Circle of the Past

I'm not Pelakor II

Day two. My fake relationship with Dudut is still tenuous, even if we do not send each other messages or just call each other.

I'm getting upset, why am I the one who feels guilty and blamed. Not if Dudut first started. . . He's been rude to me no, my anger is starting to flare up again.

The morning before I left for school, I grabbed a cell phone to put in my bag. I saw on the phone screen one message received, I opened with the hope of this message from the person who was expected.

Morning Beb, the spirit of the school (emo kiss).

Kyaaaaaaa. . My heart screams happy not playing. Finally. . . Dudut gave a good morning to me. . hmm. . . At the very least, he still thinks of me in this fake relationship right??? Thought me in the heart.

My hurry to go to school with joy and excitement even I want to shout so that the whole world knows this morning I am very happy. Ah but, who would consider the seriousness of this fake relationship. . We only know and dating status on facebook only.

Arriving at school, I've seen Mr. Udin standing in the yard. From so happy I greeted udin sir this morning,

" Morning sir udin . . his teaching spirit yes " . Pak udin was stunned astonished to see me who had just greeted him with a smile for the first time.

Then I walked back past him who was still standing in wonder looking at me. Hahaha bodo very ah, he will think what after this.

" Hey. . . wrong take the medicine??? Early in the morning was this happy??? hahahhaa ciye. . for her happy dong "Sapa maulida while wrapping her hand around my shoulder.

" Lu tau Da, this morning Dudut congratulated Guwe. . . After a few days we had broken off communication " . I saw Maulida holding back a laugh until she finally broke down.

I glared at him, with a slight pinch of his arm.

" Ih you're yelling at guwe huh??? Iiih evil banged anyway can not banged see your friend is happy. . . " . I turned my face away with a frown.

" Hahaha yes yes yes sorry. . How can guwe not want to laugh, in. . . so you are happy while you want her only boyfriend status in cyberspace right??? ".

I was stunned without a word hearing the words from my best friend Maulida. I'm aware of that, but. . . but. . . Aaaaarght.

" Chel. . sorry kal**o guwe so offend your feelings. It's just that guwe don't want you to get hurt again later. Try you think now, Dudut want not nyamperin you here? yes, the city is far from where we live. . .".

I took a long breath. I thought, it was all true. . . Me and Dudut are just a fake relationship in cyberspace.it will never be real. . .

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All the way home from school I always thought about what Maulida said. That Dudut wouldn't be that brave coming all the way just to see me. Some of our distance is not just passing a few hours, but several oceans or flying by plane many times.

Hah. . This is ridiculous.

Arriving at home I immediately entered the room, twrasa very tired want to immediately lay this body on the mattress.

Gubrakkk !!!

I just threw my body on the bed. Hah. . Although what was said about Dudut by the maulida in school was right, but I still could not help myself not to renew it.

Hey beb, what else? is it mamam???

I sent him a short message.

Long time I wait not yet read, ah. . probably busy thinking I.

10 Minutes passed without a reply, I sent a short message again.

Ebeeeb. . .kangen tauuuk. . .

Hah how I want to laugh at myself rereading every short message I had to her.

Isn't this ridiculous??? or am I crazy??? thought me.

Today I am really tired of all my activities and my brain to think about school lessons.

I am still with a prone position on the mattress wearing a school uniform back and forth I open the message on the phone but there has been no reply from dudut.

Is that busy??? usually I also never care if he will reply when my message is, it's just. . why I started to be lured with the message of the messenger from the girl named Julia. . . not-don't right??? I'm a bully of their relationship, I was the third person in their relationship in the real world all this time???

Aaaargd. . . No. I'm not an actor, I don't even have any intention of interrupting anyone's romance.

Fuck !!!

I cursed in my heart.

From when and how long I had been asleep until the afternoon, and the sound of the phone ringing startled me from my sleep.

I saw on the phone already 10x missed calls, but this time not from Dudut. Except. . . Mr. udin.

Astaagaaaa. . Why else would anyone???? I murmured with anger in my heart.

A few minutes later, my messenger sound rang.

Degh !!! I started shaking after Julia's name came up. God. . What else this time will he say ???

** Hey you're an avid girl, don't be pretentious. Still not enough huh I asked nicely huh??? DON'T DISTURB THE DUDUT ANYMORE !!!.

Actor, you don't know if all night until this afternoon he just came home from my hostel. When he needs love and support to get rid of his fatigue, he's going to the boarding house looking for me, and you don't know how great we play in bed. . .? I know you sent him a message from here, but I kept making him not to turn away from me even if just to open your message.

So do not expect more from Dudut, not most Halu become a girl. And besides, where can you satisfy her in bed???? Lont* is* !!! **

Aaaaaaaaaaarght Box !!!

I slammed the cell phone in my hand against the wall of my room. I want. . I want to curse him if I can, shaking this body, feeling pain all over. Whyyy??? why do I feel this pain God??? Do I love dudut??? hah. . crazyaaa lunaka this is impossible and will never happen. . but this anger, for what???

Hikst. . . please, god. .. Don't make me feel this pain. . . I'm totally humiliated for no reason, I'm sitting in the corner of the mattress bending a pillow in my arms. These tears continue to flow non-stop. . .

When I woke up, I grabbed my phone back. I put it back neatly, I tried to reactivate it.

Hah. . Thanks for still being able to turn on. I thought, because if not. . notah for what reason I asked to buy a new phone again to dad.

I just activated and normalized my phone, sir udin called me again. My whole body is still dazed and a little shaking, want to turn off the phone call eh even I push the icon receive the call.

Aaarrrght. . today I was really unlucky.

Ha. . . hello. . . sir. . . What is it???

Answer me with cettus.

Chel. . . You deliberately ignored my call daritadi. . .

Sorry earlier chella overslept tired so do not miss the ringtone call because use vibrating mode.

I explained it still in cettus tone.

Chel, me and ningsih. . maybe. . will cancel this engagement.

What??? what else is this??? did I hear wrong???

Can you repeat your father's words??? his voice is a little disjointed sir. . .

I still can't believe what I'm hearing.

Mr and ningsih will disband, ah no. exactly again Ningsih asked father to cancel our engagement this week.

Oh my god. . Why is it all so coincidental again anyway, this is quite surprising but also. . . me. . . why is it so ordinary??? as if happy and know if their defense will not be long.

No no. . I can't be like this. Bathin I kept muttering to myself,

Hello.. . chella. . . Are you sleeping again???

Ask Mr. Udin made me realize again.

Ah i. . i yes sir I still hear. Wah. . pak apain tuh son of people until asked to disperse everything, hihi. . .

Answer me with a little giggling. Because I think this is an opportunity for me to get back into his shoes. It's entertaining, haha. . .

Because you Chel. . . I said I like you. So he asked dad to come back to you !!!

So what???? Haha crazy isn't it??? I want to scream

**** you !!!

But then. . udin sir laughed out loud from his voice on the phone.

Hahaha why??? why silence Chell??? Shocked??? Hahahaha not really. . I'm just kidding. He's just. . yaaah probably finding someone more than this udin sir of yours.

Mr. udin's voice has weakened further. . . I know right now maybe he's really devastated.

I was still stunned to imagine how his face was right now. . . must be sad to banged.

Sir, I do not know what your problems are but my advice. should the father struggle, defense ningsih dooong not even mushy confide in the gini kek. . what do you try??? weak banged.

I tried to comfort and encourage Pak udin, even though deep down I had the pleasure of hearing this news. How hypocritical am I, right???