I'm Not a Wingless Angel

MASTERMINDS

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Dimas had just returned home when the morning prayer rumbled, his face looked very tired. I didn't ask him anything, other than it was too early for a commotion, I felt sorry for him too. I let him rest as soon as he entered the room. He fell asleep as soon as he met the bed. I quickly went to the kitchen to prepare breakfast for my children who were going to school. Zya had just fallen asleep again, after waking me up at 04:00 earlier.

My mind wandered on those 4 photos, I don't know who sent them and what they mean, I don't know.

" Mmmhh. Azi doesn't like it."

I looked directly at Azi who was sitting at the dining table. I spooned the fried rice I had cooked and I bribed it into my mouth, "uihh "I quickly ran into the kitchen and spit it out again into the trash. My mind and heart are in a state of turmoil, so cooking fried rice alone can fail. I went back to the dining room, saw my kids.

" Breakfast at school, I'm sorry." I said regretfully as I brought the fried rice back to the kitchen and threw it away.

My two children immediately grabbed his bag and left for school with their respective orders.

I went back to the kitchen and cleaned up the rest of the breakfast of the children earlier, suddenly Zya's cry was heard from inside the room. I took a quick step into the room, afraid that Dimas was distracted by the sound of his crying. As soon as I arrived inside the room, I saw Dimas holding Zya while humming a little, his face still looking tired, I approached him and intended to take Zya from his carrier.

" Here Dim, let me carry it." I asked in a soft voice. Dimas then handed Zya to me.

" Rest, you must be tired of having fun all night." I said after Zya was in my arms. Dimas quickly looked annoyed at me. I took Zya out of the room, ignoring her gaze.

I immediately bathed Zya and sat nursing her in the backyard, neutralizing the feeling of anger in my heart. Ask - ask in my heart "what are my shortcomings? I've served him with all my heart, I respect and trust him completely, isn't that enough?" Tears flowed from the corner of my eyes, I rubbed it quickly then looked down on Zya who was back asleep.

" I'm sorry."

I was surprised to hear his arrival - arriving, then quickly trying to calm down

" I'm sorry for what?" ask me back

" My HP is dead, I can't tell you that I have my friend from Jakarta and accompanied him all night, I'm sorry" he replied slowly

" Wait with him to the hotel and have fun there?" ask me again

" Just accompany him looking for a hotel, Di... having fun what do you mean?" he asked back, his tone was already high.

I got up and turned around and looked at him,

" Maybe you're tired of brown bread, eager to - once try the sweet and red sour strawberry bread, it's more challenging for your adrenaline to see the red color and the seductive sour taste, I understand and I'm sincere."

I immediately stepped away leaving her bewildered, the woman wearing a tight red dress last night, Dimas was probably thinking - guessing how I could tell the color of the dress worn by the woman she was with last night. I came out of the room after laying Zya on the bed.

" Kira - I thought if you saw a picture of me like this, what's in your brain?"

I showed the photo on my phone, Dimas quickly grabbed my phone and noticed his smiling self walking side by side with the woman in the red dress.

" If you like something like that, I'll be like that. So that you don't come home in the morning and forget that I'm waiting for you at home, you don't have to look for anything else out there Dim!"

I began to vent my emotions, holding my voice in view of Zya being asleep.

" No, I didn't do anything Di, I could have sworn." she said quickly.

" Exclude me to him!" my door's fast

" Okay, I'll introduce you to him. You're coming with me this afternoon to the store."

" Ok, come on."

**

I accompanied Dimas to the store with Zya, all the store clerks welcomed Zya's arrival, scrambling to carry him, but Dimas forbade. Dimas is very overprotective with children, but I like it.

" God's guests are waiting inside the pack" said one of the officials, Dimas nodded. He put his hand on my waist and led me into his room.

" Dimase!!"

A woman directly hit Dimas' body as soon as we were in the room, even Dimas had not closed the door. Dimas was shocked, his body was not ready to accept the woman's body, almost he dropped his body on me who was carrying Zya.

" Siska." he said resentfully, looking directly at me and Zya. The woman Dimas called Siska did not care, she hugged Dimas and changed my walking position earlier by shifting my body with her body.

Dimas took her into the middle of the room, then back to where I was standing very closely to the wall with Zya. Dimas grabbed my waist and closed the door of the room.

" Owhh.. sorry, I didn't see you with him earlier." said Siska as she came to me and took Zya from my sling quickly.

" Hello.. baby Zi... How are you girl?" he said right in front of Zya's face, Zya yelled and cried. Dimas laughed out loud - bahak and took Zya from his carrier.

" Baby is afraid of you Sis..." Dimas patted - patting slowly Zya's ass, Zya's cries stopped, changed with laughter looking at Dimas's face.

" Because he doesn't know me yet Dimas... He'll love me soon."

Siska walked over, very close to Dimas. He even stuck his chest on Dimas's arm, I curled it in my heart.

" Ammm..."

" Owh... Siska, this is my wife Dirgana... Di, this is Siska one of my best friends." Dimas began to introduce us, we were the same - not responding to each other, just looking at each other for a while and then throwing away the view without a smile. Siska put her body back together with Dimas, so rude.

I stepped into the middle, separating the distance of their bodies that was very close.

" Excuse me... "

Siska looked at me with annoyance,

" I want to go home."

Dimas looked at me weirdly, though,

" We're just getting to yank... Siska's still here."

" I'm tired, you didn't come home last night, did you? I'm going home."

Zya started crying again, I took Zya from Dimas's sling and walked away leaving the two of them in the room

" in... In..."

" He's probably really tired Dim.. Take her first, I'll just go back to the hotel." Siska started to get attention-grabbing with her spoiled tone.

" Ok, you go to the hotel first."

***

" Your attitude is childish on."

Dimas started to make a sound after we just kept silent about the embers.

" Which attitude am I childish do you think Dim is? Tell me!" lantam.

" You've just met her, can't you be a little sweet to her. He's my friend, his parents helped me a lot in the beginning - I built a shop. I owe it to his parents Di."

" And now you return the favor by letting his chest stick to your body? Or is that what you want?"

Dimas hanging steering and swearing,

" You're using me Dim? That's how much he's worth to you, so you can use me?"

My chest has gone up and down holding back anger, sadness and disappointment.

" Your jealousy is unwarranted... He is like that, free life is his style. But, not all men will also be invited to accompany him to sleep, let alone me."

Dimas shouted right after our car stopped in front of the house.

" Everybody can change, anytime. Just like you were yesterday still gentle and loving me, but today you're cursing and yelling at me. Whatever Dim... Just do what you want to do, I'll shut up."

I got out of the car and went into the house alone. Dimas took his car away from me, it really hurt me.