1 Story, 4 Love, 2 Worlds

RAIHAN [Three]

I'm Always Here

Day after day passed as usual I was still always around Fina although sometimes I also went home just to see my parents and brothers. Although I was always around Fina but sometimes I had to stay away from her, it was when she changed clothes and when she was in the toilet. Though I am invisible and though I may be called a ghost, I also know the limits of good and sin. Sinning enough at the time of life I do not want to add to sin when I am not alive anymore.

This morning I followed Fina to campus by taking public transportation, the bus. In a bus I stood and looked at Fina who looked cheerful despite the fact that her heart was still sad. Arrived at a stop some people came down including Fina and me. After a while at the stop I saw Fina while walking suddenly turning around looking at someone a few seconds with a smile then turning around to continue her steps. I was curious to also turn around to see a girl in school uniform with her Mom and Dad. But I was surprised and a little surprised when the Son was talking with his Father suddenly his mother seemed to clearly look at me and then smile at me. At first I just felt that Mom was smiling at someone around me but I realized that no one here except Fina was walking around and into the campus. When she looked back at her, she still smiled at me as she slowly followed her Son and Husband into her car. I can only ignore the Mother because it is impossible for anyone to see me unless she has a special advantage given by the creator.

After Fina finished the thesis guidance I saw her go out and walk towards the campus corridor, I was not far from her who looked tired. When Fina looked at me across the street, she suddenly noticed and perhaps glanced at me, but when I approached her, she could not look back and hear me.

Sometimes I feel surprised when Fina can see me sometimes even for a moment. But what occurred to me in my head right now was the old mother, she could see and smile at me if it was true then I could communicate to her and through her I could also pass on a message to Fina.

After a while I followed Fina's footsteps suddenly in a food stall Fina who was probably hungry stopped by for lunch and that was when I met the Mother again with her Son and Husband.

Seen from a distance they also headed to the stall where Fina ate. When the Husband ordered the food the Child was seen whispering to each other with his Mother then the Child ran towards Fina's table then they seemed to talk. This mother turned to look at me and again smiled kindly at me.

I ventured to him and then spoke to him.

"Sorry.. You smiling at me?"

"Yes, who else wants to smile with, isn't there just you?" said the mother.

"Sorry Mom, can you really see and hear me?" My toot.

"Yes, there's no way I can talk and smile at you if I can't see and hear you." He answered with a friendly smile.

"Do you know I'm a ghost? Do you have any strengths or strengths, Mom?" I'm getting curious about him.

"Hm.. That's what it is for me this is common." The answer is short with a smile.

"May I speak some things to my mother? But after Mom eats, pity her Husband and Son are waiting for Mommy."

"I'm still full anyway they also know that if I prefer to wait in the car, you can talk to me anything, then we talk near the car there just pretty cool."

Then we headed to the car park and tried to build a conversation. I hope this paranormal mother can help me like a story in a horror movie.

"If I may know whose name you are?" Ask the mother.

"My name is Raihan ma'am"

"You can call me Hanifa or Brother Hanif, don't call me."

"I'm sorry ma'am ehh sis"

"What do you want to talk about, Raihan?"

"Then you tell me first what happened and what your current anxiety is" Brother Hanif said in a serious tone.

Then I started to tell about my presence back in this world and also told about Fina's current feelings. After telling me some things I also want to ask for help from this Hanif brother.

"So can I ask your sister for help?"

"What help? If I could I would've tried to help"

"So, sister, who can see me in this world is not just Brother Hanif and I really want to convey something to Fina so can I ask for help brother to convey my message to Fina?"

"Hm.. For me it is not a difficult thing I will try as I can but it is good if you yourself convey it if it is a message from the heart" he said seriously.

"How is it, brother? Let alone being able to be seen and heard even to touch something was impossible for me."

"Raihan, nothing is impossible for us His creatures as long as we seek to achieve our goals"

"Until now I've always tried but I haven't been able to find a way yet" brother"

"I'll figure out a way to help you but maybe not right now, Raihan next time we meet again"

"Why not now, brother? When can we see you again?"

"Don't see now that my Son and Husband are on their way here, maybe we'll see you next time."

"But when is brother?" I asked as I turned around to see her Son and Husband heading towards me.

When I turned back towards Brother Hanif suddenly he disappeared somewhere he might get into the car afraid if his Husband saw him seem to speak for himself like in a horror film. To me, Hanif's sister is mysterious.

For the sake of maintaining their privacy as a family, I ended up here and hopefully one day we can still meet to help each other. After that short conversation I headed back to Fina's place which happened to be walking out of the food stall.

Sometimes I wonder when I realize that I am no longer a living human being. I wonder why I get sunburnt? Though in some movies if the ghost is exposed to sunlight it will burn. I feel normal when I'm exposed to the sun and sometimes I feel like I'm still alive. Am I still alive? That question often arises in me but I still remember clearly about my whereabouts before I could be here.

In reality I am in the world right now and I am very aware of seeing some buildings such as houses lined up, the streets passed by several vehicles, even clearly I can see Fina, she said, the color of her clothes, her hijab and her bag and also I could clearly hear everything around me as if some of the senses in my body were still functioning properly. Right now I saw Fina who was again walking in the hot sun seemed to be so tired and overheated but still forced herself to walk.

After a few meters Fina walked from the back of a car turned slowly and it turned out to be a car owned by Husband Kak Hanif. Not far from the front of Fina the car stopped the windshield was open and looked a girl who was none other than Kak Hanif's child. Fina and the child seem so familiar perhaps because there are similarities between them or maybe because of the nature of Fina who so quickly familiarize themselves even with people she just knew.

When Fina approached the car, it was seen if she was talking maybe because she was offered a ride. "Don't go up Fina pity you trouble people, you better walk right there I'm here." I yelled at Fina hoping she would refuse so that I could always be around her but somehow Fina accepted the invitation. Fina's hand opened the back door of the black car and I approached and was seen in the car Kak Hanif was sitting in the back as well while smiling whispering to me he said "It's okay to have me here" her words and gaze were so convincing that it made me feel a little calm to let Fina go anyways to head or look for Fina for me it was easy enough to feel and adjust some kind of frequency from Fina I could find her. I call this frequency the inner frequency.

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