I Am Beautiful

Last affair

(Beautiful Monologue )

I continued to ignore all the irregularities that occurred, and kept a positive mind without wanting to put suspicion on Sister Mathew, if the suspicion re-emerged in my mind, quickly I ignored all kinds of thoughts that were useless to my mind, I still tried to believe everything to Mathew even though my little heart always said something else.

My National Final Examination is in sight, all my love problems I get rid of and I focus on preparing myself for my educational future, I was diligently studying and during the school exam in addition to the national exam the total exam was for two weeks, and during these two weeks Mathew also did not contact at all, either by phone or by short message, I still ignore it,

All my trials passed well, and for two weeks I felt that my heart was fine even though Mathew had not contacted me at all, and I always prayed to God, that God may give strength to my heart no matter what happens to my relationship with Mathew,

After the Exams, I deliberately still did not contact Mathew, because I knew in a moment, there were only two months left for Mathew to come home, and I knew in a moment that I would be engaged to him, and everything will be fine, my mum always. Until one night that text got into my phone,

"Do you know? if Mathew is now dating a woman here?" - Mr.X

My eyes were perfectly rounded, again my chest felt tight, I did not reply to the text, and ten minutes later

"Even these two weeks Mathew has forgotten about you, right?, because he is cool with his woman here" - Mr.X

Again I ignored until the next day, not a single tear fell from my eyes, my heart was really strong this time, as if my heart was numb too, Then the other night I got a call from Mathew's sister,

"Good night, how can I help you?" greet me,

"My dear evening....., is the exam over?" ask Mathew, brother,

"Dad already brother...., how is brother there?" I asked in a friendly manner, as if nothing had stuck in my heart,

"Bad brother - okay dear, adek.., brother is making adek necklace with black jewel made in the form of wine, later if brother comes home, brother love to adek yah.." mathew's voice sounded so happy, you know,

"really? no usa bothered - bothered sister.., Lovely love same sister.., if you come home safely is enough for Beautiful" I replied, I replied,

"Thank you dear..."

"Sister..., can Beautiful ask?"

"May, just ask.."

"Take it honestly.., is the brother there related to Martha's sister?" I myself was shocked by my question and why I mentioned Martha's name, but I don't know - it came out on its own,

"Ah.. you do not carelessly Beautiful, brother here is not like - like loh.."

"Well..., then why did you tell Frans a few months ago that you broke up just as beautiful?" ask me in a flat tone,

"Because he's nosy, so you're lazy to talk to Frans"

"All right.." I don't want to extend the discussion of anything,

"Seek..., one more week of birthday, right?, what gift would you like?"

"Beautiful don't want any gifts, just want brother to go home"

"All right.."

"Sister..., Beautiful tired.., beautiful want to rest, can you brother?"

"Yes uda.., happy Rest baby"

"Please end your relationship with Mathew, because I'm already pregnant with Mathew's child!"

DEG!!!

DEG!!!

DEG!!!

Impossible.., this is not true.., If I ask Mathew insistent Mathew will deny it, I know very well Mathew's attitude, he even willingly swore over all his lies, he said, saying, my hardened heart turned like a piece of glass, broken apart, how to get Mathew to confess all his deeds, it felt impossible, and if I decided unilaterally, what would happen, she said, if he did all this cheating? If no??? then I'll be sorry for the rest of my life, but my heart says if this woman isn't lying.., if Matthew impregnates this woman, then how am I broken by Mathew..., who is more worthy than whom..

What a long night full of struggles in my heart, I can't stand it anymore, I protest to God, then what should I do!!! WHAT SHOULD I DO GOD!!!!! my tears at him..,

That night everything felt deadlocked, until this little heart spoke "If Mathew is your Beautiful Soulmate, nothing will prevent you from coming together, But if Mathew is not your beautiful soul mate, then there is no way to make love to you, whatever way you try to force things to be good - all right and the way you maintain your relationship will never work, you'll break up sooner or later"

My tears were falling.., I surrendered to God.., I looked back and pondered but did not bring any results, and when I fought with Mathew, too, if the woman is indeed pregnant then, the one who has full rights over Mathew is that woman.., I am just an unlucky teenager for that matter

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For one week I kept struggling to make the best decision, and tomorrow was my birthday, I would wait until my birthday passed, I wanted to be as calm as possible to deal with my problems with Mathew, even if I knew, I couldn't calm down.

I remember my promise to God, I kept it. I had no relationship with anyone, and I did not open my heart to anyone, But if Mathew denies it then this will be his last affair, "I will give you freedom Brother." I turn to myself with a wry smile.

And my birthday came, I celebrated modestly, invited some of my cousins, and some of my friends, very simply, That night I received another call from Mathew, and I answered as usual, I said, all the prayers of kindness for me were said to her, I thanked her, all the friendly words that Mathew said were tasteless in my heart, I already did not feel the slightest sense of flowering - flowers, flowers, but the words seemed to make me sick.

It's just that I don't want to mess up a little bit of my happiness today.., Tomorrow I'll make a decision for our relationship sis., I'll be ready with all the risks, sis,

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After waiting two days, my heart was ready for my decision, to release Mathew this time, that afternoon after I went home from school I picked up my phone and typed a short message to Mathew..., Well, I ended my relationship with Mathew in a short message

" Three and a half years, we're in this relationship with every way we try to maintain our relationship, nothing hurts my heart more than you..., and there is nothing I need but you, brother, everything you have taken from me, my mind.., I always try to compromise with all your mistakes, and so do you who always compromise with my behavior that is still very childish. Even..., when you took something precious from me, I felt that my brother was already imprinted in my life, brother.., it's hard to think I should give you up for a woman who's more entitled to your physical and your responsibilities than I am, I think all this time, I'm the one who's been the most entitled to you..., I am the most entitled to demand all your responsibilities against me. But our engagement dream is only a dream.., because there is a child who is waiting for your responsibility and a woman who has more rights over you than I do, today I ask to stop playing..., I'm fine.., I'm sincerely taking you off, and if you don't want to get away from me, then remember that I'm the one who ended this relationship, I release you from all your responsibilities towards me, my love for sister has been exhausted along with the growth of the fetus in the woman's womb, sorry I don't love you anymore" - Lovely

My tears came back, but my heart was relieved.., my heart was airy.., I do not need to wait for any answer from Mathew, because whatever the argument, I will still end my relationship with him, because I am sure, how much my efforts to maintain it will all be in vain, in vain, Mathew will still turn away from me, and vice versa, how much I try to avoid him, if Mathew is my soul mate, we will meet again and reunite, he said,

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**The end

This story will continue in "I am the Beautiful part 2", All the reactions and answers to the puzzles that occur with the relationship Beautiful and Mathew will be a little open in part 2, Part 2, I'll leak a little prologue to the Story of Me Is Beautiful part 2 in the episode "Prolog I Am Beautiful*part 2" in the upcoming episode.

and in Part 2 Lizbeth will do another 3 weeks if Mbk Indah returns home, and for 3 weeks, Lizbeth will focus on the fictional story of Lizbeth in the novel entitled "My mirage love and the Soul Portal"

Thanks to all my Readers.., Lizbeth ask for help with Vote and like this story, also if you would like to share this story with friends and family, may this story be useful for all of us, he said,

See you***...