I Am Beautiful

Stop Plan

"Lord.., if I could ask you...

When it's worth me to be your angel...

Lift me to the highest place in your throne..

If I am not worthy to be an inhabitant of your heaven...

Guide and give me strength so that I can survive..

give me a little happiness in my life..

so if I have to close my eyes forever..

I can fall asleep with a smile when I remember.."

Beautiful little again restless, unable to think how he could stop by to the house aunt Neli.., in the darkness of the room he occupied (beautiful in the law for 1 month sleeping in an empty house in front of the house aunty sandra) with a light of a candle, Beautifully took a pencil and paper, and, writing a letter to aunt Sandra and om santoso, she wrote about living with aunt Neli and longed to re-group with her parents.., not felt because of the unbearable sleepiness he was asleep on the floor right on the paper containing the letter..

The next day, Beautiful woke up and saw that the letter that had just been written was not in front of her,

Suddenly came om Santoso and Aunt Sandra in the room Lovely, the feathers stood up. his heart beat fast, the body trembled unbearably, it felt like a lightning struck by fear, because of fear, and true that day little Beautiful was beaten up because she had planned to stop from the house of Aunt Sandra,

"Excuse me.., excuse me.." an unfamiliar voice rattled outside Aunt Sandra's house.., I looked out sobbing crying because I was beaten up by "Pak Tarno..." he is my school security guard, the security guard who until now I still clearly remember his face, the man was about 57 years old hair has changed a lot of white with a thick white mustache he saw my situation with great shock, without thinking long Pak Tarno came carrying me to protect me from the blows of Om Santoso, "Put this kid down, he's my son, don't try to interfere in our family affairs or I'll report you to the police" Sandra said..

Very unfortunate that year there was no Child Protection Act, until finally Pak Tarno was forced to remove me from his carrier, "It's okay if my mother wants to report me to the police, because I will not let Indah be beaten blindly like before" said Pak Tarno with his high voice..

Some neighbors swarmed the house at that time, and because of fear of embarrassment finally Aunt Sandra promised to take good care of me, until finally Mr. Tarno came home...,

You know what happened after??

I think it's over it turns out Om Santoso's getting mad he took his wind shot scared me by pointing a shot of wind at my head,

"I'm God's resignation when I have to die" I murmured in my heart

"Doorr" the air rifle rang and it turned out I was still alive drooping down this leg, making me fall down...

Days change.., torture for the sake of endless torture I always get every day, I just hope that time will soon turn around and I get up to class, quickly, to get back to my parents..

it was time for my class to rise in umunkan, how happy this heart, when I heard papa would send money for me to return to Sumatra to gather again with papa and mama..., But this time we no longer live in Jambi, but moved to Pekanbaru - Riau...

Om Santoso and Aunt Sandra were not willing to let me go back into the arms of my parents, and it was very surprising to me, because as long as I live with them there is more pain and suffering I get than happiness, I almost never feel happy...

But my heart at that time there was not the slightest bit of hatred or resentment to them, I also cried as it happened when saying goodbye to my father and mother...,

"Excuse Beautiful Aunt, Forgive Beautiful om.., all this time like to make om and aunt angry.., Lovely love your same" while hugging om and my aunt...

#The journey home I've been waiting for

With Om Santoso's car I left for Juanda Airport, silent during the trip to the airport with a hold of joy in this heart, 40 minutes of travel passed until we arrived in front of the airport, the airport, and the, Om santoso drove me to enter Chek In plane ticket and entrust me to Garuda flight attendant who at that time escorted small children like myself on the way,

"Well, Tuhaaann, we will finally get together again, I will meet with my father and Leo junior (my brother), Thank God you finally answered this prayer..." the unspoken gratitude I offer to God..

The flight went smoothly, from Surabaya transit to Jakarta and Continue to Pekanbaru..

along the way it feels new that time I enjoy the view of the sky full of admiration, I finally free.., I will return to my parent cage, the plane is ready for landing...

Getting off the stairs made me very excited, walking with a group of children my age led by a very graceful flight attendant, Right in the Arrival Room from Far away I saw my parents, and I was, and I saw one brother I didn't know carrying my brother Leo Junior, "Tante thank you for bringing Indah here" said my thanks to the flight attendant "is equally affectionate" he replied with a big smile

I can't wait to run off their arms papa and mama.., I run for joy with tears of happiness falling down with "Papaaaa.., Mamaaaa....," I cried, they welcomed my embrace, the three of us hugged..

Travel Home to the house contract papa and mama new quite far from the airport, "Beautiful.., before beautiful until home, mama want to say that the beautiful house is now not as big as the house in jambi, jambi, this house is also a contracted house, mom and dad have not bought a new house here, Beautiful must learn to live a simple life and accept the state of papa and mama who are now well dear" my mother said with a face that I find difficult to describe

"Dad ma.., it's okay, as long as there are papa and mama Beautiful happy" I said to calm my mother and papa..

Surely what my mama said.a small blue house fitting on the housing hook is our contracted house, by the time I got out of the car I saw my surroundings around this house did not take long because it was a tiny house, only two bedrooms and one bathroom outside the house, very different from our house in Jambi first, a very large white house.bedroom there are 4, very spacious and luxurious...

At that time I did not realize what my parents were facing, what difficulties, what conflicts, even how could all this happen very incomprehensible...