Circle of the Past

Facts speak

Until I got home. .. . I. . can no longer afford the legs to keep walking to the room.

Shave !!!

I slammed the door shut tight.

I wanted to cry out screamed as hard as I could, but why did it feel tight and crying in my heart. This is more painful, but, Remembering what I saw in the park earlier I clearly witnessed by my eyes and head. . . Angga. . . and mbak Ningsih. . . Tuhaaaan. . I regret to be second to none, I regret really wanting to be angry with myself once loving her, ever forcing myself to maintain my relationship with her. . . Even I had opposed mother, because it has strictly prohibited my relationship with Angga on the grounds that Angga is not from a good family. mother was afraid Angga to damage me with his wrong association, he said, although I know he is a broken home child but he always treats me gently even though in the end he is rude and perverted, I can still accept this reason to break up from him. but earlier. . he made out with mbak ningsih who already had 2 children and. . aaaargh. . . . already married. . . Very disgusting, too low you Angga. I'm disgusted to hear your name alone.

Tok tok. . .

"Chella. . . Can you come in. . .???" Mother knocked on the door from the outside. I know, mother had seen my expression after school earlier. . This will definitely be discussed by her.

I opened the door still with the school uniform sticking out of my body.

"Loh. . why haven't you changed your clothes. . . What's the matter, baby??? today you look so lethargic" asked Mom as she offered me my favorite piece of pineapple.

"Gapapa ma'am. . . Chella just. . . just a little. . shock" answered me who then sat on the edge of the mattress. Mom approached me, stroked my shoulders gently, I lowered my head to hold this tightness.

"What's the matter, dear, mother's story??? maybe mom can help you, mmh. . . I saw earlier, Ali drove you home, why not come by??? Are you guys fighting again???" Ask your mother at length.

"Mom, sorry chella. . . chella . really sorry, sorry chella" I hugged my mother and finally.

"Hey hey. . . What's wrong with my daughter??? Why is this suddenly???" Ask the confused mother.

"Bu. . . angga. . . ueh dia. . hikst. . hikst. . engga and mbak ningsih. .. .. earlier. .. huwwaaaaaaa" I stammered more and more crying incessantly.

"Ok slowly slowly. . Slowly slowly the story yes. . cup cup cup stop dooong nangis, ugly ah" Mother tried to calm me.

"Bu. .. Angga and Mbak ningsih earlier. . . Chella accidentally saw them. . hikst. . . They were making out in the garden Mom" I still sobbed crying.

I saw that my mother was smiling in response to my story,

"Then??? why???"

"Well, mom, what's a relaxed smile, no surprise cake or what???" ask me pissed.

"Lah. . Why should you be surprised??? what you saw earlier was not a surprise anymore dear, hahaha brother cousin Johan earlier, called. and told me that seeing them join hands like a courtship" explained the mother.

"What??? really ma'am???" ask me in surprise.

Jeez. . . You're a crazy pervert and silly Angga. My bathin is back to being torn apart. . .

Mom laughed at me, watching me breathe out a nose holding back emotion.

"Bu. . I'm sorry, with all the attitude of chella had denied mother to stay with Angga, I didn't think she. . She was so depraved Ms. and mbak Ningsih. . . why is he doing so" I'm still carried away by emotions.

"Have. .. already... . everything has passed, right??? the important thing is that now Chella has broken up with pride, mother is grateful very dear, no longer easy to believe and fooled with the tenderness of a man. Because not all of it is sincerely dear" Obviously mother gently . I feel guilty and hate myself.

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This afternoon, somehow I feel careless just silent in the room.I feel increasingly claustrophobic always imagined face of pride and mbak ningsih, from the beginning how we know, from the beginning, and then I accepted Angga to be my guy, huh. . This is all like a nightmare.

Ddrrrrr.ttt. .. . My phone vibrated, one message received. Ali.. .

Bi. . You what else??? okay???

I smiled reading it. He was so attentive to me. . .

Yes, gapapa kok. guwe has improved, mmh. . Temenin guwe yuk, the road to the park as usual"

Well, with pleasure??? yuk gass. . . ready to pick up my princess. . mmuach.

the reply was so happy.

No need to pick it up. We meet at the park in an ordinary place.

Reply me again.

Ok then

Reply briefly. haha. . . seem banged impatient this child yes, I thought.

Arriving at the park, I met ali then sat around the park for a while enjoying the afternoon air, a little rame the children were running around and some couples were enjoying ball games, balloons, and water bubbles. There were several married couples and their children sitting in a circle on a carpet, joking, wah. . This view I just realized, soothing.

Ali clasped my hands, then took me to sit in our usual chair, always a favorite because it was a bit quiet blocked by a few mounds of trees and flowers. haha, haha, can you think and imagine for yourself why this place has always been my favorite place and Ali when alone.

"Bi. .. What did you do??? dong na guwe story" asked ali while stroking my cheeks.

"Aaaah elu. ntar guwe if the story must be in ketawain, or it could be you menggeledek guwe all-out" answered me with cettus.

"Promise dehjanii. . kalo sampe ngeledek may deh guwe in the law or mad ma guwe" he replied again.

"So guwe. . guwe see former guwe, making out with his cousin who already knows guwe well, they are more friendly than just lovers". Obviously me.

"Lah. . . continue??? you why was your semaput kayak??? hahaha guwe thought what the fuck. you angry??? aren't they the same as us now???" Ali's reply surprised me.

"Li. . . This is differentaaaa, this cousin of mine, is married and has two children. . . Around my house today there is news that they are both often friendly to know" Answer me with kessal.

"Well, yes, yes, yes, the ex, right. . . why??? we also so often fondly. when we are cousins, do not say you are still jealous??? Ask ali with a sharp look.

"Did you know what the hell you Li, who is jealous.just guwe disgusted, nyessel ever accept him as a guy guwe. until reckless to fight mother at that time" I looked down manyun. . .

"Oh. . So he's the one who caused you not to refuse guwe is that bi??? wah. . so want to be angry nih guwe, compete ma guy who is not good but managed to get you from guwe" replied with a smile-smiling berserk me.

"Iiiiiih Aliiii. . whatever the hell even ngeledek so, tauk ah guwe males kalo gini, guwe want to go home, free guwe ngajakin you meet more so, and. . . be careful, since when do we often make out friendly huh??? don't bother. . ." I flailed Ali and once in a while I pinched, I continued to grind non-stop.

Ali caught both of my hands, and looked at me gently.

"Friendly spice since when??? from now on. . ." Then Ali kissed my lips gently.

Pulling my neck, holding my cheeks together, and smashing my lips together.

I put my hands around Ali's neck, we kissed each other again, we kissed each other, we kissed each other with our lips. Ali's hands began to fall down palpating mounds on my chest, occasionally he kissed my neck, my ears, then to the lips and down again to the neck.

Aaah. . uummmh. . . ssssshhhh. . I sighed at him. This sensation was delicious, very delicious.that's where Ali learned this theory, he said,

I floated up to him.

Once in a while, Ali was teasing me with a naughty smile, giving a small bite on the lips made me tickle sigh.he was satisfied with it, he said,

Ah. . god. . again and again. . . . This opportunity, made me lose consciousness. the pleasure of every touch and tenderness of Ali, made me a passion. as if to forget, we. . . we're just cousins no matter what sin God's gonna do,

In addition. . fatigue and mediation about Angga make me blindly want to vent all my anger. and. . . ali. . . give me this pleasure. . .

Aaaaakh. . How crazy I am.