I'm Not a Wingless Angel

I WANT TO GO

*

I sat down while bowing my head, again - again my childish nature made him sick. I wanted to protect them and make them happy, but what happened was like this.

" You guys got into a fight?" my mother began to interrogate me. I answered him with a nod

" Why Dimmmm... Your stubbornness popped up again" he said blaming me

" I have to what ma... Suddenly I hated the children." mama silently heard my answer, offended maybe with my words. I admit, our attitude towards Azi and Iza changed after we found out who they were.

" Mm-hhh... Yes Dim, but they don't know what?" my mother began to realize.

My brain instantly flasbacks to my unaccompanied teenage years. He was so absorbed in his young wife that he ignored my existence. I loved him so much, even until he died I had not been able to say that.

Azi doesn't even know her father's face, let alone get his affection. It was my presence that made him know the meaning of a father's affection, but only a few months had I changed immediately. I realize this must be painful for Di, because all this time he was the mother and father for his children. " I'm sorry again Di.." I said in my heart.

I glanced at the mama who was still pensive beside me, the tears began to wet her cheeks. We are the same - the same

it is being made clear that our attitude is wrong. I took my mom's hand and pulled her to her chest, she looked at me and smiled as she tilted her head on my shoulder.

" They're good children Dim, Di's been hard-earned to take care of and teach them good, alone, but because our father hated them instead. It's not fair." mama blamed herself. I went back to squeezing my mom's hand and crying together regretting everything.

**

He was conscious and had to be treated for a few days. Last night we had to lose our baby, but just being quiet when I heard the news, I couldn't guess what was going on in his brain right now. He was silent and ignored me. Mama chose to go home after seeing Dawar, she was tired of waiting all night with me here.

" It looks like we have to put an end to all this Dim.." I was shocked to hear his words that arrived - arrived.

" Diii.." I walked over to the bed to get closer to her, but.

" Stop there Dim." he said later, I stopped my steps immediately.

" That's not the solution, baby... We just lost our son." I said.

" and I don't want to lose any of my other children" he replied slowly

" Let me go back to my house, back to my world, I've been strong with them all this time and I'm sure I can still stand without your money" he said. His words were like a big chunk of rock hitting my head, my head suddenly hurt from all this.

" Didn't you love me anymore?" much

" I raised them alone, they are my life. Don't you dare tell me you love me, while you can't accept my life" she added

" Ok Di, Ok. I'm sorry, I realized I was wrong. Please don't do this to me. I love you Di, please don't keep yourself away from me." I told him. But Di just kept quiet didn't budge.

" My decision has been unanimous Dim, stay away from me." He moved his back to me, as if he did not care about me. I was really confused in this state and opted out of the room. I walked to the parking lot to get my car, then I went away from the hospital where Di was treated.

***

" Day!!" I woke up and sat down, and the nightmare woke me up. I glanced at the circular clock in my hand, half seven. Huffttt, I've been asleep here for a long time. I got out of bed and walked slowly to the bathroom. A few minutes later, I came out of the bathroom and grabbed my HP lying near the pillow. A notification was there, my mom called me 50 times. I called him back right away.

" Ho ma," I said as soon as a voice sounded across

" Where are you Dimaaaassss??? Ihhhh.." My mother yelled in annoyance.

" Rest ma, overslept." I replied, looking at the room I had paid for just a short nap.

" why ma?" kink asked.

" In the door to go earlier. He forced his way out of the hospital, straight here. Mama called you but you didn't answer mom's phone!!" I put my HP in my pants pocket, put on my sandals and pulled it out of the hotel.

****

I swept my room with a glance. All still in the same place, my eyes were fixed on an HP on the makeup table Di. I walked there and found some CCs that had been held so far along with the HP I just bought for him. A ring that I gave her at the wedding was left behind, she really wanted to stay away from me.

The flashback

I drove my car to Mama Di's house, she still greeted me kindly. Even after that, I didn't find what I was looking for there.

" In just saying goodbye and bringing his children with him Dim. Mama didn't ask him what - he was more silent" she said, holding back her tears.

" I'm sorry Dimas ma.." I said regretfully.

" No pa Dim, nothing can change destiny. Let go of him instead of always having to hurt him, it's been too much pain hitting him Dim... So, just let him go."

Flashback off

I lowered my head, dropped my body, my tears flowed, my tears broke. I've hurt her so much, while she's always trying to make me happy. "i'm sorry Di... Please come back to me, dear." I asked in my heart.