It's up to God

Analyzing Past Events

Night is the time when a person should relax from all activities, including the brain that has been tired all day thinking. However, unlike Ammar, he still talks with his mind and heart to analyze the incident last afternoon, when at Nadira's house. For some reason, suddenly Ammar fingers surfed on social media and find out the chronology of Nadira's life. Her shrill spirit earlier this afternoon, trying to be broken after compromising with her mind and heart.

Sure enough, Nadira had suffered a heartbreak that was deep enough, making him critical and finally rushed to the hospital. After being analyzed even more deeply, it is only natural that Nadira's nature is a little indifferent and very careful in associating, especially with the opposite sex. Plus, Haikal who will never again let his only puppet sister experience heartbreak again like two years ago.

Flashbacks about the story of Nadira two years ago, when he was 19 years old, his busy education, made him never think about romance. Nadira only thinks about his dreams that must be achieved, as well as about the success that must be given to parents. That's all it is! However, for some reason there is a male figure who managed to convince his heart, that dating the opposite sex will make him more enthusiastic about learning.

Until finally, Nadira's heart was melted. Nadira had a special relationship with the man. The name of the man who managed to melt Nadira's heart was Jerry Agustian. The man who is often called Jerry is one of the students at the University of Life. Aye! The same school as Nadira. Only, Nadira is still in the third semester, while Jerry is in the fifth semester.

Three months already Nadira and Jerry are dating, all still looks fine. If there is a fight, it is natural.

After successfully breaking Nadira's heart, Jerry was close to Nadira's family, including Haikal who was not only a brother to Nadira, but also friends and protectors. If anyone made his sister cry, Haikallah would be the first to beat the culprit. Haikal was given full responsibility by his parents to keep his beloved sister in because both Haikal and Nadira's parents often left the city.

...***...

One day, when Jerry wanted to invite Nadira to go on a date, Haikal never stop giving advice to Jerry to never even hurt Nadira. Jerry understood that. Everything happened as Haikal expected, especially Nadira. The first girl to fall in love feels that Jerry is her first and last love. Whatever Nadira wants, it's always filled with Jerry. Even small things, such as asking Jerry to bring food at unusual hours that is midnight, Jerry did it for Nadira. It was still lucky because the food requested by Nadira was still sold at 12 pm.

Nadira feels that Jerry really loves her. Lucky to be Jerry's girlfriend, he thought. But when Nadira and Jerry's relationship entered the fifth month, something changed from Jerry's attitude. As if something was covered. Nadira tried to ignore his premonition. Thoughts that are too overthinking something try to be eliminated.

Sure enough! Nadira discovers that Jerry is in contact with another woman. It was revealed when Nadira opened his social media account, there were friendly comments between Jerry and other women. Detective Nadira's soul comes out, he immediately finds out who the woman who tried to seduce his lover. It turned out that the woman was a student from another college.

In the end, Nadira feels betrayed. His heart was completely broken. It is rare to get love from parents. Then her brother who has been getting busy for giving responsibility to Jerry to take care of her, even found an extraordinary betrayal.

The next day, Nadira tries to speak kindly to Jerry.

"Do you still love me?" Nadira's eyes were swollen from crying all night.

Jerry frowned. "Why are you asking me about this?"

"Please ...! Just answer my question," asked Nadira in a soft voice.

Jerry who realized that Nadira had finished crying, immediately hugged the woman in front of him. The hug is still the same. Nadira still feels comfort when he is called Jerry. But Nadira's mind is still filled with questions about women who presumptuously indulge in intimacy with her lover. Nadira also had time to see there is a friendly photo between Jerry and the woman. To get rid of her curiosity, Nadira went straight to the point, asking her about her relationship with the woman by showing her a photo, which one was, which one was, Jerry embraces and kisses the cheek of a woman whose name is Farah.

"What do you have to do with Farah?" nadira asked with detained emotions.

Jerry was surprised, why Nadira could get a picture with Farah photographed before he was with Nadira. Jerry's face suddenly pale, but tried to relax so that Nadira did not think negatively further.

"Where did you get this picture from?" ask Jerry, find out.

"It doesn't matter where I got this photo from. Just answer my question!"

"Emm ..., that ...." Jerry was at a loss for words. Confused to explain how.

"Why? Just answer me, Jerry." Nadira's eyes began to tear. He tried to wipe his tears from coming out.

Jerry tried to find a logical reason to calm Nadira's heart. Jerry explains that the woman with him is his best friend. The photo was shot, long before Jerry and Nadira were dating. Nadira tries to trust Jerry and considers that the comments seen the other day, are only limited to friendship.

...***...

A few days later, Ammar returned to Nadira's house. He doesn't care about Haikal's words last week, which he knows, his feelings for Nadira can't be harbored anymore.

Ammar rang the bell near the fence of Nadira's house, but no one opened the door. Ammar rang the bell three times and still no one came out.

“Maybe they're out,” thought Ammar.

When Ammar was about to go home, there was a car blocking his way. Haikal and Nadira had just returned home. Haikal opened the windshield.

“Ammar! Can you ask me to open the gate?” pinta Haikal while giving the key.

“Ready, Bang!” replied Ammar sparingly.

Ammar immediately opened the fence and Haikal parked his car.

After that, Nadira got out of the car, followed by Haikal.

“Assalamaicum, Bang! Assalamualaikum, Nad!” greet Ammar.

“Waalaikumsalam!” answer the brothers.

“Bang! Can I talk to you for a second?” pinta Ammar, full of hope.

“Yeah, how, yes ...,” Haikal replied while glancing at his sister.

Nadira gave the code to her brother that she was very tired and wanted to rest.

“Can't be yes, Bang? Yes, I did, deh! I just go home,” said Ammar, looking down. His body was limp because the second time he would fail to express his feelings to Nadira.

Haikal felt sorry for Ammar. Then he invited Ammar in and asked Nadira to prepare drinks. Nadira nodded. The three of them came in.

...***...

Ammar nodded. “Iya, Bang! Please!”

I don't know what Haikal and Nadira were talking about inside, when Ammar was asked to wait in the living room. To be sure, the brothers were talking about something serious.

Three minutes later, Haikal approached Ammar in the living room. Nadira is still preparing drinks in the kitchen.

Haikal cleared his throat and immediately sat down. “What are you talking about, Mar? It seems very important,” asked Haikal with a curious look.

“So like this, Bang. Actually the other day, my intention to come to this house was to say that I loved Nadira from the beginning to see her on campus. Although I know, Nadira is very cold with men and a little avoidance,” said Ammar.

“I mean, want to make Nadira your girlfriend? That so?” Haikal's eyebrows go up.

“No, Bang. I don't mean it.”

Ammar's statements and answers are still long-winded. This made Haikal very upset.

“Continue saying, want to make my sister baper, then you just leave it? Huh!” Haikal started to get emotional. His tone became high.

Then, Nadira came with two glasses of yellow water.

“What's up, huh? Why are your faces so tense?”

“It's okay, Sister. You rest first, gih. He said he wanted to rest,” said Haikal.

“Nadira if you are tired, just rest,” said Ammar.

“Iya, Nad. Absolutely right! Rest there.”

Nadira was astonished while grumbling. “They're both why, anyway? Like something was hidden from me.”

“Nadira ..!” haikal Tegur.

“Siap, Brother!” nadira said with a respectful hand. Then whisper in her brother's ear, “Kak! Remember, loh! Don't grumpy. Hold the emotion, yes! Kan my brother is very fierce if there is a boy who mengapelin his sister.” Nadira laughs. Then, leave but he swears behind the wall.

Haikal shook his head and smiled. Then his eyes returned to Ammar.

“Iya! Where did our conversation get?” ask Haikal. “Duh, so forget, right!” Haikal patted his forehead.

“Intinya, I want to marry Nadira.”

Haikal was drinking, so spouted his drink on Ammar's face. He was shocked at Ammar's confession.

“Oopss! Pardon me! I didn't accidentally,” Haikal said.

Not only Haikal, Nadira who stood behind the wall was accidentally broke his favorite flower vase in surprise. Haikal and Ammar realized that their conversation was heard by Nadira, immediately approached.

“Nad! What you heard just now is true.”

Nadira is speechless and remembers what happened a few years ago when her relationship with Jerry had to run aground without a word.

...***...

“Nadira! This time I want to be honest with you. The girl you saw in the photo was my fiancee. We were betrothed, but I did not love the woman at all.” Finally after gathering courage, Jerry admitted the fact that had been covered up.

Nadira doesn't believe Jerry can lie to her. Nadira trusts Jerry completely.

“Nad! Sorry, yes! I didn't mean to hide this truth. I just need time to make you understand my circumstances.” Jerry held his hands together. Nadira was silent and not felt, a clear liquid running down her cheeks.

Nadira breathed a short breath. Then said, “I'm fine.”

“Nadira! After talking about it again, there was no match between us. Until we decided to end the engagement and managed to convince both of our parents.” Jerry kept convincing Nadira.

“I don't know what to say, Jer! My logic is that our relationship is wrong. You are still someone else's fiancee, but kekeh wants to be my lover.” Nadira gulped and tried to hold back the emotions that wanted to overflow. His mind is completely fucked. He was very disappointed with Jerry.

“Yes, Nad! I know, this is wrong. Please, give it a chance to fix everything.”

Seeing Jerry's sincerity, Nadira gives a second chance but Nadira asks for their relationship to be clarified. But Jerry's confession was more painful than a few minutes ago. Jerry is a non-Muslim Christian. Nadira's heart was pierced by a rusty knife. It is sad and deadly. Nadira says nothing and leaves Jerry. It turns out that the most painful LDR is a love of different religions and Nadira only realized this after six years of contact with Jerry.

“If it will finally be like this, then I will not let you enter into an important figure in my life story.” Nadira writes the last sentence for Jerry in his diary.

...****...