A Pile of Misses in Words.

End of year night.

I was born into a simple family and lived with my mother and my older sister.My father has long since passed away, since I was born in this world.

However, after my sister was married. I just live with my mom.

My mother became a living parent for me. All he did to be able to raise myself, and to live me with a decent life.Including by justifying any means, so that we could survive.

The great struggle in trying, to make me grow into a girl figure who can be proud of her.

The burden of life and hard work for years, making his body that is getting older often experience falling ill.And it became the thing that makes me very worried about his condition.

It is also what makes me, to get a job immediately.

After completing his education at High School. My mother's condition is often sickly and her debts are piling up. I had to make myself bury my dreams, by not continuing my education in college.

Even though I include students who excel during primary school education to Junior High School.So there are several scholarships to continue my education, so there are several scholarships,either the offer to study in the city where I live or outside the city at a famous university.

But I still could not take it, for I had no power. Leaving my mother alone in the overseas lands without a single brother. Just to pursue my dreams.

Not only that factor.

Where the economic reasons are crucial, for me to get a job soon.

Pain and sadness it feels , must let go of dreams and desires when this self is able to live it.

My sister is married and has a life of her own. She does not work and only depends her home life on her husband. Where only my sister-in-law makes a living for her little family.

Akh... Of course I don't want to burden and trouble my sister.

So the best way for me is to immediately work and forget my dream of getting a higher education.

For two weeks I fell down and fell ill, and my heart and mind still could not accept the reality.

If my dream of becoming a doctor had been dashed and died before it developed.

But slowly I began to accept the reality and persevere in the destiny that God had laid out on me.

Because it is only with sincere feelings and trust that it becomes one of the last choices and the best thing I can do.

It didn't take long for me to get a job.

Even though the job I got was not up to my expectations. But I remain grateful and live it, while continuing to strive to be able to get a job that I like and comfortable for me.

And Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala quickly answered my do'a.

After almost half a year of doing a comfortable job for me.

I finally got a job offer by teaching tutoring.

Something real work is far from my self-interest, but with time.

I also found comfort in the work I was doing.

Well, meeting the kids and continuing to make my brain re-refresh all the previous lessons I learned during school.

Indirectly this makes me more and more in a comfortable work zone and I began to enjoy.

This further makes me immersed in solitude and continue to focus in my work.

Departing in the morning and returning home in the afternoon before Maghrib, that is my routine every day from Monday to Saturday.

And without feeling it has been almost a year, I went through a job that I initially only considered temporary.

All I want to do is make it a stepping stone while looking for another job.

But gradually I fell more and more in love with the world of teaching, which indirectly made me feel happy and led me to continue learning and learning.

Until I realized too.

If this job becomes my identity who likes books and discusses problems.

Tonight is the end of the night at the end of the year. The same thing I always do if everyone is enjoying the turn of the new year night with family or loved ones.

So as usual I will be at home with my mother while watching television by enjoying my mother's cooking and finally sleeping because of fatigue.

I saw my mother sleeping fast.

Though the new time shows at 19.35 WIB. I was thinking maybe my mom was so exhausted today.

I immediately turned off the lighted television and covered my mother's body with a blanket to her chest.

Then I turned off the main light and turned on a very dim sleep lamp.

I wanted to sleep, but my eyes were not closed.

So slowly my hands grabbed my mobile phone.

I don't know why tonight.

I have a wish to send a message of happy new year to my older cousin who is in Solo.

Something I almost never did before.

And tonight something like pushing me to do it right away.

Though my cousin and I rarely communicate, because of the busyness and distance that separates us.

I began to understand the message of happy new year to my cousin.

new Year to you and your family, Mas Bowo. 2010 is over, and 2011 is waiting. Let's build up the spirit and hope for the new year.

May 2011 be the best year for all of us. Second by second, day by day until month by month had carried many stories and passed away. Where love and sorrow become the real color of our lives.

But let all be memories carved in the heart.Since now the new year has come to welcome us.

Then it's time we pack failure into success and we open a new story sheet with passion and cheerfulness.

Happy new year 2011 Mas Bimo.

From :Wulan in Palembang.

I then took the phone book to send an SMS message to my older cousin. Where's the number I just got a few days ago.

When my mom called my bude.

Slowly in the light of the lamp. I pressed my cousin's number one by one.

When I finished I sent it. With a strange thumping feeling that spread to me.

Ughhh.

I took a deep and long breath. Then I lie down next to my mother who is sleeping.

Without feeling my eyes are staring at the ceiling of the room makes me join closed and finally fall asleep.

A night filled with the sound of fireworks. Made my sleep that night so very deep and took myself immersed in a strange sleeping flower.

The end of the year will soon change.

Where Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala has made destiny my love story is about to begin.

Without me knowing and understanding everything has been outlined by the Creator.

My body melted in the fatigue that ensnared me that night.

Where the story of two people separated by distance, myself and himself will begin soon because of the short message.

A short message that brought a big change in my life as well as my mother's.

Where after a long period of pain and loneliness, in the journey of my life that is very tiring.

Finally Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala presents himself to be a backup as well as a priest of my life.

Beyond my interpretation of logic as a human being, and in an unusual way Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala brought us together and united us. After going through a long long longing in the distance that separates into two bodies that have never met before.