First Love Without Rest
Explanation
As usual, I always locked the door and didn't want to be bothered. Many times Mami and Papi knocked on the door alternately but I kept them quiet.
"Am I not a real child ? So who were my parents all this time ?" I keep asking myself things. Almost everything that I liked even my allergies and Mami was the same, but it turned out that I was not his son. What is this problem of God ?.
Thinking about it all night made me drift and fall asleep on the couch in the corner of my room. Until the morning I woke up with a very sore body.
Not so long ago, the sound of knocking on the door began to sound again. This time, Mami persuaded me in exchange for telling me everything. Curiosity made me melt and open the door for Mami who was then while bringing breakfast for me on the tray.
"Where's Papi and ka Soni ?" ask me while looking out of the room.
"The fire has gone to work since Fei, Soni is in her room" replied Mami.
"Breakfast ya Fei" I saw Mami's face glaring at me softly. The face I only saw this end. The face that used to be always engraved with a sweet smile and happy laughter.
"Sorry Feiza Mi" I said, eager to shed my tears but as if I had spent the whole night.
"Eat, after this Mami will tell you everything. Mami loves Feiza. Mami also really knows Feiza dear to Mami" Mami continued to say while bribing me homemade fried rice.
I just looked at his face with a lot of questions swirling over my head. After my plate of fried rice and strawberry milk ran out, Mami placed the empty tray on the table near my bed. Then gently rub and tidy my bangs that began to extend.
"Say everything Mi, is Feiza not your real child ?" I said I was getting impatient.
Mami was silent for a long time as if gathering her strength to tell the secret that had been hidden.
"Son, Feiza isn't Mami's real daughter, but Mami has never bothered about it, Mami loves you as much as your sister, even more" Mami began to say it with a slight pause because her sobs began to overflow.
I hugged him tightly who was now sitting on the edge of the bed with me. "Feiza loves Mami, but Feiza is afraid of Mi, Feiza is afraid to accept this fact, Mami does not lie to Mi" I said convincing Mami and of course myself.
"Feiza isn't Mami's real son ? So I .." arrived Ka Soni entered my room with a shocked face, and surely me and Mami who did not expect Ka Soni eavesdropping outside the room were also surprised.
Ka Soni approached us, sat on the other side next to me, looked at me with a look of disbelief and hugged me tightly. "Gak Mi, Feiza adek Soni, Tell Mi if Mami is lying, Feiza Adek Soni right" for the first time I saw my brother struggling, I felt it too as if sliced in pain in the chest.
"Feiza is your sister, son" Mami spoke again, causing us to look at her. Especially now.
"Mami I mean ?" At once we asked.
"Feiza is not Mami's son, but Feiza ..." My mother was silent as if she could not tell the truth.
Again it felt like my head was going to break that day, making me suddenly unconscious while trying to wait for Mami to say the continuation of her sentence.
"Fei ... Feiza" that was just the scream I heard last time on the verge of my consciousness.
After I realized, I saw all around me again I knew I was in the hospital room with the infusion in my hand that began to swell. There was not a single person accompanying me when I woke up, until finally the door of the hospital room opened.and someone immediately ran towards me, "Feiza ..." Mami held me who was already in a sitting state.
The doctor and nurse followed after Mami pressed the bell button near my bed. Checking me out and taking Mami out of the room, "Say me here, doc, I want to know" I asked to make the whole room look at me. At first glance I saw the doctor looking at Mami as if giving a code to ask her permission.
"Say here doctor" Mami sat on the edge of the bed and clasped my hand with an occasional stroke of the back of my hand very gently.
"You have mild depression, it can be caused by thinking about many things, or the trauma of one thing" the doctor began to explain.
I fell silent and glanced at Mami who also glanced at me with her joints. She let out her tears and kissed my temple repeatedly. "Feiza will be good" said Mami, making me stroke her arm back that hugged me.
"Sorry Mami ya Fei, it's all Mami's fault" said Mami who still continued to cry in front of me.
"Mommy ... Mami want to help Feiza ?" I said with a look of trying hard.
"Mommy will help you with anything"
Mami's answer made me smile more.
"What can you help my mom?" tanyakanya.
"Smile, and stop crying" I said, wiping away the tears that kept soaking her cheeks.
Mami looked at me deeply and kissed my forehead and hugged me tightly "Mommy promise, whatever it is, for Feiza's sake" said Mami who wanted to fulfill my wish.
Simultaneously, Ka Soni entered my room with a face that saw me who was unconscious for 10 days finally seen sitting at that time. "Iaaaangg" he said slightly running towards me and hugging me, random shuffling of hair that hasn't even been combed since waking up. "Kakaaaakk"
"Soni, tell my sister and Papi ya" Mami's request agreed. Without moving from beside me, he called Malik and Papi to inform me of my situation.
"Mi, is there a comb ? Feiza's hair is a mess" I complained.
"Mami didn't bring it, but your sister must have brought it, all this time she's been brushing your hair" Mami said making me look at my sister and look at her with a full of pampering and pampering. "really ?" I said.
Ka Soni who had always liked to be nosy with me, turned out to take care of me attentively. "Sorry big brother Fei, you haven't had time for you" he said, brushing my hair longer.
"Now, brother will watch you when, but don't tell brother to come home suddenly yes" he continued half-jokingly making me and Mami laugh.
"Waaaahh, I can laugh" Ka Malik and Ka Marwah came with my favorite fruit bucket and Hazelnut Coffee.
"sister bought it at your subscription Coffe Shop" Ka Marwah told me.
"Which fire ?" ask me while looking out the door of the room.
"But I haven't come home from work, wait a minute Fei, Papi must be here" said Malik.
"Is it because I'm not his real son ?" ask me in a low tone and a little sad.
"Well, what do you say about Fei ?" ka Malik who did not know what happened was immediately shocked to hear my statement.
"Mami .." ka Malik looked questioningly at Mami.
"Feiza accidentally heard Mami and Papi fighting and discussing it" Mami admitted to Ka Malik.
Ka Marwah who does not know what is also surprised to hear it.
"Feiza is Papi's biological child" Ka Malik spoke out loudly but still held back his anger.
"I mean brother ?" I asked more and more astonished. But then my head came back in pain, and they stopped the debate and immediately pressed a button to call the nurse and the doctor.
