I'm Not a Wingless Angel

FORGIVING

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Siska has been more silent and has never demanded after her father's arrival a few days ago. Dimas was still ignoring her, but I was starting to feel sorry for her. Seeing her spend more time alone in the park every day, I know her own pain without friends, friends, parents and even loved ones while pregnant. " Friends.

I approached her who was sitting in the back garden alone, carrying a glass of pregnancy milk. I sat next to him without asking him for permission first. He looked at me for a moment, then continued his daydream.

" You haven't had breakfast and haven't had your milk for two days. Drink."

I gave her the milk I had brought, but she just kept quiet.

" Sikka... Come on." Comeon."

Force slowly

" Don't be mad at Di, leave me alone.'

Speech weak.

" I only care about the baby you bear Sis... Come on." Comeon."

My hands are still in the same position.

" You know this isn't baby Dimas, why do you care?"

He asked, still looking at a point in front of him

" Mm-hhh... Whoever he is, he's innocent. Don't punish him for all the mistakes you've made."

" He did not choose himself, from the seed of whom he was formed and in the womb of whom he grew. You'll definitely regret it later if something happens to him Sis."

Siska then looked down, her shoulders shaking violently, she covered her face with both hands and cried there. I moved my seat closer to her. Strengthened my own heart to embrace his shoulder and calm him down.

" We all have a second chance Sis, and it's time for you to improve yourself and things."

Siska then jerked my hand and looked angrily at me.

" Why don't you just hate me, you have the right to do that. You maki - maki and spit on me. Just punish me for everything I've done to Dimas."

I tried to calm my own heart

" What's the point for me Sis? You have a lot of haters for your own behavior and I don't want to be part of a hater, even though I hate you so much."

" Look at your growing belly, soon someone will call you mama. Your perfection as a woman Sis, do you still want to add to your list of haters and live in displeasure forever?"

" Dirgana Putri, stop being nice! I'm sick of seeing it, you know that?"

I returned his gaze to me

" I won't stop being nice just to get a fight, whether you like it or not, all the choices are yours. "

I stood up and put the glass containing milk where I was sitting.

" importantly, do not torture him, only through him will goodness come to you."

I left him.

**

Siska came and walked over while we were having breakfast. It seemed that he was very clumsy and fragile, not as haughty as yesterday. Mama and Dimas instantly threw away the face as soon as they realized his presence.

" Good morning Sis, come sit down, let's have breakfast together."

I pulled out one of the dining chairs and patted the head of the chair to take her to a seat. He stepped slowly and sat down where I had prepared.

I take the plate and put it in front of him, then take the bread along with his favorite strawberry jam.

" This, you make your breakfast."

I then asked the housekeeper to provide her with the pregnancy milk, then sat back down near Dimas who was holding Zya and looked at me confused. I smiled back at her gaze, while saying I Love You without a sound to her. Dimas shook his head and exhaled quickly.

***

" What's wrong with you?"

I lifted my head to look at the mother who saw me confused.

" I'm nothing - what ma. I'm fine."

" You don't try to lie to me, you little brat."

Mama patted my arm slowly, I laughed out loud - bahak.

Zya loves to play in the park, running around, turning around, falling and laughing at himself.

" I was very lucky to have a husband who loved and took care of me when I was pregnant Zya ma.. I have a mother and father-in-law who always spoil me... How lucky I am."

Mama was silent, I smiled, remembering my pregnancy that I never felt alone.

" But I also felt very unlucky and lonely during Iza and Azi's pregnancy. My in-laws did not love or care about my pregnancy, my husband was busy with the world of pleasure, even I had to give birth alone in my first two pregnancies. "

I came back to my dark times.

" I just know what it's like to be pregnant in solitude, I just don't want people around me to feel the same way... Whatever he did to me. After all, Dimas and I grew closer due to his treatment yesterday - yesterday."

" Oh, baby, stop making me fall in love with you every day. I'm sick of feeling this."

My mother hugged me, then,

" I promise I'll keep an eye on what he's going to do, ma, but right now, let me keep him company."

Mama nodded her head, still hugging me.

" enga. ma..."

Mama and I looked at Zya who was calling - calling us,

" Yahoooo!!!!"

" You're removing the flowers of the Smartrrr child... He just blossomed"

Mama was shocked to see the flower in Zya's hand, she immediately stood up and patted Zya's butt trying to run away from her. I laughed at the behavior of the oma and the granddaughter.

****

We sat down for breakfast in full formation, including Siska. She is starting to care about her current pregnancy. I always help him get rid of his nervousness and fear every time he joins the dinner table.

" Dim, I'll be out with Siska for a second yank."

Dimas moved his gaze on the plate to me. Siska was also shocked to hear that I was going to take her out of the house.

" Siska's pregnancy has entered the eighth month of yank, soon the baby is present. But, Siska has not had time to buy baby equipment... I'm with him, right?"

" Di, never mind."

Dimas refocused on his breakfast.

" Let him think of himself, he doesn't need friends in his life. I know that."

Siska looked sad

" I don't want to be her friend either, but I want to be an aunty for the baby. My niece will be born soon Dim... My niece is also your niece, dear."

I still haven't given up hope to seduce her. Dimas looked back at me strangely and shook his head again.

" I'm sorry Dimas.."

I quickly looked at Siska who was crying, mama also looked at her pity, but Dimas was silent not budging

" I've broken your trust in me, Dimas is right Di, I never need a friend, even I've hurt my best friend. I'm sorry, so sorry."

Her cry broke, Siska covered her face with both her hands, I walked over to her.

" I'm sure your best friend forgives you Sis, if he's a good man and has a heart."

I pressed my words, deliberately making Dimas offended, and I succeeded after seeing Dimas looking at me annoyed.

" A friend is the one who will not hurt, the one who will always forgive your mistakes no matter how big they are."

My mind immediately floated on the faces of my three best friends first.

" You've done a very fatal wrong to your best friend, hurt him, but I'm sure there'll always be an apology for a friend who's forgotten."

" Everyone makes mistakes, but only good people are ready to admit their mistakes and apologize."

I patted her shoulder slowly to calm her down.

" And also, there are people who have said, apologizing and forgiving is easy, which is important whether you will change after being forgiven."

Dimas glanced back at me, I pretended to ignore his glance and returned to sit near him.

" So, how's Dim, am I allowed to go or not?"

Dimas put down his spoon and fork and looked at me,

" Yank... "

I stroked her thighs and glanced mischievously.

" yes. yeah.. Go, Andi will be with you."

I was just about to interrupt his orders, but his eyes were already glaring sharply at me.

" Don't argue."

Then Dimas got up and kissed my forehead softly,

" I'm leaving ma.. In..."

As usual, I drove Dimas up to the terrace. Dimas pulled my waist and made our bodies cling, he said,

" You owe me an explanation, please pay me tonight."

He whispered and smiled, then took his hand off me and walked to the car.