I Am Beautiful

Become the Ritunitas and fill Jack's Heart

(Beautiful Monologist)

For the next month, it has become a habit to shuttle Jack every day, and become a special schedule for Roy pick up every Wednesday and Friday on the grounds of Band training, and it's true that every Wednesday and Friday is my training schedule, but I spend more time with Jack now, because the same school and tutoring place also makes us friends, the same direction of home, but our hearts are more than just friends and right, said Roy, Jack is a good boy, and will become a good adult man later.

It feels like I've enjoyed my new routine for a month, and even I can ignore my heartache for Mathew, With Roy I felt like I was with a cute, famous guy who really loved me as his girlfriend, even Roy really appreciated every inch of time we went through,

"I don't know when it's beautiful, but every time I'm with you I always feel like tomorrow is our last day together, so I always cherish every moment of our togetherness," He said that night, after we finished training together,

"Roy.., why don't you date a nice woman, I don't want you to become attached to me and you're wasting your time Roy.." I said,

"Beautiful, I'm just waiting for a miracle, who knows you'll be really serious with me, if not for the rest of your life you'll always remember having an ex-boyfriend named Roy, ahahahahaa!!" Roy's laughter sounded like normal, as if Roy had no burden of life at all,

"Hmm.., Roy.., you're a freak.." I said and took him away from our training ground,

"You want to go home?" ask Roy, please,

"May, tomorrow I have my final semester exam" I said,

"Alright." replied Roy,

"During the exam I'll be with Jack every day to study together" she said,

"Aren't you with Jack more often than I?" god Roy, though,

"Hmmm..., Roy.., I thought I expected Jack to fall in love with me, but.., I also expected Jack to stay away from me," and then I paused, "Because after Mathew gets home, everything's gonna fuck Roy up." I said,

"Don't want to be messed up by Mathew.., Ndah.., you have to be brave to behave, don't want people who have not been your husband to mess with your mind, we are too young to think about too heavy a problem" roy said as he grabbed my shoulder,

"Well, I will try to be bolder." I said with a smile and wrapped my hands around Roy's waist, we walked like brothers even though the title was temporary scourge, But in terms of feelings no one matched Roy's attitude that could very well put himself in expression and show his feelings.

Once at home I study for the test preparation tomorrow, I really feel my soul is better when I am with my friends, and Roy, and Jack.., but I shuddered as I looked at Mathew's smiling face, "Do I have to put this photo down" I muttered, then immediately I dropped Mathew's photo and I put it in my closet, I realized that Mathew's return was not too long ago, and this new habit of my routine had to change Pola immediately, I don't want Jack and Roy to be the victims of Mathew's indiscriminate jealousy like Mathew threatened Rivaldo before him, and I realized that my new routine was already known to Mathew even though he's in prison now.

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As usual Jack picked me up and I went with Jack to my school, "Jack, later after school we eat in a simple fried chicken yukkk, I saw a faint smile on Jack's face from the rearview mirror,

"You bought me?" ask Jack, please,

"Dad I bought you, I'm the one who jumped." I replied,

"Okay.." he answered and took off his motorbike, arriving at the school we took the exam and came home at exactly 12 pm, as promised Jack and I set out to enjoy a simple fried chicken, just like a chicken, after the meal I ordered ice fruit as well as Jack,

"Ndah, I'll go to the restroom first yeah." Jack's permission, please,

"Dad.." I said, nodding,

After a few minutes Jack came back and sat down in front of me, "Tumben ngajakkin eat, usually you eat with your chat that vocalist band right?" satirical Jack,

"Roy, his name is Roy, he's like my brother Jack" I said,

"But he has a crush on you" Jack said,

"But he said, I'm too good for him, he's a play boy." I said,

"Dad.., indeed, and already famous, but who knows he can change with you," he said, with an indifferent tone but an irritated expression, I chuckled at Jack's behavior, and nosy thoughts came back to my mind,

"Jack, you're being honest with me.." I immediately held onto Jack's palms, Jack was surprised to see my actions, his face flushed red and a look of sweat as big as corn kernels scattered on his temple, Jack said,

"Hmmm,

"Who was your first love Jack?" I asked by looking into his eyes, Jack immediately lowered his head for a moment, and immediately raised his head, Jack,

"Why are you asking? who was your first love?!" Jack asked me again in a nervous voice,

"Loh..., strange you this, I give a question even answered with a question as well, how the hell?! it's not fair, well uda I answered but you also have to answer my question well,

"Hmmm...., who? whose quarry?" push Jack,

"Sir Mathew, my first love, and being the man I hate the most now" I replied seriously,

"Why do you hate Mathew?" Ask Jack, though,

"Loh.., don't ask anymore, now it's your turn to answer my question Jack," I turned her attention to Mathew, who was,

Jack did not answer anything, he immediately stood up and took me to the outside of the restaurant, I was a little upset to see Jack's behavior, but immediately understood, because I thought, maybe he was a gerogi, he was,

"Why come home?!" my scolding was a little with a rising voice, even though I actually knew why he was taking me home,

"From that moment, Lah.. Poh.. Lah.. Loh.., keep! Go home, let's rest at four in the afternoon I'll take us to tutoring to Mr. Joty's place" he continued

"Well, I'll pay the bill first." when I'm about to pass, Jack reaches my wrist and holds me back from going inside, he said,

"I've paid, let's hunt Naik" Jack asked,

"And I said, I'm the deal." I nagged again and again to Jack,

"Duh, Beautiful,.., already hunted up, I don't like to be paid by girls Ndah.., let's spit!"

I went up and immediately Jack drove me home, after a while, when I was lying down twenty and then the sound of my phone rang and I saw Jack sending me a short message,

"My first love was you!"

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