A Pile of Misses in Words.

Carry feelings.

Palembang, January 22, 2011.

This morning before leaving for work I say goodbye to Mas Yoki by sending him a message.

"Mas Yoki, let's go to work first. "

And Mas Yoki instantly replied to a message from me.

"Oke Deck Wulan. Be careful on the deck. "

I then went to work, as well as Mas Yoki who did his activities as well.

At 18:07:06 Mas Yoki sent me a message.

"Good afternoon Wulan Deck. Adek do not forget to eat and take the medicine deck. "

"Yes mas. Mas Yoki also don't forget to eat."

"Yes Deck Wulan. I love you. Later if you leave to teach private, do not forget to pray and be careful on the road yes deck. "

"Love you too Mas Yoki. Today adek does not teach private tutoring, mas. His students want to leave. "

"Oh so yeah. Keep going after this will do what activities?. "

"At home, mas. Adek wants to study while resting. Mas Yoki wants to go out. "

"Ehem so yes. Where does Dek Wulan go. Lha, it's raining so hard here. If only we were close, surely Mas would play to the adek house."

"Hehehe. Yes Mas. Yes already Mas we pray maghrib first yuk. "

"Okay Wulan Deck."

As usual my chatter and Mas Yoki stopped, and we did our own activities.I also do not want to disturb him, because maybe he is currently sleeping. Where Mas Yoki said, if it was raining heavily. It must be a good and delicious time to rest and sleep. That's my guess to him, because I'm also late in doing things. It forced me to focus.

At 21:49:38 Mas Yoki sent me a message.

"When my hope slowly formed a circle of determination. Where to be one with yourself. However, everything is tested by the distance that stretches.

But one belief that kept me going.

It is hope that I seek to make certain and real.

That one day the Khalik will bring us together.

Where the body and soul meet.

And this longing will be realized, to meet the owner.

Although I don't know when it will happen. "

While reading the message from Mas Yoki.

I know that he longs in the pile of his feelings, which shackles him.

However, I was trying to shift my mind to his gala feelings. So as not to further make himself drown, in an endless longing.

"Mas has eaten and salat isya. "

"Alhamdulillah has Dek Wulan.

Perhaps at this time, in the head of the mas there are many millions of question marks that spill over. It feels like the heart and mind are eager, immersing in our good intentions.

But faith continues to burn following the heart. I need you Dek Wulan. "

"What is Mas Yoki doing right now?. "

"Right now Mas is sitting relaxed on the bale pensively, looking at the still dark sky.

After the rain stopped.

Is he finished learning?. "

"Adek is still learning Mas. Bale is what Mas Yoki?. "

"Bale is the place to gather. Which is made of bamboo and the roof is made of reeds.

Oh yeah, did you cook Dek Wulan?. "

"Oh so, keep pensive mas himself so. Beware you mas later disturbed the devil, if a lot pensive. Especially it's night. I was cooking rendang ati cow. "

"So I ate a lot of not.

It's not alone. This is while watching television, which is watching a football game. But I can't focus. Because I always keep thinking. I miss adek. "

"Yes, I know. Mending his longing feeling in salurin for a lot of dhikr and do'a. Because only by remembering Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala, the heart will be calm . "

"Yes Deck Wulan. The medicine has not been taken on deck. Oh yeah, what are you doing now?. "

"Already Mas, cook well told to take medicine continue. Adek was relaxing. "

"Yes Mas knows Wulan Deck. It means that mas adek is sleeping or is sitting around relaxed at this time. "

"Adek was sitting half lying down. Mas Yoki has taught me yet."

"Honestly deck, mas ngajinya not from the beginning. Because the clock of his return work mas it is uncertain and uncertain.

So that at this time mas, can only read Yasin's letter and Waqiah's letter. God willing it is possible if the work of the mas, already a little looser. We will try to read the Qur'an from the beginning. "

"Yes mas. Oh yeah, that means the work is raining, huh?. Is my body okay at the moment?. "

"Yes Dek Wulan, it was raining. And thankfully the condition of the mas is fine as well as healthy - just fine.

It's just that now the mas is stretching the muscles of the mas, which has been all day from morning. Just spent on a motorcycle and walking.

Oh yeah, Deck Wulan himself is tired of not. "

"Prophey to Mas Yoki. God willing, if we will be halal and mate. If you are tired, you will get pijitin. I am not tired, just tired. "

"Ehm, if only it could happen now. How happy and lucky you are. Oh yes, the cure is over?. "

"His medicine stayed a few more drinks. Oh yes, if the muscles you mending mas olesin balsam. So that his muscles become relaxed and not stiff."

"How's the situation right now?. Do you feel good and much better?. I don't like wearing balsam. Because later if you like it in the balm, later it can be addicted."

"It's okay, not every day. Wearing her balm when sick.

Thank God, the situation is better mas."

"Hahaha, not akh deck. Later it is not even rice that is purchased, but instead buy balsam continues. Thank goodness, thank goodness then. Please take care of your health always on deck."

"God is yes. Mas Yoki also take care of my health as well. Thanks for your attention. "

"Yes deck. I just want to always cheer my heart and be the one who can always be happy. God willing. "

"Aamiin yes rabbal'alamiin. Thank you for Yoki's goodwill towards adek."

"Yes Deck Wulan. I hope in the future we can always take care of this relationship. At its best.

Huh, if you really know the feelings of the current mas.

Really, I want to accelerate what has become my intention.

That is to be able to continue this relationship, in order to be guided by Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala. And be lawful in front of Him. "

"Aamiin yes rabbal'alamiin. I love you Mas Yoki."

"I love you too Dek Wulan. Let's just say this is a test from Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala. Even though we are separated by distance. God willing, our hearts will always be close. Honestly, adek is the focus of the heart mas at this time.And great hope mas.

Please deck. Adek, never change this situation. Although many mas have shortcomings of physical and properties that mas have.

Grandpa... Yaw.. Muachs.. Muachs.

I love you Dek Wulan.

Ahem, I want to know what our expectations are about our relationship. "

"God is yes. Hope about this relationship. Just like desire and hope. Where love in a marriage is sacred and lawful, is the true proof of love. Not out of lust but the totality of devotion will perfect worship. At once expect ridho from Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala."

"Aamiin yes rabbal'alamiin. God willing, I will try my best and best to be able to realize all expectations adek. Although there are many shortcomings in the self. It's a pity with the Wulan Deck point. "

"Yes mas. InshaAllah adek will also always pray, so that Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala facilitate our good intentions."

"Yes Deck Wulan the same. We will fight for this love. I want to be the first person I will always see. When I open my eyes in the morning, forever. Muachs.. Muachs.

Please always be sure, that everything will be beautiful in time. Where the fragility of the adek increasingly spur adrenaline mas, to be able to realize all the expectations of adek and mas become real.".

Not long after that Mas Yoki contacted me. Without us knowing it, our conversation continued until 03:40:30.

Where our phone connection continued to light up, while Mas Yoki and I had fallen asleep due to sleepiness.