First Love Without Rest

Orphanage

Along the way after getting off the taxi I went down the sidewalk and my steps stopped in front of the path to the orphanage I had been to with Amri.

"Lah didn't come here to say" a housekeeper's mother who was sweeping the yard greeted me who entered the fence of his yard.

"poo Fei cry ? come in first" deftly the mother of the parlour embraced and rolled me into one of the rooms in the parlour.

"kalo mbak do not want to tell me to rest here first.I stay out for a while yes" said Mother of the home while saying goodbye to me. I nodded slowly then slept curled up, crying in the blanket. I tried so hard that my crying could not be heard by anyone until I fell asleep there.

When I woke up and saw the clock on the wall of the room that showed seven o'clock at night, I stretched the muscles of the body first before finally coming out of the room.

"Brukkk .." Just a step out of the room arrived a cool little boy running to hit me who just came out of the room.

"Sorry ka" said he who was still sitting on the floor. "sister who apologizes deck, come here brother help" I said as I pulled his hand and helped him stand up. It was only a matter of seconds that his friend approached us.

"Intan gapapa ?" ask another child who is approaching. With a sweet smile the fallen child answered "gapapa ka" with his effect.

"Ka Fei" suddenly arrived the little boy who noticed his fallen friend was glancing at me and immediately put on his cheerful face and some of those who did know me immediately approached and hugged me tightly.

"when did you come ? where's Amri ? brother why?" asked them alternately.I haven't had time to answer their questions, Mother of the home approached us. "Have not disturbed Feiza ka, ready for dinner aja yok" said Ibu Panti who was immediately diyakan by children.

"Is it better now ?" ask Mother Home with full attention. I nodded and tried to give her a smile to make her look better. For more than twenty years he guarded the Panti founded by his father Amri. Although it was bankrupt but Amri and his father always set aside their sustenance to share especially this Panti. Since I know me, and know that I also like children he often takes me to the Orphanage in our city.

"Hand, after that we eat together" said Mother of the home while giving me a clean towel that is still folded. "I'm sorry Feiza has taken care of Mom" I said softly and replied to the smile of the house Mother who was so cool. "Where could Fei be troublesome, this was also his house" he replied to me.

"Become of Feii ..." In the dining room the children cheered greeted me with great enthusiasm, making it seem as if my burden was all apart. I replied to them with a smile as sincere as possible.

We had dinner together with laughter, eating while chatting. They all made me forget my sorrow even for a moment.

"After night, enter each child's room" Mother Panti asked the children to rest and in an orderly manner they obey.

After all the children entered their rooms, Mother Panti brought me to the room where I had rested earlier, she still asked me in the hope that I would share my story with her.

Because it has been almost a year since the beginning of dating Amri I have often been to the Panti making my relationship with Mother Panti like a child and Mother herself, I finally told her everything.

"Feiza doesn't know why Mami and Papi fight so often" I said, again sobbing. Mother Panti gently rubbed my head up to my back repeatedly trying to calm me down without saying anything.

It is not just a matter of families arriving broken after looking harmonious for years. I also told him about Soraya. Making Mother Panti follow her furiously until she has to be privileged because of the almost release of her emotions. "O Allah, why is there such a man. Patience mbak, I'm sure Mas Amri will be the same mate Maak Fei" again Mother Panti comforted me so that implied a smile on my face.

"Mom .. one more thing that Feiza hasn't told anyone, including Amri" I said softly with some hesitation. "say mbak, if you ask me to keep it a secret, I'll take care of it" Mom reassured me.

"Feiza isn't sure ma'am, but ..."

"Before Feiza knew Amri, Soraya and her friend challenged Feiza to a bet" I said, starting the story with a very careful and slightly stammering heart.

"Bet ?" suddenly Mother Panti interrupted my speech.

"Yes ma'am, they asked me to make a popular student fall in love and want to date me. And Amri was the popular student" As soon as my confession made Mother Panti's eyes widened in disbelief, especially after I admitted that I accepted the bet.

"But ma'am .." Again my speech was interrupted because it was very hard to tell. But somehow I felt like I had to tell a story, especially after hearing Soraya's confession about her relationship with Amri.

"It's difficult not to continue. I understand mbak must have a reason to accept it. especially friends mbak mbak it has a bad nature" said Mother Panti again calm me.

After being able to regulate my emotions and breathing that goes up and down, I finally went back to continuing my story to Mother Panti. "Mr ..." I called Mother Panti who was just about to come out of my bedroom. Make Mother Panti back to step foot towards me and sit at my bedside.

"Feiza did accept the bet, but such great fear made Feiza undo it and admit defeat even before Feiza was close to Amri. That's why Soraya and her friends are getting bitter about Feiza for thinking Feiza's a loser" I said, trying hard to tell my grievances.

"Then, they know the relationship with Mas Amri ?" ask Mother Home with a very careful heart. Makes me nod slowly.

"How did you respond ?"

"At first they were shocked, but it seems they were desperate to find out why I was so close and to date Amri who is very cold with other girls"

"The more here they take care of my relationship. Especially the other day Soraya once whispered to me and threatened to do anything to get Amri back to her"

"It's clear, I'm also sure Mas Amri will believe Mba Fei. My advice is better Ma'am Fei tell Mas Amri about this" Mother Panti advised me. I bowed with both hands holding my head, holding my hair dangling forward. While Mother Panti continued to gently rub my back.

"It's better if Fei takes a break first, hopefully tomorrow will be calmer"

After finishing covering me and turning off the room lights, Mother Panti came out leaving me to rest.