It's up to God

Ammar's anger

Ammar is shocked to see Nadira with Jerry. He also found out that Jerry was out of prison. Ammar felt disrespected as a husband by Nadira. Nadira doesn't usually behave like this.

Without thinking, Ammar approached Nadira and Jerry. Without saying, Ammar withdrew Nadira's hand, until Nadira stood up and followed Ammar's hasty steps.

"God! Let go of my hand, "pinta Nadira.

Ammar did not press Nadira's request. He kept holding his wife's hand in anger. Jerry could not get out of his seat to help Nadira who looked in pain because Ammar's hand grip was very tight. Jerry was aware of his position as a nobody. So, he did not feel he had the right to forbid Ammar from bringing Nadira. Moreover, Ammar was Nadira's legitimate husband.

Ammar looked at Nadira with a guilty feeling. Nadira and Ammar are no longer seen by Jerry.

"I'm sorry, Nad. You have been through a lot of suffering because of my mistakes. Today, I intend to fix everything, but instead add new problems."

Jerry kept on cursing himself. Holding his head that suddenly hurt. His head feels like it's about to break. He suddenly hit the table hard. This makes it the center of attention of other visitors and also the waiters in the cafe.

In the car park. Nadira cries of tears soaked her cheeks, to hit Nadira's plain red headscarf. Nadira is indeed rarely even almost never wear a patterned hijab, she is more comfortable using a plain hijab. According to him, the plain hijab is more simple and elegant.

Ammar opened the car door and forced Nadira inside without saying anything. Then it was her turn to get into the car. Ammar started the engine of his car with a feeling of anger being held back. Nadira looked at her husband's face with fear. She knew that her husband this time her anger could not be controlled. Nadira. The atmosphere in the car was quiet. However, Nadira's tears accompanied their journey.

Ammar kept driving his car. It's not usually Ammar's speed like this. Making his car almost hit a passing cat, but luckily Ammar can still control his emotions by stopping his car for a moment. After the cat is safe. Ammar started the car again and continued their journey back to the Al Fathonah boarding school.

The atmosphere in the car remains the same. Silent. They kept quiet, as if there was nothing more to talk about. Nadira was eager to open the conversation, but seeing the expression on her husband's face that was flushed red, her mouth suddenly twisted. Nadira wiped away her tears, but still her crying could not be contained. Until the cry broke, Nadira sobbed and finally made Ammar stop his car. On the one hand, Ammar was still upset, but on the other hand, Ammar was afraid of Nadira's illness.

Ammar breathed heavily by closing his eyes. He held his head, then stroked his chest. Distighfar for a moment and take a bottle of drink in the pocket of the car behind his seat.

Just a few gulps. Ammar gave the bottle to Nadira. He was still silent, but could not hide his worries to his wife. His mouth may be silent, but not with his attention.

Nadira took the bottle. Then drink the water until it runs out. Nadira set his breath that felt tight. Do not forget to beristighfar and pray that the pain does not recur. It is very important to keep physical and mental for Nadira. Given, his health is often unstable.

From a distance, a sign that read "Pondok Pesantren Al Fathonah" has been seen. Nadira was ready to be interrogated by her husband.

***

In the room, the atmosphere was silent for a moment. Nadira did not dare to open the conversation. He was just waiting for Ammar to speak. Ammar went to the bathroom that was in their room to wash their faces.

A few minutes later, Ammar came out of the bathroom with his face and wet hair. Meanwhile, Nadira was already sitting on the sofa.

Ammar and Nadira sat next to each other. Until finally, Ammar's question broke the silence that began since Nadira was picked up at the cafe.

The series of questions asked by Ammar, made Nadira confused to answer the question which one used to be and what things first should be explained.

Nadira took a short breath.

"I'm sorry about you. I know, I was wrong, but I hope you will listen to all my explanations without emotion. I also asked not to cut my explanation," he asked.

Ammar nodded.

"I asked permission to the bookstore it was true, my goal was originally to go there. However, on the way to the bookstore, there was a new number call coming in on my phone. I answered him because I was worried that it was an important number to answer his phone. When I picked up the number, I was surprised because the one who called was Jerry. I don't know where he got my number, but he asked for time to meet. He said there was something important to talk to me. He asked me to go to the cafe. I went there to make sure that the one who called was Jerry because I was trying to make a video call, he didn't want to. Nowadays, fraud is increasingly prevalent. That's why I don't believe it so easily."

Nadira breathed for a moment. Swallowing spit that has no taste. While Ammar, he was very serious about listening to Nadira's explanation.

"When we met, it was true Jerry. I didn't ask when she was free, just asked her purpose of wanting to meet me. Jerry says he deeply regrets his past actions and promises to change for the better. He also asked me to extend his apology to everyone, especially to Hafiz, you, and Abi Lutfi, the owner of this pesantren whose kitchen was sabotaged in order to cause a fire."

Nadira looked at her husband with guilt. Her tears did not feel dripping, but she continued her explanation because she did not want her husband to misunderstand her meeting with her ex-boyfriend.

"What I feel about Jerry. I'm disappointed in you who still question it. Do you doubt that I have completely forgotten? And you know very well what my history is with Jerry, even after all the things that happened to our family."

Ammar was silent for a moment. He thought of something. His mind and heart were fighting. Suddenly silence returned.

Then, a minute later, Ammar spoke again.

"I'm sorry. Not doubting your feelings, let alone your loyalty as a wife, I'm jealous if you walk with your ex without my knowledge. Maybe because I'm afraid of losing you, Nad. I love you so much and don't want you to do anything. Moreover, Jerry has hurt our family many times. I can't forget that, Nad. Can't!"

For the first time, Ammar cried in front of Nadira. Nadira hugged her husband and wiped away the tears of her husband.

"Yes. I understand all your worries. I'm sorry. Anyway, I was wrong for not telling you when Jerry called. Ii'm sorry. Sorry .. so."

Eventually the misunderstanding that occurred could be resolved wisely. They both promised to strengthen each other, understand, and understand.

In a relationship, good communication is required. If we are ready to get married, it means we must be ready to chat a lot of things with our partner. That is why, it is very important to be more selective in choosing a life partner because we will be a good listener and storyteller for our partner. Do not let, poor communication with a partner, make the relationship fall apart.

Eventually, both physical and mental illness. His household relations became fractured and even collapsed; it was destroyed and could not be rebuilt into a dream house. Couples are supposed to be a home for us to go home, a place to stay, not just stop by or stay overnight.

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