I Am Beautiful

The Beginning of the Destruction of My Future

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My brief relationship with Rivaldo recounts a sweet memory, until now, all the men I have had a relationship with have their own stories, each one of them, but the beginning of my life's destruction began in the middle of the year when I sat in the second grade of High School, Well, in this Chapter I will tell you how the beginning of the destruction was..., truly I am so grateful to Author who will convey the darkness of my life, so that no more young girls experience what I have experienced.

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Mathew was really riled up behind the phone at the time, "Have you ended your relationship with that High School Boy?!" his voice rose slightly, and it raised its ears and pierced my heart,

"Have it!! what more do you want from me, brother?!!! I'm asking us to break up!!!" I shouted while disconnecting the phone that night.

"You want to break up Mathew?!!! what will your life be!!! HUH?!! idiot boy!!!" suddenly his emotional ranking came to me, my mother grabbed my hair violently which pushed me into my room.

At that time I was a child who did not dare to break my parents, especially my mother, because from childhood I never felt disdain for my mother but felt afraid, because, every time I make a mistake I will be beaten by my mother to the brunt, and every time there is a fight between me and junior leo right or wrong I remain wrong. That was rumored in my family's life, while all this time besides school I was also required to help papa work in his company, his,

"Ma..., Beautiful is not strong ma.., Mathew's behavior is outrageous.." I tried to defend myself in front of my mother, but free, but free, whatever my reason for the rules in the house is that all must obey my mother, not my father's exception.

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The days I went back gloomily, now I look at the face of Mathew in the photo that I always keep in my closet, and in the middle of my daydreams, I look at the face of Mathew in the picture that I always keep in my closet, no way did Brother Mathew take another day off to meet me, this time Mathew came with a harder sikao to me.

"Sister.., forgive Beautiful.." a great fear enveloped my heart,

"Dad is okay.., just don't repeat it again well.., brother will not look for the High School child, but brother asks you not to repeat again." replied Mathew, who is not,

"Dad brother, I promise" I said..,

We talked lightly in the living room of my house, and I was creative in picking up Mathew's backpack and tidying up his clothes in the guest room that mom always provided whenever Mathew came to visit us,

"Beautiful and Mathew, this mama wants to go to work papa project, mama will take little leo, you guys are good - good at home, Mathew.., aunt titip Indah well.." I told my mom that day,

"How long ma?" my tofu, my,

"A little over a week" said the mother, and I saw Mathew helping her lift a suitcase bag and some other gear,

"Ndah, well - good at home, diligent school, do not skip well son," said papa and immediately followed to the car that was ready to leave.

"Okay pa.., may the business all be successful well pa.." my connection while hugging tightly papa and full of affection.

I caught up with Mathew, went down the balcony steps of my front yard and drove my parents away to make a living, my prayers and wishes go to God so that our economic situation improves that I do not need the financial support of Mathew.

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The sky had darkened, we had also finished our dinner, and were spending time in the living room watching television, when I was seriously watching television without flinching Mathew's hands started to creep all over me, and I enjoyed the rhythm of Mathew's big-handed play that night.

What an outlet for hate is so thin with love, I hate Mathew's arrogance so much, but I also love Mathew so much for no apparent reason, plus he was the one - the one man - who had touched my body.

Mathew started licking the back of my neck, and playing his hand by squeezing both of my breasts, moaning sounds out of my lips, but my common sense kept me from going too far,

"Don't sister., don't get this.." I tried to restrain all the activities of Mathew's sister who is pursuing intimacy, intimacy,

"Sister., not sis.," again - again I asked him to stop,

"Has Rivaldo taken your virginity?!!' What a very painful question I heard from someone else,

"What do you mean, brother??!! don't you just talk?!" I rebutted in a high voice,

"I can't believe it, I'm sure you must be Bolong!!" she cried Mathew, her face was getting red.

THE PLAAAKKKK!!!!

I slapped him as hard as I could, my tears were crying profusely!!

"Why do you always talk to me, brother?!!" not accepting the treatment I asked for an explanation of what all this meant,

Instead of giving an explanation, Mathew even made the atmosphere more murky, "I should ask!! why are you dating someone other than me?!!" Mathew pushed me to the corner of the wall, but because of the overflow of emotions this time there was no fear at all for Mathew who was intimidating me, but he was,

"Because of your present attitude!! you are too arrogant to me Brother!!! You also cheated on me behind my back, right??!! even if you don't want to admit it but it's been more than two people who gave me the Info, and just so you know kak for a month there are women who claim to have slept with you!! then what else do I expect from you brother?!!!" I replied hysterically and cried so hard,

Mathew did not heed all the complaints of the outpouring of hearts conveyed by the beautiful, "I'll have you!!" Mathew said with emotion, this time it was serious Mathew reached the peak of his desire for me, Mathew tore off the shirt I was wearing that night, and tore my underwear so that both of my breasts were exposed out, and I closed with both hands, and now my body was trembling with fear of the unkind.

When Mathew tried to take off his shirt, I ran to save myself by running towards the room, intending to lock the door, but dear...when I was halfway through Mathew pulled my wrist, and pulled my right hand and threw me on the bed in the room he was in.

"Sister.., don't sis..., please, what do you want to do sis?" I really begged for all this to be stopped right then and there, while closing my chest.

At once also Mathew pulled my leg and forcibly opened the shorts that I was wearing along with the underwear, now there is not a single strand of yarn covering my body, she said, Mathew's lust goes up and hunts at the open pants that are still in fact so that the vital part of Mathew is clearly visible, my pride is trampled - stepped on that night, stampede, dengab Forced Mathew clasped both hands and pressed me with both his long and large legs so that I could not move at all, and Mathew inserted his vitals into my vitals,

With Kasar Mathew continuing to force his vitals through my virginity layer, with great screams and cries I kept begging Mathew to stop his actions, Namuh Mathew was getting violent with me, feeling that her vitals haven't been able to penetrate the thick walls of my virginity Mathew sucked my breasts rough and bit one of the** until it bled a little, bloody,

I'm crying more and more - so, "Stop brother.., forgive Beautiful.., please brother.., don't sis., mercy brother,," I plead like a beggar to no longer accept the severe torment that Mathew gave me,

"I won't stop until you're mine" Mathew said, and Mathew thrust his vitals back into my current penis in a more crude manner, to the cesssss...., Fresh blood soaked my feet and dripped on the bedsheet.

I I feel like I've given up, the pain and pain makes me helpless to fight, really my body feels like a bruise covers all parts of my body,

"Now I'm going to get mine out" Mathew pumped out very quickly regardless of the blood that never stopped,

"Ampuuunnn sak..," I can only say that one word.

"Now you are mine" Mathew whispered as he continued to shake his hips incessantly..

"I'm not a virgin anymore," I said, and tears really tormented me

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