1 Story, 4 Love, 2 Worlds

FINA [One]

First Time

This morning you woke me up gently as the sunlight rose. For me, it's like a story in a fairy tale where I have to close my eyes and wait until I open my eyes, for some reason I see you right in front of me, looking like a prince in a fairy tale.

The first time I saw it was your smile like a warm sunshine and it made my heart throb. I refuse to believe that it is you but somehow in these eyes there is only you and I also do not know that this heart sound is also ticking.

When I look at you I wish you'd come closer to me a little closer right in front of my eyes and when I close these eyes I wish you'd caressed my hair and when I open my eyes I wish it were real. I hope you smile at me again. But again this is only a hope and again this is all just my delusion.

I am arguably a fantasy woman or arguably one of the victims of Korean dramas (although actually my love story is more drama than dozens of episodes of Korean films.) Just call me Fina. I'm a final-level student, actually I can't say the end because a year ago I took 2 semesters off because something broke my heart.

I am a woman who is a little different from women in general, I am more comfortable when dressed in a long-sleeved shirt, jeans are not tight. I'm also not used to products that offer facial beauty. Although often spelled out tomboy but I am a Muslim woman who always wears a headscarf with a simple style instead of a colorful style hijab that is twisted, folded and pierced with a lot of pentul. For me the important free style but in accordance with my face and body makes me comfortable and not feel tormented.

Although I currently do not have a partner or children's language today is single but a few years ago I had a relationship. I once loved a man named Raihan. He's a handsome guy, kind, patient, a little weird and a little annoying but he's affectionate and has an unforgettable smile. But only a few years our relationship has to end. Not because there is a third person, not because of nature and attitude but because destiny says otherwise, God loves him more and believes more if the best place for him is only on His side.

This morning when I began to awaken from delusion and delusion suddenly when I exhaled from a very long breath suddenly I remembered a few years ago when I first started the time I saw and heard her voice, she looked so sweet with a little petite posture and black hair and a smooth white face. To this day in my memory he remains as I once knew him. I'm so happy to know you and have you Raihan.

Ever since he left, I've been lying to myself that I feel fine. I can't hide it anymore that I feel lonely. When I don't cry when I remember about you are you going to stay? Don't you answer that you'll leave me and never come back. What is my day I can only give and try to pass it on to the almighty. Every day I can only whisper to you. This sweet whisper is sweeter than candy and I can only whisper it to you from inside my heart.

A year has passed since your departure but our shadows and memories are still firmly held in this hand. I let you go but I can't escape the grasp of these memories.

Sometimes I smile with a shy smile even though I feel a little moved when I remember the first time I started liking you. At that moment I was not sure what I was feeling, I felt that there was something different about what I had felt since before familiarizing myself with you. Actually, I have known you long enough both from the stories of people around me and looking at you directly from a distance even though the fact is you never know about me and maybe you never looked at me directly? Until we finally met that night.

This is what I thought when I was first with you. A real feeling that I experienced myself. Everything about you seems real and beautiful in my memory, like a real dejavu.

Starting from our meeting at a cafe owned by my friend who also turned out to be your friend. Me and some friends who were sitting together while telling stories suddenly came someone from a table not far from where we were telling stories. I feel a little embarrassed because between us I'm just a woman. The arrival of a man who was suddenly so familiar with some of my friends made me feel even more embarrassed, until finally he turned to look at me smiling while asking what my name is.

"Hey, what's your name?"

"Call me Fina", I could only answer briefly with a smile.

"My name is Raihan, if you're a friend of theirs means you're also my friend" he said, pointing at some friends

He kindly asked me to joke. It's a little weird for me to get along and laugh with a guy I just met.

Every now and then I stare at him while recording his face in my memory, his face is not as rough as most men, nor is his face overgrown with some hair commonly called a mustache or beard, his nose was sharp and his lips were small when he fell silent. His face was different from some of the men I knew. Many times I misbehaved her when she realized I was looking at her and turned to look at me.

Late from that night before we parted she asked for our contacts including my contacts, I kindly gave some social media contacts of mine.

Ever since that night I felt like there was some interest between us. Until this mischievous thought ceaselessly fantasized about him. I often think that he is also thinking about me now. Not infrequently I write a little poetic word on various social media accounts of mine hoping he can read it. Every time I open a few posts from his social media account I often feel and am very sure if a part of the word of his post or some of his photo caption is addressed and as if it is for me.

From then on we praised each other through social media until one day Raihan invited me to meet, to be honest I felt embarrassed but also felt a little confused by his funny strangeness.

At that time in the afternoon my phone vibrated I really hope if the vibration is in accordance with the vibration of my heart that awaits the message from him and it turns out that the heart is sometimes wrong when it is just a message from one of the another restaurant offers a discount on its food. But when a few minutes later my phone again vibrated this time the vibration was different a little longer then I realized if this was a phone. At that moment quickly without paying attention to the number listed I also received it.

"Hello, Assalamualaikum, Good afternoon Fina." I heard a man's voice

"Waalaikumsalam, if I may know who this is?" I actually knew who the phone was from.

"This is Raihan, I want to tell you something, okay?"

"Hey how's Raihan doing, what are you saying? You want to shoot me, huh? Or maybe you want to propose to me? Come to my house and talk to my parents directly, hahaha... I'm kidding, what are you saying?"

"It's almost exactly like you said it was." Answer in a serious tone.

The feeling of curiosity mixed with pleasure began to feel in my chest until I quickly wanted to know what he wanted to say at that time.

"Yes yes.Then I am in front of your house. I'm not here to shoot you if you get shot that bothers you too. I'm not here to see your parents either, I'm here to see you all Pinaa..."

"Some cake daritadi, wait 5 minutes I tidied myself first. Ehh. Remember my name is Fina not Pina.."

"Yes Fina, you're not neat, you're beautiful either."

"Gombball..this kid wants it first, hang up the phone wait in front later in the dreadlocks house I'm as satisfied as you are, man..."

Actually at that time my heart was very happy with your arrival even though you were not the first male guest to come to my house because most of my friends and friends were men so sometimes male friends who were upset about the coming vent here and I the hell time it was stolen you came here because you want to vent heartbreak like other friends.

After tidying up I welcomed her and allowed her to enter the house. I can't forget the first time I sat opposite you in a swing in my garden.

"So.. What kind of a racemaster should I listen to from your words?"

It felt funny mixed with pleasure when he looked at his face that looked embarrassed when faced with me.

"Nothing matters, it's just that I want to meet you to tell you a lot of things."

At that time Raihan told me about himself, during school and college, his best friend, his family to his ex-girlfriend who can still be counted fingers. As usual, I was always a good listener. While hearing the story I occasionally smiled looking at his face.

Raihan was also a student just like me even though he was actually 2 years more senior than me back then, during his life as a student he was very active in organizing and even held several important positions in his Faculty.

The campus is very far from where I went to college. Just because of the semester break so he went home and his house was also not far from my house. From the story I just realized that at that time we had been to school in the same place and I only realized that when he was in school he was one of the ospek committee but I really did not I knew and knew him at that time.

Until the end of the story suddenly we both fell silent staring at each other for a few seconds. Not too long later the staring roar suddenly blew towards my eyes while laughing pushed my eel many times slowly as I rubbed my eyes.

"That's... Apaan sih's... Make kessell deh.. kiss this cake even pushed.." I swear at that time I was annoyed.

"Kiss jidat? Whose place is it? Boyfriend is not especially wife?"

"Ihh. sorry cake said something or give me anything.."

"Yes I'm sorry, now what do you want?"

"I want to be married.. Yeee... takuut right?" At that time my hope was that he shot or talked romantically but it turns out..

"Yes I want to marry you but we have to finish college first and start life together from the beginning, but before getting married at the ceremony first can not?" He said in a soft voice.

"Speak directly to my father, will I call you?"

"Yes, I can" smilingly looking at me speechlessly she said "Yeee.. Pocket..."

"Whoever is afraid, besides I also want to. wee'..." I mocked but I swore at that moment I was embarrassed.

"I'm actually here to tell you that and next week I'm going back to college it might take me a long time to see you again"

"Trus what do I have to answer? Should you say yes after that you left me? Haha... Just kidding.. I must say yes and say Amiin for your words and good intentions, I am ready to wait for you to come." My answer was embarrassed.

"Our attitude and nature are equally yahh.. can not be serious, maybe this is what is called a mate. hahaha..." He said with a cheerful smile.

After that, we had a relationship. During the school holidays he came back to see me and invited me to meet and when we finished the holidays we also had to LDR again, fight and greet each other via mobile phone again. That's where we first met until a love affair happened.

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