First Love Without Rest
Turns out
Milla began her story of how Amri disappeared every time I was sick and cared for, without even giving me news via phone or text message.
Long ago, the first time I fainted and was treated. Amri looked at me to the hospital but Papi who was there at that time even expelled and blamed Amri even accused him of having a bad influence on me.
"Your father threatened that he would take you as far as possible so you wouldn't see each other again" Milla said, leaving my eyes wide open in disbelief at the words of my own best friend.
"You saw it for yourself, didn't you ?" I convinced myself and they nodded.
"I tried to talk to Amri behind your Papi, Amri really love you Fei, even after your Papi was very rude to him"
"Fei, did after you met yesterday that Amri didn't say anything to you ?" reyhan asked half a whisper, I shook my head slowly.
It turns out it's true my guess all along that Papilah is the reason why Amri likes to suddenly disappear and be hard to contact.
"Why did Papi do that when I was not his real son" I asked in my heart.
Seeing me daydream about it Milla immediately shook my shoulder, making me hold my head with both hands.
"Why dear ?" suddenly Mami who just entered my room saw me holding my head.
"Who Mi, what did Mami bring ?" I tried to divert so Mami would stop worrying about me.
"Well, chocolate cupcake is aunty" said Reyhan who seemed to understand my code.
"Yes, it's still hot and ripe" said Mami replied to us complete with a carved smile on her face.
As if her son was playing with a friend and didn't want to interrupt, Mami left my room as soon as she made sure I was okay. "Don't forget to take the medicine" Mami said before stepping out of my room.
"I'm sorry Fei I forgot" said Milla, who had only been quiet during Mami's room. I pulled the tip of my lips with my finger and said "im okk bebeh".
"Milla, Reyhan, you don't want to help me" I asked with hope.
"What ?" they simultaneously respond.
"Thus I have a follow-up exam, after which can you arrange for me to meet Amri ?" my whiskey. They nodded after looking at each other for a while.
As if not satisfied to ask and find out about Amri. I still ask them both. Because they only told me the first time I fainted. What about new events ?
"Did Amri know I was hospitalized again?" I ask who is still curious.
"Fei, Amri comes every day to the hospital with us" Reyhan admitted as he reached into the bag to pick up the phone and thrust it at me after tinkering with it for a while.
I saw their chatt history. Amri kept questioning me to Reyhan and sending me pictures every day even though they looked the same, I was just lying unconscious in a hospital bed at the time.
Seeing their chatt history made my tears drip, especially when I read a chatt that seemed to slice in my heart.
"I did this for Feiza's sake. I'd rather just see it from afar than nothing" Amri sent the message must have something to do with the conversation my two friends witnessed. Papi had threatened Amri at the time, and I believe Papi repeated it again when I fainted the second time.
"Papi ... why this whole thing" I finally started sobbing again.
"Can you leave me alone ? I want to be alone" I said with a sorrowful look at Milla.
"You can call us when Fei is, now take a break" Milla said as she tidied up her bag.
"Take the medicine first, after that we go home" Reyhan reminded as he took the medicine placed on the table.
I don't think what Papi's real purpose is. Why is Papi so chuckling to keep me away from Amri. It doesn't make sense to just be banned from dating and not old enough. Although from the beginning Papi was very possessive and limited all my activities and associations. There must be another reason behind all this.
After falling asleep due to the effects of the medicine I took last night. This morning I woke up very fresh, Ka Soni was sitting on the edge of my bed. "It just wanted to be built" he said. I tried to get up and rub my still blurry eyes looking around and trying to stretch myself.
"Yok breakfast" take Ka Soni.
"Aren't you leaving today ?" I asked who remembered my sister's vacation schedule. He also nodded.
"So don't take a night flight, so today we're walking yes" he said very gently.
After having breakfast together, Papi who was at home on standby asked us to gather in the living room to tell him something.
"What's the Pi ?" tanya ka Soni started the conversation.
"But I think you're old enough to know the truth" Papi said.
"Moreover this" I muttered as heard by Ka Soni who was sitting beside me. She tightened her seat to embrace me tightly. Making Papi glance at his hand.
"Feiza is not Mami's son, but Feiza is Papi's son, Papi's son !" Papi's confession made me look at each other with Ka Soni.
"I mean Papi?" ask me simultaneously with ka Soni.
"Listen to Papi well to the end without interrupting his talk" Mami scolded us.
"Bapi made a mistake, but Papi never regretted it because this angel is harir in the middle of this family" Papi's sentence made me think hard, especially the view of Papi that continues to focus on me.
"I'm a bastard ?" I stood up as soon as the thought came.
"Feiza .. sit" pinta Mami.
"Mi, Pi, is Feiza really a bastard ?" ask me again without minding Mami's orders.
Ka Soni stood next to me, made me sit back and I resigned. I cried so much in my brother's arms.
"Feiza was not an illegitimate child, Papi was once married to Feiza's biological mother until Feiza was born. Sorry Papi, because it has exemplified that is not good to you. Papi Khilaf" Papi also shed his tears while Mami continued to struggle to sit next to her husband.
After having two children, Papi, who feels neglected to cheat with other women until marriage. But, only a few weeks of their marriage was revealed by Mami until Mamipun had been depressed even wanted to end his life because the man who had been very trusted had two behind him.
Papi's love for Mami makes him feel confident and get back on the right path. So was his second ex-wife, who was none other than my biological mother. They divorced after my birth. I lived alone with my biological mother until the age of almost two years, then because of the heartache she harbored Mama died and Papi took me to the middle of his family, with Mami and my two brothers.
My mother has a very clean heart so she has no grudge against me at all. From childhood Mami always loved me like her biological child. There are even many similarities between us that make anyone not think that I am not his biological child.
