A Pile of Misses in Words.

Re-recovered.

Palembang, January 18, 2011.

As time passes.

My feelings and heart continue to grow.

Expanding buds and flower buds that will begin to bloom also burst.

Without realizing it, I loved him even more. Where her faith grew stronger.

A feeling I've never felt before.

Mas Yoki sent me his first message today, when the time was 18:23:04.

"Good afternoon Wulan Deck. Has Dek Wulan eaten?. "

Not long after, Mas Yoki sent me another message.

"Good afternoon Wulan Deck. Has Dek Wulan eaten and taken his medicine?.

How is it going now?. Is Dek Wulan still sick?."

I immediately replied to a message from Mas Yoki.

"Alhamdulillah adek has eaten a mas, but has not taken his medicine. Now the situation is getting better.

" Why haven't been taking his medication. Still adek already shower and salat yet?.

Oh yes, later about adek private teaching no. "

"New grandpa wants to take a bath. Again waiting for the water to heat up, "I replied back to the message.

"Oke Deck Wulan. After bathing adek rest and do not forget the medicine in drinking yes deck.

O Allah, O Rohman, O Rahim.

I know that everything comes from you. For this I plead with you greatly. Give healing to my beloved heart.

Give me Yes Allah.

Aamiin yes rabbal'alamiin. "

"Aamiin to Rabb. Thank you for the do'a Mas Yoki. Oh yes Mas Yoki has eaten yet?. "

"I love you adek. Too bad for adek. Thank God I have eaten. Adek itself do not forget to eat and take the medicine. Oh yes Mas to forget to ask with adek, adek sick what is it. "

"Low blood and Mas Yoki's tiredness. "

"Ehm, from yesterday. Adek did not tell Mas anyway, dear. If the blood is low try to eat goat satay. "

"Yes Mas Yoki, try it later. Alhamdulillah is good now.

Yes it is Mas, adek shower first yes. "

"Yes Dek Wulan, baby. "

I rushed to clean myself and take a shower.

 

Mas Yoki sent me another message.

When the time shows at 21:43:54.

"Mas just finished praying Isya.

What is Wulan Deck doing now?. "

"Adek was sitting in the living room. "

"Why not just rest.

Is the head of the Wulan Deck still dizzy?.

I love you Dek Wulan. "

Love you too Mas Yoki.

Mas. "

"Yes Deck Wulan. What's the deck?. Dek Wulan here later Mas hugged. So that we may be warm. "

"Hmm.Hopefully what Mas Yoki expects soon to be hijabah by Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala. "

"Aamiin yes rabbal'alamiin. Whether Dek Wulan is ready to be born inwardly to become Mas's wife. "

"God willing Mas Yoki."

"Yes Deck Wulan. Patiently adek on deck.

If you are impatient. Mas will hug adek from above, so that the adek more feel the presence of mas. "

"Hmm.It could be Mas Yoki.

I love you Mas. Muachs. "

"Thank you Dek Wulan. Ahem, Mas became excited to be able to make adek play in the deck.

I love you too adek. This adek kiss, will make the initial capital to be able to give the best for adek. God willing. Miss you Dek Wulan's.

" Aamiin yes rabbal'alamiin. Yes Mas Yoki.

Miss you too Mas. "

"Yes adek. Thanks deck for everything. Mas was eager to be halal to adek, so that every day we can mingle.

I love you adek. May Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala continue to keep our feelings until the halal path for our relationship is open."

"Aamiin yes rabbal'alamiin. Yes already Mas Yoki, we sleep first Mas. It's been night and Adek sugag is very sleepy. "

"Good adek. Mas ask adek do not forget to eat a lot and routinely take the medicine yes deck. I love you adek. "

After that my conversation with Mas Yoki came to a halt. Where she and I rested in a long, cold blanket. No one can guess and guess, if every day my feelings and Mas Yoki continue to grow deeper.

Though the body never met once. But the bond that is intertwined in each other's hearts so becomes stronger and more connected to each other.

When the heart loves someone it becomes something that sounds and looks beautiful and full of happiness.

However, all of that can happen if the two understand each other and know each other's feelings.

Well, and that's how feelings grow in my heart and Mas Yoki's.

Feelings are growing every day. By loving her I seemed able to live my life today full of smiles, even happiness did not escape because it occupied my life now. Where as if the colors of my life became brighter and more colorful. Good in any case, which sometimes in my mind is always imagined face.

Mas Yoki always instilled in my self-thought.

That loving is a commitment that must be fought for.

Especially after knowing that we both have the same feelings and have the same goals.

Armed with that, Mas Yoki continues to lead my thoughts to have a purpose in life from the taste that resides in the recesses of our hearts, namely, marriage is to be the ultimate goal of the love we each have and feel right now. Where Mas Yoki does not want if the feeling of love is only for as an endless expression or word.

Because for Mas Yoki personally love is very simple, the point is mutual trust and commitment to establish a serious relationship, namely marriage.

The more day Mas Yoki continues to be eager to show his sincere love, where he hopes to get good in his love.

With the happiness that Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala will give with all its perfect beauty.

That is the meeting between us in holy and lawful bond before Him.

A bond that I was so afraid of dreaming of.

But slowly and slowly Mas Yoki continued to make me dare to dream. It will be the marriage that is the dream of the purpose of my relationship and her.

Where did I initially feel scared and uncomfortable, when Mas Yoki discussed the concept of marriage.

However, the more often he describes it. My mind and heart continue to connect to dare to expect it.