I'm Not a Wingless Angel

MESSED

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Dimas went into the room with his face bent in annoyance. I just kept quiet, because I was accompanying Zya who was just about to fall asleep. Dimas went straight into the bathroom to clean himself. I got up slowly so I wouldn't wake Zya up, and then get Dimas a change of clothes.

Not how long Dimas out wearing the shorts I had prepared. I sat closer to him and massaged his shoulder, he just kept quiet.

" From tomorrow, please don't force me to comply. I'm tired."

I paused my massage on his shoulder for a moment, surprised by the words he said in a high tone.

" She said she had an appointment with her doctor. Four hours waiting there with his hands twitching in my arms and his head leaning against my shoulder, the doctor didn't come."

Dimas continued his story

" I had to cancel a lot of my work. The store is in need of a lot of my attention, she demands attention as well and you. I'm tired of Di... "

" It took me 3 hours sitting in a restaurant, pretending to be a happy couple for 7 hours, you don't think I'm tired?"

I stopped my massage, though,

" I'm just a normal human being. I'm not a robot. You guys seem to be conspiring to kill me slowly. My body is tired, my brain is tired, I must and must make you and my mother happy, you both ask me to make her happy. Then, when can I relax and enjoy my happiness."

Dimas hit the sofa with his hand. It's already beyond his limits, I know that he's very tired. I feel guilty for him.

Dimas stood up and walked towards the bed, directly laying down his body and closing his eyes. I stood up and held Zya, moving her to the baby box.

I climbed into the bed slowly, bringing my body closer to Dimas who was lying sideways on my back. I hugged her from behind, kissed her head gently.

" I'm sorry, honey..."

I go back to peeling his head.

Dimas flipped his body and sideways faced me. Her eyes were wet, I quickly rubbed her face and placed her head on my chest. He sobbed there, Dimas looks very fragile today. I stroked her hair gently.

" There are too many problems today... I'm sorry."

Dimas hugged my waist and wiped the tears on his face.

" No, dear, I know, I understand."

I said as I continued to stroke her hair.

" Tomorrow, you can finish your work all day. I won't bother you."

Dimas was silent

We fell asleep in the same position until morning.

**

" Dimaaasss, I made an appointment today with my doctor. I swear, you're with me..."

Dimas was silent while enjoying his breakfast, mama stared long at Dimas.

" I.dimaaass..."

" I'll accompany you to the doctor today Sis."

Siska's eyes glared irritated at me.

" No, junior Dimas only wants his father to accompany him to the doctor, not anyone else."

" In that case, tell junior Dimas that his papa is very busy today. If he wants, his mother will deliver him. Otherwise, wait until the papa's work is done."

" Why do we have to obey you, who are you?"

" I went to the store in.. Ma'am..."

Dimas stood up and kissed my forehead. I accompanied Dimas out.

After seeing Dimas' car coming out of the gate, I returned to the dining room.

" I'll just pick up Dimas at the store later, you can't ban me. It's still my day."

Siska immediately stood up, about to walk away from me and my mother

" If you dare interfere with his work, I will take back all my rights."

Siska stopped her steps and turned around to step towards the dining table.

" You're also a Di woman, you know that pregnant women really need her husband's attention. Didn't you feel it too?"

" Ever, but I never forced my husband to love me. I never forced him to accompany me here and there just to show false intimacy. I never interrupted his work."

" Dimas is busy about Sis's shop, it's time for you to understand how things are going. Give him space for himself, complete his obligations other than yours."

" I don't play with my words. If you dare to disturb him in the shop, I will take him away very far from you. You keep that."

Mama just became a spectator today, not daring to interrupt or comment on the circumstances. After Siska returned to her room, I went to my mother and told Dimas' complaint last night to me. Mama is saddened by Dimas's current state. He also saw a lot of fatigue in his son, but could not hold Siska to make Dimas always busy accompanying him.

***

My mother and I were shocked to hear the door opened violently. We quickly stood looking towards the door. I quickly asked for help Ratih took Zya to the back garden as soon as he saw Dimas enter the house with a very angry face.

" Dimages... Be ill... Unhand me!"

Dimas pulled Siska's hand violently and threw out his hand.

" Dimase!!"

Mama yells at him, not liking his treatment of pregnant Siska.

" This woman came to the store, whining - whining only to be accompanied by drinking young coconuts on the beach. I have a lot more work!!"

She then looked at me

" I told you everything Di, why don't you forbid him from going to see me?"

I was surprised to hear Dimas's question. This was the first time she scolded me in front of my mom.

" I don't know when he's out Dim... I'm busy with Zya today."

My answer is self-defense.

" Dimase..."

My heart ached hearing his accusation against me. It never occurred to me in my brain to do that.

" Dimas, calm down. Emotions don't solve all your problems, baby."

Mama tried to calm Dimas down

" I'm tired of ma... I'm tired of all this. There is no time for me to rest and be happy. All just to obey his will."

Dimas hit him on the head, he looks really messed up and depressed today.

" Dimas stop!!"

I said those words with my mom.

Dimas stopped hitting his head, stared intently at me and Siska, then left us, walked quickly to the room.

I looked directly at Siska, she really tested my patience.

" It turns out, you're testing me Sis."

I pressed my voice, holding back my emotions.

" I told you I'm not playing, right?"

Siska looked at me with great anger,

" He's also my husband, the father of the child I bear. I deserve his attention, too."

Siska went to her room, leaving me and mama, who were looking down sad.

****

I called Andi and asked him what was going on at the store this late, so that made Dimas so depressed. Andi tells some things that disturb the mind of Dimas at this time.3 his shop in the dilapidated maling, one of his big stores in robbed one of his own beliefs. A lot of losses he's got. Not to mention Vishnu, Papa Siska who always asks to be sent large amounts of money every week. Some stores were forced to close and go out of business because gold prices soared high, making sales much lower. It is time for God to give a test to Dimas.

I started learning some things about the store with Andi's help. It was very difficult for me to learn at my age, but thanks to Andi's patience, I was able to learn it.

My breakfast shop reopened a branch in 4th place. Reni has helped me a lot to handle the store, so I don't have to intervene too much to take care of the store.

Some CC I closed use, to reduce monthly expenses. So that Dimas does not need to run out of a lot of money for my needs and children. After all, some cards are very rarely used.

*****

Dimpled

I frowned looking at some of the reports I had in my hand. Some store problems are done well, even can still survive without having to close. I feel that I have not solved the problem of the store - the store is confused. " Was Andi helping me finish it?" my question is in my heart. Because only he understands the business of the store other than me.

I called him into my room and stared intently at him,

" Who asked you to help me finish the shop business?"

Andi returned my gaze calmly.

" Nothing."

He replied casually

" Why did you do it then? You're also eyeing my shop apparently."

I started to be suspicious of him, because already 1x I was betrayed by my confidant who made my problems grow bigger.

" I didn't do anything."

He still answered casually.

" You started lying to me, Ndi?"

Andi shook her head.

" Then, who else solved the problem of shops and markets, which I planned to close, even now the situation is improving. Though, I haven't done anything to deal with the matter there."

I looked suspiciously at Andi.

" Ask your wife."

" at?"

I bought eyes staring at Andi.

" Why should I ask him, he doesn't know what the store is about. He never wanted to know about my job. You don't try - try to complain to us Ndi!"

" It was before you got angry - angry just because Siska asked you to accompany her to drink young coconuts. After that, did you communicate with him?"

Andi's words really slapped me. I haven't talked to Di in a long time after that. Going to the store early in the morning and coming home late at night, went straight to sleep because my brain was tired.

" What's He been doing these last few weeks Ndi?"

Andi frowned and smiled cynically

" Repeatedly say the word love, but can miss to know what his wife is doing, miris..."

Andi is mocking me now.

" That's been torturing me for a few weeks. One day I will demand compensation from her husband for what his wife has done to me."

Now, I was confused by Andi's sentence, I still stared at him sharply, hoping for an additional explanation

" He forced me to teach him to understand the state of the store. Every day, after you fall asleep, she starts her torture until dawn."

" Let's just look at the house right now, she must be asleep because she was still doing your job last night."

" He also helped some of the store's finances with his store money. Do you know, the store has grown to 4 now? Your wife's crazier at work and looking for money than you are Dim."

I threw my body into the back of the chair. Regret having kept it quiet these past few weeks. He came down to help me, and I didn't realize it.

I ruffled my hair, then got up

" You go home and rest, sorry to accuse you of cheating. I'm just in a state of fear of trusting people right now. Forgive my wife for interrupting your break."

I said before I left, to go home to meet Di.