DEW PURITY

Talaqs

"Sister!"

"Kanaya, sorry to interrupt!" sahut Haykal, Kanaya was silent staring at Haykal's unkempt body. It was clear Haykal was lethargic, Haykal's eyes were both soft. Kanaya felt Haykal hadn't slept all night. There was compassion in Kanaya's heart. Seeing Haykal who turned big begguti.

"Sit down, I'll make you a drink!" kanaya said, asking Haykal to sit on a chair in his yard.

Haykal nodded, looking at my distant Kanaya back. Haykal looked around, looking at a simple two-story house. The house is a brick wall, only the front side is fenced in iron. A simple house that feels comfortable. A house that painfully worsened Haykal's heart.

"Sum a cup of coffee with a little sugar!" kanaya said kindly, then sat right next to Haykal.

Haykal looked up, he felt confused by Kanaya's attitude. Kanaya's calmness rendered her helpless. Guilt gnawed at his heart. Haykal is tormented by his foolish decision that leaves only wounds and tears for Kanaya. Haykal felt stupid, he lost everything in an instant. Something precious in his life.

"Why silence? Drink up, after that tell me the reason for brother's arrival!" kanaya said kindly, Haykal lowered his head in silence. Slowly, Haykal drank Kanaya's coffee. Haykal's face turned bright, it was clear how happy Haykal was. A cup of coffee that reminds him of Kanaya. A wife who has been in his life and will always be in his heart.

"Your coffee is always the best!" haykal praised, Kanaya shook her head.

"My coffee is ordinary, but it's your thinking that makes it feel different. Your longing is the basis of your judgment!"

"If you realize my longing, why do you always stay away from me? You turned away from my gaze. You're getting away from my steps. Your shadow is gone from my mind. The distance you created, left me unharmed!" haykal said, Kanaya smiled behind her veil. Kanaya sighed, she looked straight ahead. It looks like a high mountain. Kanaya stared in admiration. Haykal couldn't believe it, Kanaya had really changed.

"Your gaze used to be halal to me, but now your gaze is only harboring lust. Used to walk beside you, reward for me. Now being with you is a sin for me. I used to imagine you're proof of my devotion and sincerity. But now your shadow, the proof of the wobble of my faith. The priestly figure I once craved. But now, it's the big brother who's going to make me weak!" kanaya said, Haykal looked at Kanaya's face. There were no words that could describe his heart at this moment. Happiness mixed with bitter pain. Laughter that would not wipe away the tears in her heart.

"Sister, five years ago was the most wonderful time of my life. At the most difficult time I have lived. I became a very beloved wife. But I became a widow so betrayed. When I think with my heart. I feel most fortunate to have received your great love. To the extent that brother let me go, so that I don't commit sins. But when I thought, I felt like the dumbest woman. For accepting the love of a man like you, a cowardly man who never dared to take responsibility for his decisions!" kanaya said softly, Kanaya's hands clasped so tightly. It was as if holding back the anger and turmoil in his heart. Haykal shook his head slowly. The pain that Kanaya felt, all the stupidity that Haykal put through.

"Sorry!" said Haykal lirih, a word that can be spoken and represent the turmoil of Haykal's heart.

"Why should I apologize? Instead I should thank you. Brother left a wound that made me learn to be more mature. Brother grew a love that made me a perfect and wise woman. Brother taught me the meaning of sincerity that eventually led me to one single sincere word. Brother is not only the priest of my hereafter, brother is the best and toughest experience of my life. Big brother teacher who not only teaches theory, but real practice in my life. Honestly, if the word sorry was said five years ago. Maybe I'll get angry and cry, considering every wound you've left. But right now, your apologies are no longer needed. I just want to hear your decision. So that my brother and I can continue to live a better life!"

"What do you want to say? Honestly Kanaya, I don't understand what you're saying. Your calm makes me feel guilty, sick at the same time!" haykal said softly, Kanaya turned to Haykal. Two Kanaya eyeballs locked onto Haykal's face. It implies a meaning that is not easy to read. Only Kanaya's heart was able to understand the meaning of her gaze on Haykal.

"I'm sorry if you feel cornered, but from the bottom of my heart. I was angry and blamed you. But after five years passed, the wounds that you left behind made me learn the meaning of life. The meaning of true love. A love that only comes from faith in Him. It is not love that is merely because of lust!"

"If indeed you never hold anger for me. Why did you stay away from your family? You shut yourself up, choose a life without you?"

"Sister, a daughter who was once married. No longer worth living in his parents' house. That's why I live alone in this house. The house that my husband gave as his birthplace for the past five years!"

"Suami, are you married?" haykal said with a tone of shock and disappointment. Kanaya nodded slowly, Haykal looked down speechless. Instantly his body went limp, Haykal was crushed without a remnant. Kanaya is no longer alone, a fact that makes her world collapse.

"Am I not your wife. For five years, my brother always gave me a living. A blessing I never touched and now I'm buying this simple house!"

"For five years, you were still my lawful husband religiously. Brother was never my mentality, so I'm still your legal wife. The biggest reason I closed the entire aurat in my body. So that no other priest would knock on the door of my heart. At least until you say the word talak!"

"I won't mentally. I will make you my wife, then and forever!" haykal said with confidence. Kanaya shook her head weakly, Haykal stared intently at Kanaya. As if there was a sense of wonder, seeing Kanaya's constantly changing attitude.

"Son't have to say that talaq!"

"No way!" sahut Haykal is full of selfishness.

"Sister must say it, because the word talak can apply without saying. When a husband no longer cares for his wife for a few days or no longer supports her inwardly. Brother gave me birth, but not mind!"

"Kanaya, can't we stay together!"

"For now no, it would be better for us to live our own way. For five years, my brother was happy and strong without me. For five years anyway, I grew into a grown girl with your love and because of your love!"

"You want to end it all!" haykal said softly, Kanaya nodded without hesitation.

"For now, I want to end our marriage. But I offer a better relationship. A hand of friendship. We once tried to be a couple with a foundation of love. But in the end, we hurt and hurt each other. Now, why aren't we friends? It's possible, we could get to know each other and have a second chance for a better relationship!"

"You really want us to split up!"

"I never wanted a farewell with you. But our marriage is on a fragile foundation. Like a house with a fragile foundation, it will never make us comfortable in it. Just anxiety and fear, if at any time the house will collapse. Our marriage exists with sincerity, but stands with doubt. How wise, we end this relationship and forge a better one. At least we can live a quiet life, without fear of being hurt and guilt of having hurt!" kanaya said wisely, Haykal sighed. His gaze bowed, he tried to calm his heart. Trying to accept Kanaya's outstretched hand of friendship.

"Should Kanaya!" haykal said softly, Kanaya nodded slowly.

"We can't start a new relationship. If the old relationship does not end. I believe, if your ribs are now supporting my body. Later, your hand will fill in between my fingers. I clasped my weak hand. Your ribs that created me and will support my weak body for the rest of my life!"

"Kanaya, your hope is sweet but it feels bitter in my heart!"

"Sister Haykal, trust His decree. If HE ever grows love in our hearts. Then HE can also unite us in holy bonds!"

"Bismillahhirrohmannirrohim, Kanaya Fauziah Abimata I'm your mentality!" haykal said with a trembling and restrained voice. Haykal shed tears, his heart ached. Haykal felt his chest tight, now Kanaya is not who?

"Alhamdulillah!" kanaya said, raising her hand. Kanaya rubbed both her hands on her face. Haykal shook his head weakly, seeing how happy Kanaya was. Despite Kanaya's innermost heart, no one knows?

"Sir Haykal, I'm Kanaya Fauziah Abimata. May we be good friends!" kanaya said loudly, while standing right in front of Haykal. Kanaya cupped both her hands together. Replacing a helping hand of friendship on Haykal.

"I've got your love and I've wasted it. Now I will fight for your love and I promise with all my heart. I won't hurt you!" batin Haykal, while staring at Kanaya.