A Pile of Misses in Words.

Thinks.

Palembang, January 20, 2011.

The next morning after performing the dawn prayer at about 04:58:12.

I also replied to a message from Mas Yoki.

"Assalamu'alaikum Warohmatullahi Jabarokatuh Mas Yoki. Sorry, but I overslept last night. So, did not have time to reply to a message from Mas. "

And Mas Yoki immediately replied to me.

"Wa'alaikumussalam Warohmatulohi Westarokatuh. Okey. It's okay Deck Wulan. After all, Mas also overslept as well.

Yes, happy activities, Dek Wulan."

"Yes Mas Yoki, the same. "

Me and Mas Yoki also carry out our respective activities.

It was only at 17:41:20 that Mas Yoki sent me a message.

While waiting for time to break the fast.

"And when the sun changes at dusk.

Everyone will prepare to prepare. In order to make himself worthy, to meet the moon.

Good afternoon Dek Wulan.

Open the fast yuk. "

"Good afternoon also Mas Yoki.

It's not time to break the fast yet. Adzan maghrib. "

"Hehehe. Yes Dek Wulan. It means preparation for breaking the fast. Oh yeah, what was Dek Wulan cooking?. "

"Mother is cooking Mas.

Mas Yoki breaks the fast with what menu. "

"Mas has bought catfish with vegetables and sauce. Is Dek Wulan not home from work yet?. "

"That's good, mas. Adek has gone home from work. It's sitting down again. "

"Definitely dong delicious. Cockfighting does not help mothers who are cooking. Oh yes, later adek teach private tutoring yes deck. "

"Adek is tired. Adek energy exhausted. Today adek does not teach private Mas Yoki. "

"Wow Wulan Deck power made anything. So that his energy can run out. Why not teach private lessons today. "

" So he taught him many classes, because the friend who taught did not come in. And the boss is sick too. So no one helped. Where you have to work alone.

Keep adek also have to teach new employees. "

"Oh so yeah Dek. Hehe. The patient Dek Wulan. Let's just say it's a challenge. Oh yes, we pray maghrib first yuk dek, all breaking the fast. "

"Yes Mas Yoki. Happy breaking of fast, Mas. "

"Yes Dek Wulan, the same. "

Mas Yoki and I ended our short chat via SMS. And after breaking my fast, I also finished my work.

At 20:43:12 I also sent a message to Mas Yoki.

"Despite this love I've felt so deep. Like the depths of the ocean. However, everything seems incomplete and meaningful. Without your presence on my side.

Where is my beautiful love. I have offered it to you, my heart. As an offering from the bottom of my soul, from the ocean floor of my love.

Really, I want to spend all my life with you.

And I keep imagining the two of us together.

That is when we walk along the beaches of happiness, dense forests full of shade and comfort, willed the height of a mountain full of hope, and, or even walk through the beautiful flower gardens that are blooming.In the glow of the nuances of love that we both have.

As I imagined.

Where I hold your hand with warmth and tenderness, also full of affection.

Yoki you know too,

How I wish to give a form of happiness that I feel to your heart. Where I would love to see that happy smile blossom from your beautiful lips. And look you in the face, playing my fingers to wipe your face.

Where I will pluck all the anxiety and anxiety, from in your life.

And throw it away from your life. So that I was very hopeful.

"MasyaAllah. So sweet adek.

I love you Dek Wulan. Muachs.

Waw. How happy I am. If that time comes. Where we both fill each other's lives. With a sense of sincerity, compassion and expectation of the Ridho of Allah Subhanahu WA Ta'ala. I know and understand very well. Where love is a hard struggle. But really all that, will not dampen my intentions. To be with yourself.

And for that mas very hopeful, if adek will always keep this feeling. Please Dek Wulan. "

"God willing Mas Yoki. "

"Maybe your presence here. It makes the beginning of our journey. Never doubt my feelings for you. Because here my heart always waits for you, my dear.

Well, at the end of the day we are both stubborn. What if it's better, we slow down first while thinking. To find a middle way. So that we are both not harmed. How about Wulan Deck?. "

"What does Mas Yoki mean?. "

"Actually Deck Wulan wants it how?. "

"meaning?. "

"Emmm. About Deck Wulan is sincere to give up all the adek routines in Palembang for Mas?. "

"InshaAllah is ready Mas Yoki. "

"Alhamdulillah Dek Wulan.

Mas said so. Not because Mas stubborn or too forceful desire Mas. However, Mas said it indirectly for the sake of the continuity of our relationship. But I hope Dek Wulan thinks and considers it first maturely and seriously. Before Deck Wulan decides. Because I don't want Dek Wulan to regret it later.

Then what is it that you think about, about the thing we just talked about?."

"Yes, I know and understand.

One way for us to be together. One of us has to make a sacrifice. "

"In what way is Deck Wulan?.

Has Dek Wulan thought about it carefully and discussed this issue with adek's mother?. "

"His choice is only Mas Yoki who moved to Palembang or adek who moved to Solo. Adek has not discussed everything with the mother, because the seriousness of the mas has not been fully able to right. "

"Yes deck, all right. Tell me what to do. To show the seriousness of the mas to Dek Wulan.

If you have such intentions.

Well, one way is that we leave it to Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala. About who among us is best to sacrifice for our relationship, and bring great benefits to both sides. Not only ourselves, but each of our families. And most importantly we have good intentions and also mean to fix everything. "

However, after that I did not immediately reply to the message from Mas Yoki.

Where our discussion tonight, indirectly began to harass me. And a lot of considerations I started thinking about. If only I had to give up on moving to Solo from Palembang.

The biggest problem is my mother.

He wants to go back to his hometown. After nearly sixteen years of living in Palembang. And it's been very comfortable living in this city, which was originally foreign to me and my mother. But the city has an incredible memory story. In the course of my life and my mother. Not only happiness but also sadness, tears, distress living up to now can have a better life than before.

It was a wonderful life process for both of us. Where no relatives accompanied.

However, my mother and I were still able to struggle even though it felt like being dumped by my own family. Never been looking for his whereabouts. However, all the neighbors around where I live. They have feelings and emotional ties that are much closer than their own family.

And this is what my biggest job is to persuade my mother.

Is he ready to go back to Solo or still choose to settle in Palembang?.

Only my mother can decide, as I continue to pray to Allaha Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala.

Mas Yoki sent me another message.

"So sure is sleepy already.

Kok adek a long time reply to messages from Mas. "

However, I also did not reply to the message from Mas Yoki. Until he sends me another message.

"Yes, if indeed Dek Wulan is sleepy. Adek just sleep.

Have a good night, Dek Wulan.

It's a pity with Dek Wulan. "

I just read the message from him and didn't reply to him. Not because I didn't want to, but my mind became riled up and agitated. After the conversation we both had.

Without thinking any longer, I immediately put my mobile phone into the desk drawer.

And closed both my eyes.