I'm Not a Wingless Angel

IZAKU DARLING

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Fetish

" in... In..."

I quickly got out of the bathroom hearing Dimas calling my name so many times.

" I have to get out of town tonight too, maybe a little while. Do you want to be here or at my mom's?"

Dimas hasn't been out of town for a long time, I know he's worried about leaving me with only children at home pregnant,

" I'm at home only Dim, there are children and uni." I replied weakly, Dimas took his eyes off the laptop and looked at me.

He walked over to me, though,

" I had to go this time yank... You know right?" soft tananya

I nodded like a child who was being scolded by his mother.

Dimas was still looking at me, I walked out of the room leaving him.

**

It's my 5th day without Dimas, getting quieter. Fortunately I had a busy day in the morning until my afternoon, so I could still fight this longing.

" Hi Dira."

I was shocked to hear the greeting from behind me, quickly standing up and looking back.

" Oh... Hi Hen's... You're shocked by me." I said with a sullen face, he just laughed straight away taking a seat right next to me.

I sat on my seat earlier, sliding my chair slightly, giving it enough distance.

" You're pregnant, you're getting prettier, aren't you?" she said, I smiled, amused and disgusted, I can't imagine Dimas doing the same to a pregnant woman other than me.

" What do you want for breakfast?" ask directly.

" Seek some warm tea, I have breakfast at home" he replied.

" Trus, why come here if you have breakfast sir?" my question is, he laughed out loud - Bahak .

" Want to meet you... Look at how you are."

I'm getting really disgusted now.

" A minute, I make you some tea" I said and passed away leaving her alone.

I went back to the table with a glass of warm tea, put it in front of Hendra and chose to move to sit opposite him. Hendra looked at me, he probably knew I was making some distance.

" Your tumben is still here, usually ready - ready to deliver breakfast to your husband?" ask again.

" Dimas had breakfast, he was busy as well. I don't want to bother him." I said lying

" Are you sure he's busy?"

I glared at her eyes, not liking the way she jokes.

" You mean?" ask me back

" Kidding Dira... You're here, you're still kayaking first."

I lowered my gaze, interrupted my work, ignoring his stupid question earlier.

" Will it be a normal delivery or an operation?" tanyanya is stale

" Normal is... Both my previous children were also normal." I replied

" Why not just surgery. let's stay racket.." he again laughed at his jokes that are not funny.

" Ok Hen, I have business going to my son's school. You will immediately pay to Reni aja yes. "I'm back to lying, I'm caught off guard with words.

" Lho... By, yahhh...." He couldn't hold me back because I was already walking fast and far away from him. " I miss you Dim.." I said inwardly and rubbed my wet face.

***

After that day, I asked Reni to handle the tasks I used to do at the tavern. I was really lazy to meet Hendra, so I better avoid it. Besides, it's good that I start to reduce my activities, I feel tired quickly now, maybe because my age is no longer young. I can also focus more on my 2 children, they are teenagers, I'm afraid they lose their way if I don't often - often invite them to talk.

Like a few days ago, I saw Iza smile - a smile of her own in front of her HP, like she was chatting with someone. He also locked himself more in the room, spending his time with HP. I also once caught him in the middle of the night VC, I don't know with whom. It scares me that he's trapped in a free society.

" Call your sister Zi, "I asked Azi who was lying with me in the TV-watching room. Azi stood up and walked towards Iza's room. Before long he came with Iza, then continued his busy watching.

" Yes ma?" Iza came into my room with her face bent

" Here son, mama kangen Iza." I said as I patted the bed next to me.

" Eee... Iza is busy." she refused.

" For a moment, baby, mommy wants to talk to Iza." I said forcefully. He finally complied. Lying beside me, using my arm as his crutch.

Iza is private, she rarely tells about school or about her friends. My question was answered only short. Until I got tired of asking her and asked her to go back to the room.

****

I walked back and forth unsettled in the living room, occasionally looking out of the house through the window. Eleven o'clock in the evening, Iza who left from this afternoon has not returned. I called my mom and Iza wasn't there. I also called her over and over again but she didn't answer. "O Lord, protect my children wherever they are." I prayed to my heart. A moment later, a car stopped in front of my house, I quickly pulled over the window cloth to see who was coming. Then quickly open the door of the house,

" Dimase..."

Dimas got out of the car and opened the fence, he asked Andi to take the car home because it was already midnight.

" Wait Ndi... Wait Dim!"

Andi didn't run the car, as soon as I heard my screams. Dimas looked at me confused from where he stood, I walked half a run towards Dimas.

" Why yank? " he asked worriedly,

" Iza hasn't returned yank... Find him first yank. I beg you.." I said explain.

" Have you called?" asked Dimas while taking out his HP from his pants pocket.

" It's not answered" I said.

Dimas tried calling from his HP, no answer. And then repeat... Still no answer... On the phone again,

" Where are you?" tanya was upset, I heard the sound of crying from across the street,

" liza.... Iza why Dim?? I was impatient, but Dimas silently listened to the voice from across.

" Wait there, or go to the crowd, don't turn off your HP!" said Dimas gave the order.

" Come in, just wait inside." again Dimas gave the order

" Where is Dim??" I hunted him down, tears had washed my face.

" Go in first... Wait inside." repeated again.

Dimas again closed the fence, got in the car and immediately left me.

I went into the house as Dimas ordered. Sit in the guest chair and cry. " O Lord, I beg you.Protect my son.Protect him from all the evils of the world.." I again pray in my heart.

" Sir.mama..."

Azi woke up and immediately looked for me, then came over to me after she saw me crying in the living room.

" Mommy why, mama's sick?" he asked, I shook my head and hugged him tightly.