Circle of the Past

I'm not an Actor

It has been 3 months that my relationship has run smoothly with Dudut in cyberspace, getting more friendly with various seductions, sweet words, support and sometimes. . . Dudut began to ask me to send photos when sleeping, what clothes, what color, all of my daily activities, and vice versa.

Without me asking Dudut always send me photos of his daily activities there.

This is ridiculous, why I take this relationship so seriously. Hahaha I have indeed made his craze, comfort when conversing with adult conversations, I feel as if he is sitting next to me. Leaning on his shoulder while hugging him, I admit he is really good at making my mood as if we were alone in the real world.

Tonight. .. Why did he suddenly change. Being angry is unclear, cursing, saying rude, and more that makes me feel scared. What's with her tonight??? did I make a mistake??? This is the first time he's been so.

Dudut asked me to go to bed first, arguing that he was tired all day working. I took it for granted, but. . . My mind was suddenly agitated and I secretly updated the status on Facebook. Sure enough, he's online.

Hoh. . . You started lying to me, didn't you??? I'm not stupid. . You are still the one you were before even though you repeatedly said you've changed, there's only me in your heart, mind, and purpose. Actually???

I was annoyed by what I saw tonight, I updated the status of feeling, immediately many pressed like and commented on it. I ignored, because of this status I was blind only to provoke the heart of the corner.

A few minutes later, my phone rang. Dudut. . . Heh, it's true that he's just a reason to say tired of me. if you're bored, you've ended it don't impress me. I've done wrong to him.

**Yes hello, why???**

Answer me cetus

**why??? What am I wrong with you, baby???**

This time his voice sounded slightly weakened.

I can't bear it, maybe he's really tired. . .

**I should have asked you this Beb**

I'm still upset. answered as was. . .

**Yaudah yaudah. . I'm sorry. My head is heavy tonight, sleep well my baby. Mmuach. . I love you**

Click !!! Call ended.

That so??? without waiting for me to explain something??? hah. . . crazy.it's so crazy. .. hey. . . You. . . You're just a shadowy girlfriend, why are you so arrogant with my distant heart here. Want it to feel like I just cursed him, try to imagine. . someone we already consider a boyfriend then he suddenly changed, angry unclear, vague nagging, suddenly rude, suddenly rude, and jutek how are you feeling???

It must be upset, no. Huhft. . .

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The next day, at school I was still carried away by my mood which was still upset considering Dudut's attitude last night.

Walking to the cafeteria with my maulida was like a statue pushed by a remote. My mind was empty, until I unconsciously hit something in front.

Brukkk !!! Aw. . . My nose. . banged pain.

I saw something in front of me, Ow my God !!!

I hit Udin's body hard again in the courtyard of the school cafeteria.

How can this be a coincidence again, when my heart is full of this anger.

I see Mr. Udin looking at me in wonder.

" Are you okay Chel??? "

" Hey Chella. . Wait a minute !!! "

Mr. Udin tried to stop my steps.

I stopped, looked at it slowly. . .

" Did you change your number??? why was it so hard to call you last night??? "

For a moment I looked into her always sharp eyes. He raised one of his eyebrows,

" Why did you call my number again??? " Answer me with cetus.

" Chella. . . How long will you keep doing this??? can't I just ask you how you are??? " This time, Pak Udin's face began to turn red. Upset with my attitude like this???

" No need. you just need to give and wait for news for your fiancee ".

" Chella. . . sir and Ningsih. . . "

Mr. Udin stopped his words. I was amazed, and opened my mouth a little. Her face beckoned for me to give her my new number which I deliberately changed to avoid Ali.

" I'll send a message to my father later "

He smiled happily at my answer.

The night came, though Dudut continued to apologize to me, returned to being tenderly affectionate, and my attention remained flat.This was my big ego, my, the fragile ones easily hold back old anger when someone I love is being rude to me.

*Yaudah de ebeb. . . I give in. We think and be alone first. If you are still angry and think I changed, I always love you beb* .

Dudut sent me a short message. And this is quite surprising, it feels. . . someone scratches my heart, it hurts.

A few minutes later. . . My facebook messenger notes read.

Ah who else??? thought me.

A woman texted me, julia crishtine.

I saw her profile picture is very beautiful sweet and sexy. . . Hah. . I don't know him, but. . . What??? what the fuck is this??? My eyes glared after reading the message he sent.

** Hi mom, I'm julia. I don't have to introduce myself to details. I just want to ask you to please dong, our fellow women must understand each other. I beg you not to disturb my relationship with Dudut here. Don't expect any more Dudut to choose you than I'm obviously always there for him. You're just the third person who's been kind of annoying me in this relationship. That dudut will only love me and will remain mine forever. whereas you??? haha you're just her shadow boyfriend.You're a fake, you're just her escape when she's bored at her job. When I can't satisfy her, she'll run at you. eitz. . running through the sound alone right? but not with his body. So please stop being pretentious on facebook just because it has been related to your silly dating status **

I trembled reading it over and over again in my heart. . . My mouth was stiff, as if. . . as if this was real I felt. whereas. . . haaaah come on this is just entertainment on facebook, right???

Why does this chick feel like I've really captured Dudut's heart???

How did he know my Facebook account name, and we weren't friends before???

Oh tuhaaaaaaaan. . I feel like I want to reply with a rude swearing. But this time I just wanted to laugh, but was upset. . me and dudut never even met each other. hahahaa what does this relationship mean try??? which is just Facebook??? Crazy this girl.

Aaaaaaaaaaaarght. . but. . honestly, I hate him showing off about his relationship with dudang in the real world. All this time we dated only a momentary entertainment in cyberspace, I don't even care in the real world what he was like and with whom, and vice versa he on me.

Unknowingly. . My tears are dripping. Tight in the chest, I want to feel like I'm screaming. . If only I can touch the corners for real, I want to mutilate. Ho ho ho. . . what is this??? why am I this angry??? Jealous??? oh NAW. I. . I just. . .