaves a mark on her, she has learned to accept and integrate her experiences in shaping her new self. He became stronger, wiser, and empathetic.

Eventually, the woman found a new direction in life. She began a career that matched her interests and talents, and found happiness in serving and helping others. In the process, she shared her story with people who had similar difficulties, providing hope and inspiration to those who felt adrift in the dark.

Then in the end, she found true peace and happiness. She learned to love herself wholeheartedly and cherish every moment of life. Though the journey of her life was not easy, she realized that through hardships and suffering, she had grown into a better version of herself.

In the light of awakening that radiates from within her, she faces the future with optimism. He has rediscovered the compass of his life, though it is different from the previous one. He is ready to explore the world with new beliefs, bringing wisdom and kindness wherever he goes.

The twists and turns of her life have taught her not to give up, even as darkness surrounds her. He has found strength in uncertainty and been a source of inspiration for those around him.

From here the story of Nadira began, in the middle of the journey of his life full of inner turmoil. Like the waves that continue to hit the beach, Nadira felt the tests that tested her mental strength. Sometimes, his steps felt weak, barely able to go any further. However, in each of those difficulties, Haikal, his older brother, was always present as a safe harbor for him.

Haikal is a house that always welcomes Nadira warmly, making it a shelter when the storms of life come. He gives Nadira strength and encouragement, giving her confidence that she is not alone on this journey.

However, one day, Nadira meets Ammar. The meeting was like a romance story he often watched on FTV. Whether the story is too deep for him to remember or whether it is God's destiny that has determined his way, Nadira strongly believes that this is the best destiny God has given him.

Although her life was full of twists and turns, Nadira never gave up. He keeps trying hard, becomes a motivator for himself, and inspires others through his writings. Every word that is engraved in his writing has a deep meaning, capable of shaking the heart of every reader.

Behind the unsettling angst, Nadira managed to publish two books entitled "Your Best Destiny" and "Leave Him for Him". His works have broken boundaries, inspired and given hope to many. Now he is ready to launch his third book. Because for Nadira, writing is one way to free his mind from all the anxiety that haunts him.

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