A Pile of Misses in Words.
22.Deeper.
Palembang, January 16, 2011.
After last night I rested when I got home.
I completely bed rest and recover my physique. Where my mobile phone was deliberately not activated, because my body felt very bad.
Until at night around 21:44:19.
A lot of messages came in from Mas Yoki that I haven't had time to reply.
"Dek Wulan, how's it going now?.
Is Deck Wulan okay now?
Then, what does the doctor say about the current condition of Dek Wulan?," asked Mas Yoki via a short message.
"Dek Wulan please reply to a message from Mas.
Mas, very worried about yourself Dek Wulan, "ask Mas Yoki on his other short message.
However, I haven't had the chance to reply to Mas Yoki's message yet. Because my head was still dizzy and I finally went back to sleep.
It was about twelve in the evening. I woke up and had to take medicine again.
This time I felt a little better and more comfortable with my head.
After eating a few slices of fresh bread and taking medicine. I went back to my bed and leaned against the wall. I took my millik cell phone, to reply to a message from Mas Yoki.
" Most certainly Mas Yoki will be very worried about me, "my words in my heart.
And sure enough when I look at my cell phone screen. There were a lot of missed calls from Mas Yoki.
Immediately I replied to his message, so that Mas Yoki would not feel anxious. Even though I knew it was night.
" Mas Yoki's. Sorry Wulan just got a message from Mas Yoki. Because Wulan is not sick and completely different rest.
Mas Yoki did not have to worry and worry. God willing, Wulan is in a good state now, "return me.
Not long after that my message was immediately replied by Mas Yoki.
" It's a pity with Dek Wulan.
Please do not ever leave Mas ya deck. Tonight what should Mas do, so that Dek Wulan can sleep soundly and immediately improve his health. "
"In Mas Yoki's embrace, "I replied.
"Good Wulan Deck. Adek slightly shifted a little yes, so that Mas can hug Dek Wulan tightly. Yes it is now Dek Wulan sleep yes dear. I love you. Muachs.
Get well soon and get well again, Dek Wulan. "
I then put my phone back on, after deactivating it earlier.
Now my feelings are much better, having been able to reply to a short message from Mas Yoki. Even though Mas Yoki and I haven't been able to talk to each other from the phone.
But at least the short message we did, can treat the sense of longing in each other's hearts.
Immediately I laid my body on the bed and closed my eyes.
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Palembang, January 17, 2023.
This morning my body condition is much better. Before the activity. I also took the time to send Mas Yoki a message.
The time is 07:57:18.
"Good morning Mas Yoki. Has Mas had breakfast?" I asked via SMS.
Mas Yoki responded quickly to my message.
"Morning is also Wulan Deck. Alhamdulillah Mas has finished eating, deck. Oh yeah, now what's Wulan Deck doing?. "
"Wulan is sitting back, Mas.
What is Yoki himself doing?. Oh yes, take care of yourself and never forget to eat also salat. I love Mas Yoki's. "
"Alhamdulillah if the condition of Dek Wulan has improved considerably. Yes, Dek Wulan just continue his activities. Now I'm getting ready to drop off my work friends. Yes my dear, God willing Mas will always remember to eat and be on time in doing prayers. Thank you very much deck, because Dek Wulan has always been very attentive with Mas. I love you too Dek Wulan.
Don't forget the medicine in the drink, so Dek Wulan soon recover dear."
"Yes Mas Yoki. Be careful how it works. "
After that, our conversation stopped.
Mas Yoki continued his work and I relaxed myself by sitting in the living room.
I still enjoy my solitude, looking at the people passing by in front of my house. Enjoy some warm chocolate milk. Slowly I moved my fingers and toes, after almost a day of lying on the bed. Bored, I went back to my room with the book I was going to read. I was also immersed in my activities. Until it does not feel the time is getting noon and shows at 12:11:19.
I immediately rushed to perform dzuhur prayer.
Before I get out of my seat.
My cell phone is ringing.
I quickly picked it up, and I saw a message from Mas Yoki. I opened it immediately and read the message.
"Dek Wulan, don't forget to eat and take the medicine. Keep going, adek also rest, yes. "
I smiled reading a message from her. But the message from Mas Yoki did not immediately reply, because I went straight to the bathroom to take ablution water to immediately perform dzuhur prayer.
It was about 13:23:13.A message from Mas Yoki I just replied. After I finished performing the Dzuhur prayer, eat and also take medicine.
I then sat back down by the television, straightened my legs and leaned against the teak closet and prepared to reply to Mas Yoki's message.
"Alhamdulillah Mas Yoki, adek has finished doing it all. Mas Yoki himself has lunch?, "ask me through a short message.
"Thank God if that's the deck, I'd love to listen to it. Thank goodness we had lunch too. Now Dek Wulan just rest or take a nap. So that his body quickly recovers and is completely healthy again, yes dear. "
"So, Adek is not sleepy Mas Yoki.
Oh yeah, Mas Yoki ate the same side dish what?. "
"Seat with goat gule deck.
Oh yeah deck, mom was cooking what deck?. "
"Mother cook chicken porridge mas.
Mas Yoki is he still smoking?."
"Yes, we've been trying to reduce it to Deck Wulan.
Yes, have a bath first, so that it is fragrant and fresh. I love you Dek Wulan. "
"Later in the afternoon just take a shower. Oh yeah, did you get to Mess?. "
"Not yet adek, the possibility of later afternoon mas just arrived at his mess. Sorry about Dek Wulan. Because you can not accompany adek while on vacation like this. "
"It's okay Mas Yoki. Besides why Mas Yoki should apologize. Adek was happy and proud Mas diligently worked his. "
"Thank you very much Dek Wulan for his understanding. That's a pity with Dek Wulan. Cepet healed yes deck.
"Miss you too mas.
Oh yes, Mas Yoki has he read the Quran?. "
"Yes, it's not my darling yet. Because I just found it yesterday afternoon
Al-Qu'ran. God willing, I will read it tomorrow. You see, in a moment, I will attend the wedding invitation of a coworker. "
"Oh yes already Mas Yoki later be careful and take care of yourself. "
"Yes, my dear. Adek also be careful yes, and do not forget Deck Wulan for a lot of rest also not much thought of the assortment.So take the medicine that is routine yes deck. God willing, if you have arrived. I'll call adek. "
After that, Mas Yoki and I stopped texting. I rested in my bed and put my cell phone in the drawer.
Without feeling the time goes back around and continues to pass quickly.
Until 22:43:19 .
I just checked my cell phone. There were many missed calls from Mas Yoki.
And soon I sent him a message.
"What is Mas Yoki doing now?, "ask me via SMS message.
And quickly Mas Yoki replied to a message from me.
"Mas is thinking Deck Wulan. "
"What did Mas Yoki think?. "
"Mas think about our relationship deck. Continuation to our relationship. "
"Wouldn't Mas Yoki think about the sustainability of our relationship, after Mas Yoki read the reply letter from adek to Mas, "my suggestion to Mas Yoki.
"Indeed why is it. Without reading the reply letter from Dek Wulan, Mas should not think?.
Deck Wulan, mas seriously want to establish a sacred relationship with adek.
Where will be the one who will live the household of the two of us. So how do we both align our hearts and minds. To remain in the path of the light by Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala.
Mas want to ask if Dek Wulan is ready to get married?, "ask Mas Yoki who continues to bring the direction of our conversation in an increasingly serious direction.
"God willing Mas Yoki, if Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala willed. "
"But Deck Wulan has the intention to go towards marriage right.
Or the Wulan Deck has stages for Mas, so that Mas can realize all those dreams. "
"Wulan was confused what to say with Mas Yoki at this time. It would be better, if Mas Yoki had read the letter from adek. Honestly, at this time I am afraid if I think too far. Before Mas Yoki read the reply letter from adek. "
"What is Dek Wulan afraid of in a household?. Mas meant whether the trauma of something, such as violence and everything else, " asked Mas Yoki who was pressing me more.
"Later Mas Yoki read for himself a reply from the letter of his younger brother Mas. "
"It's okay. I can't wait for a reply from Dek Wulan.
Is he finished writing it?. "
"Alhamdulillah already Mas Yoki. "
"Wow.If Mas may ask, can adek give Mas adek more than one photo or if not as sinchlasnya Dek Wulan only. They don't force the adek.
I want only one life choice, one feeling, one woman Dek Wulan, God willing. "
"Hmmm, Mas Yoki is starting again. "
"Mas does not fight Dek Wulan.
I want to take a picture of the two next time. Uh, but when you think better in the pending first. Because what I want is our own photos continue to be attached to the marriage license just how Dek Wulan. If God is ready. And just waiting for approval from Deck Wulan only. Now depending on the scene is ready or not to be married to a mas.
Hehehe. "
"God willing Mas Yoki. "
"Ashik.Miss you Dek Wulan.
Because the mas is looking for a beautiful figure whose heart is not a physical beauty. Where is the presence of Dek Wulan in the life of the mas. Make different color. Because from the past until now mas have not found a figure like Dek Wulan.
Oh yes, does Dek Wulan want to stay in Palembang?. "
"No, it's not."
"Where do you want to live?. "
"Died with his body. Hehe. "
"Indeed Dek Wulan wants to go with Mas whose life is overseas. "
"It's okay Mas Yoki. Wherever Mas Yoki takes Wulan, InshaAllah Wulan will come with Mas. Provided that we both have legally become a married couple in the presence of Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala and the state. "
"Alhamdulillah. We both have good intentions. Now we just need to find a solution, so that we can immediately realize our desire to be together.
Continues Dek Wulan must leave the mother adek dong, if you come with mas. Will Dek Wulan not miss later?. "
"God willing, wherever Wulan goes, I will stay with Wulan Mas.
Even though Wulan is married later
Does Mas Yoki mind that?, "ask me.
"God does Dek Wulan.
Yeah, well, now Dek Wulan sleeps, baby. It's already night. Moreover, the condition is still not completely healthy.
Mas adek dear.
Good night and good sleep.
Have a beautiful dream on deck.
Muachs. I love you Dek Wulan. "
Our conversation ended that night.
Where I felt if Mas Yoki, continued to bring the direction of the conversation we both headed towards the wedding.
Something I really wanted to avoid and I was afraid of, before Mas Yoki read my reply. Where not yet fully Mas Yoki knows all about myself and also my origin.
I was afraid to dream too much or dream even further, because Mas Yoki himself still did not know fully about myself and also my life.
Although Mas Yoki has often convinced myself of the sincerity and purity of his love.
But I don't know that feeling of doubt and doubt still lingers in my heart.
For everything is not as easy as it is in the shadows, because I am afraid of being hurt and immersed again in sadness as well as the burden of heartbreak that will torment.
However, Mas Yoki continues to make me brave and unafraid to dream.
Stringing together a life in the future that is still in a mirage.
