1 Story, 4 Love, 2 Worlds

FINA [Three]

It's in my heart

Today I plan to go to campus to meet some friends and lecturers who he said today have a lot of time to receive guidance from his guidance children including me.

As usual, I only use public transportation in addition to more efficient and more crowded as well as I can meet many people every morning. I stopped and got off right at a campus front stop when I felt a little strange and astonished when I saw a girl about 7 years old complete with school uniform preparing to go to school. Her parents went nowhere, but what became a little strange when my gaze was fixed on him as if talking to someone looked like asking spoiled but when I was more focused on looking at him suddenly he just stared at me with a friendly smile staring at. I smile back and then turn around to walk, occasionally while walking I turned to look at him while staring at his feet if his feet were still touching the ground means I was still normal and from the side of the child suddenly came a man who might just be his father later they both walked towards the car and left.

After arriving and a few hours passed after I got guidance in the form of lectures, advice, scribbles and a little curses with the guidance lecturer I finally could be a little grand. As I walked out of the room through a corridor right in front of a toilet at a glance I saw a man staring at me and passing by, I saw that it was Raihan but I'm not sure if it was him either. I stopped looking back but there was no one there. Only a few students were walking but no one was staring at me. Not only that it had a few seconds the leaves of some plants next to me swayed like the wind but there was no wind in this corridor. Today I feel a little strange. I'm like being in a horror film, if the ghost is Raihan I am happy and sad though also a little scared but if it's the ghost waiting for this campus? I didn't want to think about it so I quickly left the place.

Today I also plan to go to the Mirna boarding house to return some books I borrowed a few weeks ago. On the way I felt very hungry considering that I only drank two glasses of water this morning. I got off at a stop a few blocks away from where Mirna was quite far away as well but happened to be lined up in a food stall between several large buildings such as office buildings.

Without choosing a stall I went into one of the stalls and ordered food. The stalls here are very clean because most of the people who eat here seem to be office employees rather than looking like student stalls. It didn't take long for me to sit at one of the tables and start eating but when I looked ahead I saw the girl this morning she was with her father. I didn't think too much about them but somehow the boy looked at me a few times and then came over and sat right in front of me while waiting for his father who again ordered food.

"What's his name?" He asked with a smile.

He's a very beautiful and friendly boy in my opinion, maybe his mother is also beautiful. For a few seconds I stared at him but did not answer his question until he asked again for the second time.

"Sister.. Sis.. Whose sister's name?"

"Oh.. Sister Fina's name, if you're what's beautiful?"

"My name is Full Armina, you can call me Nana."

"Where is she how old?"

Right now I can only ask around with a smile because my stomach still feels hungry.

"I'm almost seven years old, I'm in first grade." Answer with cheer.

"Ohh.. Nana's here with Dad? Where's mom?"

"Yes the same Dad, I'm full of not wanting to eat."

"You're so pretty on the deck.. Your mother must be pretty too?"

A beautiful, funny and chatty child exactly like the old me. Most people who say that I am from a small age are chatty and ask a lot of questions.

"Yeah her mother is beautiful yet chatty just like her."

Suddenly I didn't realize from next door her father came and answered my question. Actually I'm a little embarrassed but I don't know why I'm also curious about this kid. If Nana grows up later maybe she will be like me who likes to be curious about new people and always likes to ask questions and maybe if Nana becomes me then she would want to ask this Father with a myriad of curiosity despite actually being very embarrassed to start a conversation.

"Ehh.. Sorry Sir.. I also asked Nana a lot." I'm trying to build a conversation.

"Yes it's okay Nana also if you like the same people must be asked or invited to stories even though in fact sometimes the person feels a little irritated."

Nana's father began to respond and then spoke to me again after drinking a mouthful of water in front of her.

"Nana is a little tomboy like her mother who used to also hang out mostly with guys, as well as Nana from childhood always with her Dad and all-round Dad, hahaha.." While holding her son's hair.

"Oh.. Nana's close to Dad? But it's similar to her mother.. Hehe.." I'm trying to start a question.

"Yes dong Nana is close to her father." While looking at her child who ate then continued.

"Nana from childhood has been left by her mother, until now Nana has never seen the figure of her mother."

From Nana's father's words came a few questions in my heart. Where's Nana's mother? Are they divorced or not??

"Where's Nana's mother, sir? If I could know?" I asked expectantly.

"His mother had gone far away in nature there, already calmly smiling happily. But to me she's always in my heart, when I see Nana it's like I feel her presence."

Although with a cheerful smile answered my question, I could feel what Nana's father felt. I really understand what it's like to be left behind by someone we care about so much and really understand what it's like to keep that feeling in your heart.

"Sorry sir, so many questions about your family will offend you." This time I felt really embarrassed and sad.

"No problem, at first I was sad every time someone asked about Nana's mother but I always tried to learn sincerely and forgive everything until I could get used to it"

I suddenly felt I was learning a lesson from this Father's word. It is true that we must learn to be sincere and forgive everything to be able to treat wounds in the heart.

"Whose name is mbak? If you can't call Father I feel so old, just call him Word."

"My name is Fina Pak ehh Mas, ouhh.. I should call you by what name? It doesn't feel good to have to say the name immediately."

"Haha... Then just call on Sis to be a little younger." He said while laughing.

For me Nana and Kak Firman this is a good person, easy to get along with and quickly familiar. It just so happens that they meet the same people as their type so it feels more familiar. Her father Nana if you want to say old at all not because it is seen from the face and posture when compared to students my age Kak Firman is arguably we look the same age, as well, either he's the one who's young or I'm the one who's old?

Before saying goodbye I hugged Nana and kissed her cheeks while saying goodbye to her father. Today a lot of things happened in my life, while walking towards where Mirna was I wish I had super strength to run fast to get to where I am going.

In the scorching sun I walked on the sidewalk sheltering in the shadow of the tall building at that time I wished there was a miracle and really the miracle was Nana. Looking five meters in front of me I saw a black car stop and it also appeared that a child was calling me from the windshield of an open and true car that was Nana. I don't know why I walked over and held Nana's hand. When I realized I asked in my heart "Why am I approaching? I've also seen Nana, why am I so happy to see her?"

From inside the car his dad said "Fina.. Let's go up out there hot, with us.."

"Not brother, anyways close." I don't know why at that time my heart was worried about wanting to come but also wanted to walk more.

"Let's Fina's sister go with Nana, my dad must've gone between them." Nana said while holding my hand.

Somehow I was also devastated by Nana's request and then opened the door and climbed in the back seat. When I was in the car I felt the warmth of a family even without Mom but I felt like a whole family.

"Where are you going Fina?" Ask Brother Firman.

"Just be straight for the intersection after the red light there is housing on the left. I'm down in front of the housing gate, brother."

From the front Nana approached her father while saying quietly and heard by me "Yahh.. Is that our home too?"

"Yeah boy... Ehh.. Fina you also live in that housing well?"

"Not my sister I just want to go to a friend's boarding house happens to be her hostel."

"It just so happens that we also live there, you don't have to go down at the housing gate as I go there."

"Oh, my brother is so much trouble." I feel so ashamed.

After a few conversations we finally arrived at the house. I tried to explain where Mirna lived but it turned out that their residence was only a few houses away, what a very magical coincidence.

"Sorry sister is very troublesome and I am very grateful for everything sister, Nana is a good child well don't be naughty."

I said goodbye and kissed Nana. Before entering the Mirna boarding house I saw them enter their house as I waved to them. I feel very happy to mix and very familiar with them even though only with introductions and short conversations.

Arriving at Mirna's place without many words I told her about the things I've experienced today including my introduction to Nana and Kak Firman. Mirna responded to my story and asked me occasionally.

"You're acquainted with the widower's brother who lives there?" Ask Mirna.

"Yes, why?" My answer.

"You were bought and delivered here too?" Ask him again.

"Yeah Mirnaaa.... Whywhy??" Reply meledek.

"It's okay, I'm just a little jealous but you know what??"

If two women talk to each other and the question arises "You know what?" It was the beginning of a discussion of gossip, information, mystical to the absurd.

"What?" I answered briefly to get that information.

"The widower is the idol of all women here, ranging from students like us, mothers to the elderly also want to be with him"

"Ahh.. time anyway?"

"Yeah.he's friendly, kind to everyone. He was one of the leaders in one of the famous companies and you could say he was a rich man, his only son was one and he had no wife or widow.."

"Where do they live only two of his children?"

"It's just the two of them but almost every day the parents or in-laws come just to help clean up and play with their children."

"Oh so, but he's nice and looks young like we're the same age?" I said with a smile.

"Don't you like her? Be careful the same duda let alone the money you can just play anyways you can move on?"

"Not really, anyways I just like and more familiar with her pretty chatty child. I can still take care of my heart anyway."

"I'm sorry Finn didn't mean to offend you but just wanted to keep you from other people's interference."

"Yes.. Jaa.. I'm sleepy to sleep for a while.. Later in the afternoon take me home well sis.."

"Okay siss."

From now on I will try to learn to be more sincere, try to forgive the old me, try not to worry about what will happen and will try to make peace with my current self.

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