I'm Not a Wingless Angel

STRONGWOMAN

POV Author

He stared silently at the glass between himself and Dimas. His heart was broken to see the man he loved lay weakly there. No tears, no idea why.

" With..."

Mama Dimas cried as she pleased, her heart probably more broken than it is at this moment. Not once had he seen his beloved son as extremely weak and helpless as he was today.

" Brain cancer, stage 2."

What do you think will happen to everyone who listens to the news, let alone it happens to a partner we love very much, a friend in love and also sorrow, he said, giver of light after many dark roads passed.

He can't get his brain to work right now. Can only be silent to look at his beloved heart, his tears were not able to let out for what is happening now. According to him this was his mistake, less emphatic when asking Dimas to check his condition every time Dimas complained his head hurt.

He did not feel tired even though he had been standing for a long time. His eyes were like that too, not caring about any circumstances around. Ignoring the hysterically crying mama, Andi blames herself and repeatedly punches a nearby wall, doctors and nurses who go back and forth in and out of the treatment room, and, sound - sound coming out of the machine next to Dimas. All he didn't ignore, he just focused on one point above the bed there, Dimas.

" Go home first Di, I'll keep Dimas here."

Silently, not paying attention to Andi's request.

" With..."

Still still

" Dirgana."

Stay still, stay still,

Mama's cry grew louder looking at Di who was just silent not flinching at this moment. Andi again calmed him down, invited him to sit on one of the waiting room benches.

" Don't ever try to leave me, I warned you Dimas."

Mama Sandra and Andi turned to Di, hearing Di's slow and restrained voice like a mutter.

" It's time for you to prove all your love words to me, you have to stay close to me, age with me, accompany our children to grow up and get married. We should always be together."

Di's eyes were still staring at Dimas' weakly stretched body. His mouth continued to move like he was scolding Dimas who made a mistake. This even adds to the sad heart of mama Sandra, making Andi overwhelmed to calm mama.

**

It had been 2 days that Dimas lay unconscious and had been 2 days standing in the same place. Doctors and nurses have reminded and talked to her many times, but she still doesn't care.

" Dirgana."

Mama Di came to the hospital, saw the state of her daughter-in-law and wanted to persuade Di to come home to rest.

" The children of Dimas are waiting for you at home, they are already fretting about missing your arms."

" May them come here ma. He still wants to be here."

Mama Di held back her strong cries, she had never seen Di like this before.

" They're still babies, did you forget they needed your hug too?"

He remained silent, not budging at all.

" Yes already, it's up to you Di. Dimas must be sad to watch his children you've wasted like this on."

Mama Di gave up, stepped away from Di.

Mama Di stopped her steps, then turned around forcing a smile at Di's decision.

He tried to move his leg, but he felt a lot of pain there. His feet were stiff and frozen, unable to move.

On forcing his foot forward, it felt heavy but he continued to force. Until finally his body was hollow, Di quickly touched the wall to support his body that almost fell. Mama Di chased and held her hand, then helped her move forward to get out of the hospital to the house and her children.

***

In the direct meet the children - his son who lay sleeping on his bed - each. He then stepped into his room and cleaned his body and changed his clothes.

" You eat first Di, you need a lot of energy."

Mama arrived - came into Di's room and invited him to eat.

Out of the room and into the dining room. No one dared to ask her, uni, the two new housekeepers and all her baby sitters, all silent. They feel like they can feel sadness in the moment.

He ate up the food on his plate, then silently stared at the pool. His mind was really tangled right now, his brain and body were tired. He stood up and walked into his bedroom again.

Dimas' towel draped near the bathroom was carried into his arms. He then laid down his body, with Dimas' towel in his arms. The scent of Dimas' body was still attached to the towel and bed, Di felt calm smelling the scent, until finally he fell asleep with millions of his longing for Dimas.

****

A week had passed, as long as Dimas was unconscious. Mama Sandra decides to take Dimas overseas, without telling Di. He thought about the fate of the children of Dimas and Di when he asked to come later.

Finally, mama Sandra and Andi went to accompany Dimas, having previously told mama Di and he also agreed. He might be furious, but they were sure Di would understand someday.

*****

" Where are you going?"

Mama Di stopped the steps Di who was about to go to the hospital accompanied Dimas.

" To the hospital ma."

" What about your children?"

" There will be a baby sitter ma, Dimas alone there ma."

" Dimas is never alone in the world, many people will give him attention. There was Sandra and Andi. You're home, your children need you. Remember Di, they're Dimas's love interest."

In feeling annoyed at mom, already 2 days he resisted the desire of Di to visit Dimas. But, Di never had the courage to defy his orders. It was enough that she opposed mama, chose Radit to be her husband, but mama obviously - obviously did not like it, in the end He even got infinitely sick.

******

It had been two weeks that Di had not seen Dimas, although behind Di, mama Di and mama Sandra had always coordinated and exchanged information regarding the circumstances of the two. Dimas was already aware, Di was the first person he asked. But, mama Sandra gave Dimas understanding about the children and about their compulsion to bring Dimas abroad without telling Di. Thank goodness Dimas understood.

Meanwhile, Di had already grown tired of all the prohibitions - the ban on mama. Always take the children as an excuse to forbid Di visit Dimas. Always say that Dimas' condition has improved. He needs to see the situation of Dimas. What's the mama version like? He also did not want to guess - nebak. He decided to visit Dimas tomorrow, no matter if you will be angry again or not. I have to see Dimas.

*******

" Hello Ndi, why Dimas?"

In receiving a call from Andi's mobile number, Di really knows that Andi will only call him if something happens to Dimas.

Andi did not reply, He only heard the sound of heavy breathing from across.

" Andie!! Dimas why? Answer me!"