I Am Beautiful

My hunch

(Beautiful Monologist)

This morning, I was still lamenting that Mathew was on duty, different from when he was on duty in Sumatra, where I chose to take him to the port, but at this time of duty, he said, I chose not to drive Mathew, not for what reason, but I couldn't watch him go again, even though I knew this was a risk I would have to bear for the rest of my life if I were his wife, we were just saying good-bye to each other over the phone.

In the evening Mathew called me by phone at home, told me that it had come from noon and asked me how I was doing,

"Hello good night...,"

"Good night, sorry to talk to who?" my tofu, my,

"You speak to a child whose name is Beautiful" seduced Mathew

"Ohh.., beautiful again out with friends." My reply teased him, but we know who is behind the phone,

"Well then you want to talk to the lady, what is her name?" his reply teased me

"It's ah.., brother...!! when is brother arriving? why Indah send messages not sent sis? koo's phone is dead? It's beautiful to worry, brother.." - My nagging..

"Adek..., this is you see.., the phone brother wants to explain, brother until from this afternoon.., here there is no signal for the gsm number, well now the sister in the wartel, and there is no signal, but you already have people who are willing to borrow his phone for our communication, because you live in a boarding house right next to his house, well this boarding house in use or rented the same service, because you live in a boarding house, as long as you're on duty here" Mathew explained at length,

"Well brother..., what's the number?" my question, and Mathew's sister gave me the house teleoon nmr, which,

"The son of the owner of this house is called Sister Martha, usually she will pick up the phone and call anyone who can call from her family or her boyfriend hehehehe..."

"Okay, Brother Martha well.., hmmmmm...."

"What dear?"

"Today Beautiful did not focus on studying because of thinking of sister, and this is a long time ago sister.., Later brother came home after Beautiful finished school exams, finished school exams, Beautifully confused how to overcome the feelings of beautiful upset kayak gini kak.." I was really upset at that time and with light - the light I revealed to Mathew, brother,

"Adek..., be patient..., our brother came home directly fiancee well dear....., as you wish adek...., how? would adek want to? sister will not force grandpa to marry big sister, but big brother also wants to calm down, big brother wants us to be tied in engagement, how dear?" what a question Mathew made me so flowery - a flower at that time.

"Well brother.., Lovely want.., Beautiful want to be engaged with sister.., Beautiful wait brother home, Lovely love brother" said I with haru, beautiful,

"Thank you dear.., sister will change the gsm number, so we can communicate, because the number you use there is no network here, after this brother will info to adek, adek, and here the phone using a cell phone is also unclear so we can still communicate via short messages, and to talk us communication via his home phone Martha well,." said Mathew Kak

"Well brother.., Beautiful understand.., then sister rest now, tomorrow must be brother has started duty, and Indah also has a lot of PR to do" said my pamit

"Well baby, kiss dear sister.." pinta Mathew.

"Muuuaaacchhh.., Love you brother.."

"Muaaaacchh.., love you too Beautiful"

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There was a bit of a bad feeling back then, but I don't know why this feeling was so disturbing to my mind and heart, even though Mathew was communicating with me as usual, even almost every day we were communicating, she said, many times I ignore my feelings that are not - not so that everything can go well - well the same, it does not feel our relationship has now been even three years running, not so much, I am so grateful that our sister Mathew is so grateful for the enduring relationship.

Although the heartache of arbitrary actions - mena Mathew first, but gradually I saw Mathew has changed a lot, Mathew more mature and willing to listen to all my opinions and consider it, Mathew, one example is the matter of our engagement, initially Mathew was very insistent after graduating high school I had to want to marry him, but finally Mathew followed my expectations, which is to get engaged, but finally Mathew, because I still want to go to college and pursue my career.

But lately, Mathew rarely calls me, and rarely texts me, but I still believe in Mathew, I know that Mathew's brother is on duty, and of course if we don't communicate all just because Mathew's sister is in the field, one time I called Mathew and the right one who picked up the phone is Martha's sister, Martha,

"Hello night, with whom and who to talk to?" greet a woman behind her phone,

"Oh.., I'll call in five minutes, yeah, I'll call the guy first" he said

"Thank you brother, sorry to bother" and the phone was cut off, because Mathew has not communicated with me for a long time, I decided to call Martha's house directly, although actually the shame and bad taste is acting on me because we will communicate by hitching a ride on someone else's home phone, it is not free. Five minutes later I dialed back the same phone number and connected,

"Hello good night, with whom and who to talk to?" again the sentence repeated,

"Sister's night, this is Ovie.ma.." My speech was interrupted.

"Oh yeah,. Whoiiii!!!! Mathew!!! you pick up this lady's phone" she shouted behind the phone's handle,

There was also the rare sound of someone hunting, "iyooo"

a familiar voice to me, "Thank you, yeah." said the man's voice,

"Hello dear.." welcome him.

"Hello brother., Lovely kangennn!!!" my voice was half screaming,

"So, too, sangaat!!!" the answer is "sorry big brother some days down directly in the field dear, and the pulse of gsm brother runs out, so can not reply sms adek" he explained

"Daddy, what's up, brother.., how are you?" much

"Good sister's news, good grandfather - all right?" ask her again,

"Dad is good, brother." I replied,

"daddy, wait.., I know the same brother martha yah. who just received a good phone call, Martha!!! Martha!!! here" call Mathew, and I just hear their conversation behind my phone, "What's Mathew???"

"Let's know my girl first" Mathew replied,

"Haloo.." Brother Martha's voice sounded more friendly than when I received my call earlier.

"Hello sister.,, this is Ovie.., thank you for helping Ovie so that she can communicate with Mathew" I said kindly..

"Dad.., same - same, this is Martha's sister, later if you want to call whenever the phone, it's okay" he replied, he replied,

"Well, thank you, brother," I replied,

"This is brother connect to Mathew again yeah." he replied

"Good sister.thank you" and after that I continued my conversation with Mathew, because this is the call of people, I also know myself, our conversation was short enough for only about twenty minutes, usually we communicate for more than an hour, then we say goodbye to each other and end our communication that night.

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seriate,