DEW PURITY

THE TORTURING MISS

It was seen a woman standing between the wide open fields. Hijab women who look charming by using a long robe. He was looking at the morning sun. The rising dawn brings new warmth and vigor. Hanna Adinda Zahira, a beautiful woman who silently admired the warmth of the dawn. The quiet atmosphere of the village, momentarily erased the desolate and longing that was ambushing in his heart. Hanna seemed to find tranquility behind the warm light of the dawn.

The sound of sparrows, beautiful singing like a melodious symphony song. Friction of coconut leaves when blown by the wind, becomes a complement to the melodious rhythm of the morning. Hanna stared silently at the dawn, looking warm for her cold heart. Gurgling the sound of flowing water, in rhythm with the longing sound that was in his heart. The natural beauty that is presented in the middle of the rice fields. Teach Hanna the meaning of a relationship. Hanna tries to understand the meaning of nature.

Since last night, Hanna has been unable to close her eyes. His heart was agitated at the thought of the longing that ruled him. A longing for a priest who no longer visits him. A longing that makes his chest feel tight. In the torment of the longing that can make it go away. Finally Hanna decided to go to the rice fields in the village. When the dawn had not yet greeted, Hanna was already sitting in a small hut by the side of the village path. Hanna left without saying goodbye to Aira. Because when Hanna left, Aira was praying at dawn.

Almost a month over Hanna was in this village. Away from the hustle and bustle of the city, a small village full of hospitality. The village where Hanna and Aira perform KKN. The small village is quiet and peaceful, but not as calm as Hanna who is missing Rafan. The owner of the heart who no longer greeted for almost a month. There was no warm voice that Hanna missed so much. A wedding is planned after two months. As if only wishful thinking and never will be done. Remembering Rafan who never came to visit him.

Never mind meeting and staring at each other, calling Hanna on the phone. Rafan is lost to the earth, no word from Rafan. Just saying he's okay. It was a beautiful night then, it became a night of division. Last night, Hanna looked at Rafan's face. No longer two beautiful eyes, staring at the handsome face of Rafan. A longing that started to hurt Hanna.

Hanna and Aira chose the same major. Both are like two twin brothers, their age is not far adrift. Since elementary school, Hanna and Aira have always been together. Only when the white gray, Hanna and Aira separated. Hanna attended formal school with Hanif. While Aira chose to enter the boarding school, one year before she graduated from Junior High School. Just like today, Hanna and Aira chose KKN in the same village. They went with some friends. Hanna asked the lecturer at her campus, so that she could KKN in her father's village. Hanna wants to go visit her father's family. The village that finally brought happiness and tranquility in his heart. Hanna discovers the meaning of life while living in her father's home village.

Hana's family comes from a remote village. Away from the city where Hana currently lives. It takes about 3 hours to get to the city. Hanna was the first time she came to this village. Since both of his parents died. Fahmi and Nur never bring Hanna to the village. Hanna came to the village for a different reason. He never expected, if the father came from a village far enough from the city.

But Hanna's tiredness paid off. He saw how beautiful the village was. Very natural and cool, rice fields and mountains that stretch around the village. The hospitality of the villagers, keeps its own warmth in Hanna's heart. Initially Hanna is not at home, Hanna wants to go home to the city immediately. But over time Hanna felt comfortable and calm. Let alone two months, Hanna wanted to be in the village forever. Hanna seemed reluctant to leave this village. He fell in love with the beauty and natural scenery of the village. But the longing for the figure of Rafan, makes Hanna fragile and weak. Hanna can't get far from Rafan's shadow. Missing is wrong, but this is love that never goes wrong.

Long Hanna pensively stared at the warm morning sun. The dawn has passed, the cold mist has gone, the morning dew evaporates away. Now there is a warm sun. Greet every living creature who craves its warmth, in the morning greet. Just like Hanna who hopes the sun warms her cold heart. A heart that began to feel lonely, resisting the longing that disturbed the peace of his soul. Hanna looked up at the sky, waiting for the light and warm sun to hit her face. The beauty and beauty that Hanna never found in the city.

"Alhamdulillah, I can still stare at your light. Your warm light greets my heart. The calmness that you present in my restless heart. Awakening myself, I must endure and must not be defeated by this longing. I must be strong, resist this longing. All for the sake of eternal beautiful union. I believe the presence of the sun carries a beautiful meaning. As I believe, there will be happiness stored behind this painful longing. My race for him is great, but my faith in YOU is much greater. For the sake of the beautiful taste of your creation, I will hold back the longing for him. Submitting all my feelings to him in my prostration and prayer. Only to You the servant surrenders and asks for help. I believe that separation happens for a beautiful meeting. Now there is only one prayer in the prostration of the servant. So far these eyes can't look at him. To that extent, I begged for your protection for her. Give him health and keep him out of danger. He is everything in the life of the servant and only to You the servant gives up his health and his pain. Amiin!" hanna's mind is hopeful.

"When are you sitting here? Soon at 07.00 WIB, we must prepare for the farewell event. We have to say goodbye to the villagers!" aira said, Hanna turned her head with a look of disbelief. She did not expect Aira to be standing behind her.

"When has my brother been standing here?"

"Since you daydream and forget about your surroundings. You miss him so much!" aira said, Hanna nodded slowly. There was sadness on Hanna's face. A longing that Hanna could not endure. The longing that now torments his mind.

"Why not contact him? Don't you have her cell phone number!"

"He must be busy, I don't want to bother him!" sahut Hanna shook her head slowly.

"It's Hanna, Rafan must have a good reason. We'd better get ready soon, we'll be back in the city in the afternoon!" aira said trying to calm Hanna down. With a gontai move, Hanna approached Aira.

"Hanna!" sapa Aira was soft, just after Hanna had embraced Aira's hand. Hanna was struggling spoiled on Aira's arm. To give up the longing that was in his heart. To a friend who is more like a brother.

"The miss is hard, but the longing must be. Because the beginning of a taste. If your misses have trust. Then you will believe, if Rafan keeps his promise. You will not doubt Rafan's loyalty. Always be sure of the taste that is between you. But when your longing is just a baseless emotion. You will fall into a longing filled with fear. Jealousy will rule your heart. A longing that will make your relationship even further. I just wanted to remind you. Never contemplate the love for Rafan that finally makes you forget the love for HIM. Instead love Rafan with faith in HIM, so that your heart is calm and believe everything that happens is the best. Now remove your tears, say bismillah in your heart. Trust me, your night will find the end!"

"What's wrong?"

"Why does Rafan have to be perfect? If he's not handsome and smart. Maybe I won't be scared and jealousy unclear. Had Rafan been mediocre, my miss would have been filled with trust. Unfortunately, brother Rafan my future priest is too handsome. His charm can destroy the faith of the women!" hanna said softly, while struggling spoiled on Aira's arm.

"You're right, Rafan is too handsome. His charm easily makes the women melt. But Rafan is not an ordinary man, he will be steadfast to save his taste. Only for the priest of the afterlife!"

"Sir Aira, no interest in Rafan's brother!"

"I'm interested, very interested. But Rafan's charm never knocked my heart. There is a name that fills my heart. A name that will never be a part of my life!"

"I mean brother Aira!"

"I keep love for one name, but keep my honor for the priest of my hereafter. Later my love had to lose, when my future priest would have me preached to my parents. The love I have saved and bestowed on Him. A love I will never fight for. For I love him for His sake and only for HIM I give up the end of this love!"

"Sir, you love her so much!" hanna said softly, Aira nodded without hesitation.

"Sister doesn't miss him, hasn't brother ever felt ill. Kala remembers brother's love is not united!"

"I miss him in prayer and prostration. I loved him for a third of the night. I was never sick or disappointed when I realized my love would never be with her. Because HE knows best for both of us. As long as he is in HIS care, for that long I will continue to love him in prostration. The prayer I offered for her, a testament to the sincerity of my heart. Nothing else I expected, being healthy and happy was enough to make me happy!"

"Great brother, loving without expectation!" sahut Hanna said softly, Aira nodded slowly. Aira smiled behind the veil.

"For love is a heart full of sincerity and must not be reciprocated!" aira said firmly.

"Alhamdulillah, brother of Aira brother of Rafan. If not…!"

"If not…?" aira said she didn't understand.

"Otherwise, Brother Rafan would have preferred good and sincerity brother Aira. Sister Aira is the gentle female figure that all men crave!" sahut Hanna, Aira shook her head weakly.

"You're wrong Hanna, Rafan doesn't need a gentle and sincere woman like me. He needed a supplementary body in his life. A person who fills his heart with love. A person who will shine the darkness of his heart with joy. A being who will bring warm in his cold attitude with innocence. That is you, the woman who loved Rafan without fear of confessing her heart. Because your innocence makes the distance between you disappear. Trust me, nothing is perfect. But the voice of the heart is never wrong. Your heart has chosen Rafan and its heart has convinced you. The steep path will make a wound in every step. Never let your hands go out. Strengthen the grip with trust and loyalty. There will be times when there will be only happy people saying hello!" aira said, Hanna hugged Aira very tightly.

"I love you, brother!" hanna yelled happily.