A Pile of Misses in Words.

Asa Mas Yoki's.

Palembang, February 5, 2011.

At 05:54 Mas Yoki sent me a message. 

"Morning always offers us opportunity, hope and love. Good morning Deck Wulan. Hope your activity is good today."

"Good morning to Mas Yoki. Aamiin ya rabbal'alamiin.Similar to Mas Yoki."

After that, there was no more chat between myself and Mas Yoki. 

At 17:26 Mas Yoki sent me another message. 

"Good afternoon Wulan Deck.How is the condition of the sister now?.Is your sister okay now?."

"Alhamdulillah has improved considerably Mas Yoki."

"Dek Wulan is home from work now?.And now what's Dek Wulan doing?."

"Sister is resting Mas Yoki."

My conversation with Mas Yoki is not going on anymore. It was only at 21:14 that Mas Yoki sent another message to myself. 

"Dek Wulan.Adik what are you doing now?."

"She just finished taking a bath."

"Lho, his sister's just taking a shower now."

"Yes mas, it was after the prayer maghrib brother overslept.Because his sister was very tired."

"Yes already, then sister just rest after this and sleep again huh. So that the condition of the sister immediately really healthy and recovered."

"Yes Mas Yoki. Good night, my."

"Good night Wulan Deck. Mas dear sister.Muah.Beautiful dream yes Dek Wulan."

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Palembang, 6 February 2011.

At 06:46 Mas Yoki sent a message. 

"At this time the mas is lazy in bed.Jun thinking about Deck Wulan. Oh yeah, what are you doing right now?."

"Sister is getting ready to take a shower. But this sister is sweeping the house first. While waiting for the water to heat."

"Hmm, sister hasn't had a bath yet. If the sweep is clean, yes Dek Wulan.Nanti if not clean, said the people will be her husband's beard you know Dek Wulan. Hehe."

"Mitos is Mas. Hehe. Means if his sister greeted him not clean, her husband bearded.Means her husband is not Mas Yoki dong.Kan Mas Yoki is not a beard.So how is that?."

"Huahahha.Iya deh, later mas will see first.If younger brother sweeps it less clean. I'll lengthen his beard."

"Hmm, it could be the mas."

"Yes Mas Yoki.Mas Be careful on the road ya Mas."

After that, there was no more conversation between myself and Mas Yoki.Until 10:16 Mas Yoki sent me another message. 

"Dek Wulan what are you doing now?.If at this time, he is now in the tomb of the former President of Indonesia, the late Mr. Soeharto in Astana giri woke up. Ahem, it's cold on Wulan's Deck."

"Well, the view must be good, mas.Oh yes, Mas Yoki what are you doing there?."

"Not only the scenery is beautiful Wulan Deck.But the weather is also very cool.Here mas is installing advertising.Oh yes, Dec Wulan eat a lot of it. Keep resting, so that the body is fresh again.OK, Deck Wulan."

"Yes God willing Mas Yoki, be careful working yes."

My conversation stopped with Mas Yoki. 

And at 23:49 Mas Yoki sent me an SMS message. 

"When to when. I will be able to withstand all the yearning, which is increasingly soaring this.Until when?. 

Oh my God, until when?."

Mas Yoki then sent me another message. 

"It was as if I was silent from the hustle and bustle of my routine.Where in my silence, crossed the figure that I was very longing in my mind. And now, the more we step, the more certain I am, if you are the person I've been looking for."

I have not finished reading the message from Mas Yoki.However, he has sent another message to me. 

"It never ends, I keep imagining myself. Though perverted thoughts came sneaking up and as if saying, to break my resolve. Is it possible for the two of us to meet?.However, all of that I did not ignore at all. Because I'm really sure of you."

The next consecutive message from Mas Yoki, which I haven't had time to reply. 

Wanting to immediately end this relationship, with a sacred bond.That contains a sacred promise between the two of us.To seiya, south, and in harmony in the steps that in secret by God Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala."

"Aamiin ya rabbal'alamiin," I replied. 

Then, Mas Yoki contacted me.Where are many things we talked about, regarding our thoughts and relationships. And without feeling my conversation with Mas Yoki over the phone, happened long enough until, at 00:01.As it was getting late, we ended our conversation, and then Mas Yoki sent another message to me. 

"Simple, young age, mature faith, beautiful and have a noble purpose in life.You are the perfect woman in the eyes of the mas, Dek Wulan.

Yes already, now we sleep yuk Dek Wulan.Besok we will work, while maintaining our health condition."

"Yes Mas Yoki."

My conversation and Mas Yoki that night was over.With the feeling of longing that increasingly lingered in our hearts.My eyes felt difficult to be closed.Where the shadows will be longing, the,continue to ambush in the heart.I also woke up briefly from my sleep, to take a photo of Mas Yoki.Then, I,I was lying on my bed again, looking at her portrait in the 4x6 photo I was holding, with my right hand. 

Huft, I exhaled a short breath.At least to treat my longing for Mas Yoki.

"O Allah, if you are destined. Mas Yoki to be my soul mate, then bring us closer in the best way according to Mu.And if Mas Yoki, not my soul mate. So keep her away from me. Before the feelings that grow in my heart become deeper and deeper into her, I hang all the origins, desires, and desires,my desire and longing for You, O Lord, for I know that You alone are the best place to depend on all desires and disconnection, which bind me, "in my heart. 

I continued to wet my mouth with dhikr.So that my heart would be calm, and the devil would not rule my mind or my heart. 

I do love Mas Yoki.But, I want to keep this feeling of love. Until indeed Mas Yoki really deserves it, when he was in destiny to be my husband.