I Am Beautiful

Mathew's return from Island A

(Beautiful Monologist)

I went up and immediately Jack drove me home, after a while, when I was lying down twenty minutes later the sound of my phone rang and I saw Jack sending me a short message,

"My first love is you!", my heart is happy and broken, because having a relationship with Jack is an impossibility for me, I know enough about my background in addition to my family background, I know myself, my family's current state is bankrupt, I've been tarnished while Jack has a family background of officials, seeing his social status alone has made me inferior, if I insist I'm sure his parents would disagree, especially his mother who once saw me with Jack and reacted in accordance with my expectations, namely the reaction of looking one eye at me. Looking one eye after knowing who my parents are, the city we live in is a small town, a city where everyone will know each other, he said, moreover, the basic work of my papa is closely related to his father Jack who was then serving in one of the top officials planning government project activities.

Not to mention that Jack had to deal with Mathew, a demented lover, who always gripped me like his prey, I didn't want Jack to get hurt more, the short message I didn't reply at all, even I had to strategize to get Jack away from me, if it doesn't work out then I have to break her heart and hate me if need be Jack has to feel that loving me is the biggest and most despicable mistake of his life. I chose to do something that seemed to hurt Jack, but honestly it was all for Jack's good, so that Jack could have a good lover, who was worth it, in every way. Can be sure if Jack enters into my personal life let alone heart problems, then Jack's perfect life will be affected by bad.

My phone rang a call sign coming in, without seeing my phone I kept ignoring it, "That's definitely Jack, and I don't have to pay attention to it" I muttered, but the phone always rang incessantly, it turned out I was just GR..., the one who called me was the one I was most afraid of,

"Hello Brother." I replied,

"Why hasn't the phone been picked up?! you don't miss me??" ask Mathew, please,

"Hmmm...., I'm resting, sorry brother, how are you? is he out of jail?" my tofu, my,

"Dad, and now brother is already in Coral City" that answer made my heart beat uncharacteristically,

"Oh.., why don't you give me the info at all?" I try to calm myself, master myself,

"Didn't you miss Ndah's sister?" ask her again,

"I miss you, come quickly to my house" I said,

"Well, this brother is coming to your house soon" and then we're getting the conversation out on our cell phones.

I went out of the room, looked for my mother's whereabouts and gave her the info that Mathew was coming home soon, she didn't like my information, she thought Mathew couldn't be used anymore, because for two months or even nearly three months, you didn't get the slightest supply of funds from Mathew's sister,

About thirty minutes later, Mathew got to my house, bringing some by - by the typical Island A meal, everything I gave him well, he said, we had a small talk in the living room, at first.

But after about twenty minutes of stale talk, I immediately asked the case why Mathew got to the prison, "Sister, what kind of problem until brother in prison?" ask me to the point in front of my mom,

"Sister is in prison for the same persecution as kamoung dek," he replied casually,

"Sit the case because of what until there is persecution?" I kept urging him to confess his lewd deeds,

"For Mathew?! isn't it because we're stuck with women there?" ask mama firmly,

"Not true aunt, that's a slander!" Mathew also replied, no less resolute, no less,

"If until you dare to play Beautiful well mending do not need you to relate equally Beautiful, all are already aunty permudah you same aunt child, not good what try, not good, ask for sleep with aunt let if the consequences gini well aunt loss dong!!" nagging mom,

"WHAT??!!!!" I'm in a deep heart!! what did mama say?!! means Mathew incident dared to infiltrate and rape me is all that permission mama??!!!!! and mama says "Loss" as if I were her merchandise or her investment mama. My heart was crushed to hear the bright talk of my mother - the light before me, my tears were about to fall but I held back, I must not look weak in front of Mathew.

"No, it's all Slander" Mathew reiterated.

"Dad if it comes to it that aunty does not agree you are equally beautiful" said mama,

"If I don't get to be just as beautiful, I flocked all of this one house" Mathew said, making the mother more emotional, sober,

"Try me to bring my family! FUCK YOU!! how dare you threaten me!!" suddenly my mother came up with emotions and kicked Mathew out of my house, I saw that the situation was not possible, and I chose to go into the room immediately, Mathew tried to convince my mother that the sentence that had just been spoken was just a joke, but the mother who had already hated and disliked finally terrorized me to immediately enter my relationship with Mathew.

After Mathew left the house, Mama did not hesitate to go into the room without knocking on my room, "You have to break up with Mathew!!! but patience!! wait for you to find a replacement first!" snatch my mama at me,

"What does mama mean?! ma.., who has feelings here Indah ma.., mama can not force Indah to break up with Mathew and immediately courtship with a man of choice mama.." I ventured to answer mama, mama,

"Just mama does not want to live hard Beautiful, Mathew is no longer useful, financially we are not on the support anymore, then what to do!!!" snapped mama, really I feel very shocked by what mama said, why did I become a tool to meet the needs of the family, is the income papa so far lacking? my thinking...

Not wanting to continue the debate with my mother I chose to keep quiet, honestly I also wanted to end my relationship with Mathew, but when I remembered that Mathew was the one who took my virginity I felt very hard to take it off, and coupled with my mother's attitude, it made me seem like I wanted to fight her to maintain my relationship with Mathew even though I was uncomfortable with this relationship.

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