First Love Without Rest

Go home

I've been living in a home for more than a week, with no news. Instantly my burden was lost while playing with the children of the orphanage with their innocent faces. But at night and alone in the room I re-thought every detail of my problem.

"Mr Fei, I'm sorry about that. But ..." Mother Panti approached me who was alone making instant noodles in the kitchen of the home. made me immediately stop all my activities at that time. "Why Ma'am ?" tanyaku wait continued the talk of Mother Panti.

I looked very carefully at Mother Panti's face but suddenly my gaze turned to someone who appeared at the kitchen door. That person is none other than Amri, "Amri ?"

"Amri's mother ?" I looked back at Mother Panti.

"Don't blame Bu Yun, I came here myself without knowing you were here" Amri answered the question I asked Bu Yun, Mother Panti.

I rushed out of the kitchen through the door where Amri was standing but he held me back. "I told you to tell me everything, never stop like a little gini" Amri spoke with anger that he wanted to vanish.

"look at them, they all want a family but can't get it. But you ? instead of leaving the family for your own ego" Amri began to raise his anger level because I was still trying to release his grip on my hand.

Like without forgiving me at all he continued to babble with rage. "Others that make you like this ? you know, Soraya called my mom when you were in the BK room" and Amri's confession surprised me and made me look at her fearfully. Then my legs seemed to limp without power, fell down and then cried.

Mother Panti approached and carried me to the bedroom. "you talk here. outside many children" said Mother Panti very gently. Then Mother Panti came out leaving me both with Amri.

In the room I sat on the bedside while Amri pulled the chair to get closer to me.

"Fei, what are you ? I told you that the girl's gausah ladenin, I love you" said Amri as he raised both of my cheeks with his hands and kept asking me to look into her eyes.

"I don't care if my mom doesn't like you. He wasn't even there for me all this time, so why do I have to obey him ?" When Amri arrived who did not hear the slightest sound coming out of my mouth, he stood up violently until he made the wooden chair he was sitting on fell backward.

"Ri ... have it" said I who finally made a sound, making Amri who was staring in various directions immediately turned his gaze to me. For a moment we looked at each other and then he sat down again, but now he was sitting next to me.

"Go home, take one more test. After graduation, I will keep my promise to you" Amri whispered me very gently.

"But ..."

"nothing but but a fireplace, please don't make things difficult for me. Do you want me to look worse in front of your Papi ?" he said spoiled like he was mocking me.

After finally he managed to persuade me, I parted with the rest of the House before leaving my most comfortable place at that time. "I'm sorry ma'am, Feiza's been a hassle all this time"

Along the way home I continued to hug Amri who was riding a motorcycle.

"tau gini kemaren yesterday use the motor only way" ledek Amri yamg seemed to enjoy my embrace on his bike. It embarrassed me and let go of my embrace. But she nimbly held my hand to keep holding her.

"don't let Fei go, don't"

Arrived, I was overwhelmed by the promise that Amri wanted to fulfill after graduation.

"Ri ..." I tried to call out to Amri but it wasn't answered.

"What the hell" he said as he tried to touch my head that was still leaning behind his shoulder

"Promise the $%^**()?"_,:_"

"What ? why ? don't listen"

The wind that was too strong and messed with our voices finally made me undo the intention to ask about Amri's promise.

It was a little afternoon when I got to the front of the house, very afraid indeed to return after staying more than a week without news. "go home, I don't want you to be blamed again this time" ask me to Amri who immediately agreed. "remember, I'm always there for you" said Amri before advancing his motorbike.

It was seen that the front door of my house was not tightly closed, there was still a gap so I immediately snatched in. But what was re-presented was the fight between my parents that now sounded clearer.

"He's not my son, but I love him very much" Mami shouted right in front of Papi's face.

"Who is not a child ?" I asked in my heart, curiosity made me hide docked in the barrier wall hoping to find out more detailed information.

"Very dear you said ? until you grow up with childish nature like this ?"

"why do you keep blaming me, you also spoil him, forget you who's defending every time I upset a child ? I never distinguished them, but you always scolded me back when I rebuked them" Mami began to cry as she poured out her heart.

"i was never even angry when you brought the results of your mistake "all the time Mami's words made my hand move until I shifted the furniture on the table until it fell and made a sound. They turned their heads toward the voice and all they found was me with a face full of tears.

"What do you mean by talk ? What mistake ?" my brain is filled with negative thoughts.

"Mr ..." Mami tried to get close and touch me but I brushed her off.

"Who is not a child ?" suddenly my highest voice shrieked in the living room of my house, making Ka Soni who had just arrived surprised to be made.

"Feiza .. have you returned ? why are you being rude ?" ask ka Soni for hearing me yell at my parents.

"sister may not know this secret either, why don't you tell me" I said in a low tone and glanced at Papi and Mami alternately.

"There's What's This Mi ... Pi ..." ask Soni.

"Sit down, son, Papi will tell you everything" Papi pinta and finally we obey him.

So long the legs sat in the living room without hearing any confessions from Papi or Mami.

"Who if you don't want to tell a story, Feiza probably won't believe the story you're about to tell, too many lies in this house. Feiza is tired" I said, who then moved and stepped towards my bedroom on the second floor.

I repeatedly heard Mami calling my name but I kept walking down the stairs until I got to my bedroom.