1 Story, 4 Love, 2 Worlds

HANIFA [Four]

Since That Tragedy

In the afternoon when the atmosphere is quiet without any activity in the house. Nana who fell asleep looked so beautiful with soft blue clothes and a knee-sized skirt of the same color. I walked to several corners of the house until I saw the Word that was also asleep. I stared at her face so closely that I wanted to feel a soft kiss back from her lips. I noticed the details of my husband's face and there hasn't been much change from him since I first knew him.

It still seems clear in my memory all the things we went through together. I still remember the first time we met, the moment she expressed her feelings, the moment she said she wanted to live with me, and the few words she said I couldn't forget.

I remember when I first met him. That day was the day of the new student admission. As a freshman I was so innocent I had not understood everything I had never seen and felt. At that time when we were gathered in a Faculty field I was so confused by the number of students I felt a little dizzy and claustrophobic but soon came the time for group division. Whether this is a coincidence or indeed the destiny of God that's when we were found. One by one the names were mentioned and it was time for my name then I headed for the group. A plontos-headed man stared and smiled at me well it was the Word. Then we greeted each other and met each other.

"Hay my name is Hanifa you can call me Hanif" I said at the time introducing myself.

I don't know why I'm always next to the good Word when I rest until I eat, I'm next to it. There was no conversation between us until I was finally punished for my mistake.

"Let's collect the resume task of the material presented by the speaker yesterday, remember who typed using a typewriter!!" Shouted a senior woman who was big at that time.

When all the tasks were gathered suddenly, I remembered that the task was left just above the refrigerator when I picked up my bottle of water. At that moment I was yelled at and humiliated in front of the other students. Until one of the seniors said.

"What good are your friends punished with?" The senior shouted with a wry laugh at me.

"Or don't you have your beautiful friend punished? Anyone want to be his replacement?" Shouts again.

Suddenly in silence there was a student raising his hand wanting to make a sound. At that time my heart was a little soft because maybe he wanted to replace or help me but his reality.

"Hey you're there! What do you want to ask?" Senior shout.

"What if he's told to sing and dance!" Shouted the student.

The atmosphere became rowdy with the laughter of several other students. Then from behind a gondrong man threw a punch at the student who spoke out.

"You think it's appropriate for a woman to be punished for being laughed at by a man like you? All quiet!! Would anyone want to change the woman's sentence? Is she!?" Shouts of emotion gondrong.

Suddenly a student raised his hand. All eyes were on him.

"Hey you!! What!?" Senior shout.

"I'm ready to replace him brother!" Shouted a little quietly from the student whose name is the Word.

At that moment I was immediately moved and started to be a little interested in him. But at that time it was also the greatest courage and stupidity that the Word had ever done during college. After raising his hand he replaced me. Word was led by several seniors towards one of the classrooms. I don't know what happened after that said friends of the Word at the execution but when I asked the Word he just laughed. He said he was just told to sing and write. I believed it even though I knew it wasn't what happened.

Since the tragedy, I and the Word started having conversations until we felt like friends. Wherever I want to go, there will always be someone accompanying me. Sometimes I even told her to pick me up and drive me home. It feels comfortable and safe to be with him.

Until one day I felt another feeling for him. It was true that I fell in love with her but at the same time I was unable to signal her if I liked her. It feels good to be able to look at you smiling, it feels like there is something that makes this heart flower and the heart beats faster than usual. But at that time I was very sad, I was sad not because you refused my love but I feel sorry because this feeling is present when you already have. I never realized this feeling when you were always around me. I don't know why I just realized this feeling called love when you're with the others.

But what I thought at the time turned out to be just my mistake. I misjudged the Word. Turns out the guy I thought was Firman's girlfriend was Firman's schoolmate. Shortly after we established the relationship Word story everything and Word also said that his friend was one of the people who occupied the story about me and he was the one who gave advice to tell me his feelings.

As I looked at the face of the sleeping Word I apologized.

"I'm sorry for being jealous of everyone close to you, I'm sorry for being a little possessive of your relationship.. I can't keep you company for long but I keep my promise to be with you until death do away with it even until I'm lifeless I'm near you... I'm sorry I couldn't help you take care of our son. Ilove you... Forever.."

Then I kissed her forehead. Perhaps the Word sensed and subconsciously replied to my words.

"I have always loved you" said the Word with his eyes closed asleep in his sleep.