I'm Not a Wingless Angel

PERSIST

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" Don't leave me, no matter how big my mistake, no matter how hard I am."

I sat in the patient waiting room. Dimas sat beside me, 1 bench away with me.

Mama had a sudden heart attack, we don't know what to say now. We can only wait in silence. Drowning in each other's minds.

" Tell me what's really going on, don't cover anything up."

I was still looking ahead, calm and tearless.

Dimas let out a heavy sigh, remained in his sitting position and began to tell stories.

**

" I swear I didn't touch her at."

Dimas closed his story and again let out a heavy sigh.

" Marry her Dim."

Dimas was surprised, I could see him turning his face quickly towards me, through the corner of my eye.

" But Di..."

" Marry her Dim."

I cut his words.

" I'll explain to Mama later, "my contact,

Being quiet...

" Are you going to leave me at?"

Dimas broke the silence between us. I let out a breath that felt very heavy, then turned to her. Dimas was very tangled and hit with this incident. I believe in what he has told me. I can feel his sincerity.

" I love you Dim... How could I leave you."

My cries began to break, Dimas ventured to bring his body closer to me and hugged me tightly. I returned his embrace, we cried together.

" I'm sorry for my stupidity... I'm sorry, honey... "

We cried and hugged. As if tomorrow we would never meet again. Many times Dimas kissed my cheek, as if tonight was his last chance to be in my arms.

***

Dimpled

The wedding took place as they had planned, without my family present. Siska and her father made a small party at one of the villas I rented. They asked for a simple party with a special budget that they did not want to care about the cost, all the costs were left to me. I saw some men who had slept with Siska join the other guests.

" Dimas.. smile dong..."

I brushed his hand off my face, I swear I hate him so much.

" Hi Sis..."

" Hi Delia's... Hi Clara. You guys came too. Thank you for coming to my wedding."

Two women approached us. One of them swept over my body with her flirtatious gaze. They come from the same habitat. I stepped back and moved away from them while they were busy boasting of each other's wealth. I'm sick of their style and the guests.

" I miss you..."

I can only say the word miss in my heart. It's been 3 days that I've been away from her, but my heart isn't, not for a second. I walked towards one of the rooms in the villa, instantly falling asleep after locking the door earlier.

****

" Where have you been Dim? I've been looking for you all night."

Siska arrived - suddenly came to see me, who was enjoying the longing and morning scenery around the villa, writhing spoiled in my arms. I quickly pulled out my body, putting some distance between where I was standing and where I was before.

" Sleep."

My answer was short, annoyed that he had come to disturb my pleasure

" Why not sleep with me anyway? I'm your wife."

I turned my face to her, smiling cynically at the words she said.

" Wife on paper, not to heart. I only love one woman and it's not you. "

Siska seemed to frown at my answer.

" We will stay with our mother after arriving in Padang. Monday through Wednesday, I'll be with you at my mom's house, the rest I'll be at my house with Di and the kids."

" Wait,"

Siska interrupted my sentence, I was silent and ready to listen to her objection.

" Why at my mom's? You know my mom doesn't like me... Trus, why do you have to be with him more? I need you too."

I smiled, guessing what he was going to say.

" Mama needs someone who is ready to take care of it for 24 hours at the moment, Di is already busy enough with taking care of the children, because now there are you, then you will take care of mama."

His mouth is open, I'm sure he won't be able to take care of mama.

" Why would I be more at home with Di than with you, the answer is simple. Because I love them, and you, I don't really love, or even care about you, OK."

Siska's face scowled at my explanation.

" Never interfere in my business, whatever it is. My family, my job, the shop business... All the... So am I, I'm not gonna care what you're gonna do, even behind my back, I don't care."

" But you're gonna give me the store too, right? If not, what will I do?"

Siska asked in a spoiled pretentious style

" Your job is to take care of your mom, that's all. The shops I have are well run by my confidants. I don't need your help in the store."

" Lastly, don't even see Di and my kids if you want me to be nice to you."

He again scowled angrily and quickly threw his face into the forest that lay before us.

" Well, if there's nothing else you want to ask, get ready... We're back in the field."

I turned and walked away leaving him.

*****

We arrived in Padang after the magrib, after delivering Vishnu to the airport. I immediately brought Siska to the house of mama, of course after coordinating with mama. I drove him to a room that wasn't mine.

" A house this big, a room this big? that's right, Dim..."

I just kept quiet not responding to his chatter.

After driving her to the room, I went straight down to see my mom. I hugged him and apologized to him. But, like Di, he believed in my story. He might have convinced my mom that what I said was true and Di trusted me very much. He was still very weak, but the plan for Siska had been arranged very neatly by him. I smiled, kissed her forehead and said goodbye to Di and the kids, I missed them so much.

******

Fetish

I lay down to accompany the sleeping Zya. Iza and Azi are already busy with their schoolwork in their rooms.

I got up to see Iza and Azi before I went to bed. Suddenly there was a knock on the door of the house, I walked out of the room to see who was coming this night. Just as I closed the door of the room, Iza and Azi's screams startled me.

" Papa...."

I took a quick step towards the living room next to Azi's room, my steps halted as soon as I saw the scene in front of me that moved me. Iza and Azi were hugging Dimas tightly. Dimas also returned their embrace warmly.

I proceeded to the kitchen to make Dimas a glass of warm tea and warm the food. I'm sure he hasn't eaten. The chatter of a father and his children began to enliven my home. Almost a week the house is deserted, but it pays off tonight.

" Hi, Di."

Dimas hugged me from behind, I smiled hearing his voice and felt his warm breath in my ears.

" You hungry yank?"

I asked, Dimas quickly turned my body to face him, I hugged him right away after a few minutes of looking into his eyes, I miss him so much.

" You should ask me if I miss you."

Said Dimas pura - pura pissed.

" I don't need to ask you that, I know you must miss me a lot."

We hugged each other, ignoring the burning stove to warm the food.

" She. papa..."

Dimas took off his hug, slowly,

" This kid misses me more than you."

He said as he passed towards Azi's room which was already calling out to her, leaving me after leaving a warm kiss on my cheek.