1 Story, 4 Love, 2 Worlds
LOVE AND IKHLAS [Fina and Hanifa]
A few days just pass by. Firman went back to his usual activities, taking Nana to school, to the office and spending time with Nana. While Fina continued the day with thesis and guidance on campus and soon she will be taking exams. As if they had never met, they had not been in contact with each other for days. Since their meeting with the person he missed as if it all started from the beginning. Firman was so excited to continue day after day for the future of his son while Fina was so sad to be separated from Raihan. Sometimes they remember each other but no one wants to start a conversation or just contact each other.
After the thesis guidance, Fina walked towards the parking lot, she took the time to say hello and tell some friends who were sitting on the park bench. Today Fina wants to meet one more lecturer then she can get an exam schedule. While waiting for the lecturer he chose to sit alone in the corner of the campus garden. That place wasn't that far from where he was last with Raihan. In the middle of the crowd, the place is indeed rarely to be occupied glanced at him is rare because it is not so visible from the corridor where some people are busy walking.
In that place there is a wall so long as the waist of adults, the wall is commonly used by students to sit and gather at certain hours. Today in that empty place there was only Fina sitting focused on reading some improvement graffiti on her script sheet.
"Sometimes.... Surviving is more painful than letting go and letting go." Said a woman who suddenly sat beside Fina.
Fina heard the voice and the words. In Fina's heart said, "When has this woman been here? I never felt his steps. Maybe because I'm too focused on reading."
"Sometimes.... We have to let something go, to get something better." Said the woman in white.
Again Fina heard his words. Fina felt that the words were on her. But for him it was impossible because no one knew what he felt after the incident. Fina turned to look at the woman next to her.
"I've never seen this woman before? She's so pretty and clean, she's not a student, maybe she's a new lecturer or maybe a senior alumni? He looks so young." Fina said inwardly as she glanced at the woman.
Suddenly their eyes met and they greeted each other with a smile.
"Hi, sorry well I'm interrupting, I'm again practicing saying something to someone who has never known and met me." Said the woman.
"It's okay, anyway it's also a public place." Reply Fina.
"Oh yeah, what are you doing here? It seems that you are harboring sadness behind that cheerful face?" Ask the woman.
"Hehehe... Many say that, everyone will indeed feel sad especially when before the thesis exam but every sadness teaches me to be strong. I always try to make peace with my heart in the process of becoming an adult." Fina replied with a smile.
"Strive to make peace with the heart? All this time your heart has been in contact with longing and sorrow? It seems you've lost something so dear to you that it hasn't been so visible on your face." Smile at the woman in white.
At that time somehow Fina suddenly told all her stories, even the story of her feelings to a man who had had one child. This is the first time Fina confided to a person she just knew who she did not even know her name. But the story of his encounter with Raihan a few days ago he did not tell on the grounds that it was a secret that was hard for humans to believe.
"This is the first time I've poured out my heart to someone I just met." Fina.
"Telling stories to lighten the burden a little is better than having to hold your own, happy does not come only from one person so multiply friends to be able to share your likes and sorrows. Can I be your best friend?" Ask the woman in white.
"Become my best friend? How can we be friends if we don't know each other?" Ask Fina.
"Let's say I'm the mysterious woman listening to the upset woman, hahaha..." Said the woman.
"How can I like my best friend if I don't know who she is? Will my best friend be able to take me in a better direction?" Asked Fina who was staring with a slightly withered smile.
"You may not like something when it is good for you, and you may like something when it is not good for you. God knows you don't." Replied the woman with a face slightly forward towards Fina.
"That right? Is that the meaning of Surah al-Baqarah verse 216 ? And... The smell of this woman's mouth is so fragrant, who is she? Is he an angel? Or is she just a regular woman?” Fina said in Heart.
"I can't fight anymore, hehehe... But who are you here to meet? Who is that person you mean, someone who has never met and known you? If I may I'll help my best friend find him." Fina.
"You don't have to bother looking for him, I've met him but he doesn't know me yet because it's the first time we've met." The answer.
"Do I know him? Can my dong as a friend know his name? Come on..." Persuade Fina.
It seems that they are indeed like a friend, only a few minutes he can get along with each other.
"Maybe you know her more than anyone because she is you Fina." He answered gently with a smile.
Fina was so astonished that the woman knew her name, "Why does she know my name? Who the hell is he? So the words at the beginning he came were really addressed to me? Is he an angel? If it's true that he's an angel I hope he's not an angel of death." Fina said in her heart.
"Who are you really? We've never met before but why do you know my name?" Ask Fina.
"I am Hanifa." He smiled looking at Fina.
"It's impossible, but it's real, why did I also meet Hanifa? I don't understand what's happening to me." Fina said inwardly as she looked at Hanifa's face in such astonishment.
"Hey, pliss don't look at me like that, I'm a good ghost!" Shouting Hanifa.
"Ma... Sorry sis... I really don't know Brother Hanifa." Fina.
"He is Hanifa? Oh my God I feel inferior with her beauty, even her fragrant aroma makes me ashamed as a woman. Do I deserve the Word compared to Hanifa?" Fina said in her heart.
"Are you scared after knowing a ghost is talking to you? Haha..." Hanifa asked who was laughing.
"Hehehe... I was even amazed to find out that the ghost is Hanifa's sister, a few days ago I also met a handsome male ghost named Raihan." Said Fina who was a little awkward.
"Dearn? These few days I've never seen her again, where is she? He told me a lot about you, Finn." Said Hanifa staring at Fina.
"I mean Brother? You guys ever meet? What did he tell Brother?" Fina asked curiously.
"Not so much is important, but when he knows if he will lose you one day, he just thinks about learning to let go. Until finally he realized that it was not as easy as reality. That's why he may have intended to meet you in order to make things happen and deliver some important messages for you." Answer Hanifa.
"In addition I learned to sincerely love even though I do not have to have, learning to sincerely give up even though I have to lose." Reply Fina with a smile.
"Would you learn to accept and give love this time?" Ask Hanifa.
"I mean Brother?" Reply Fina asked.
"Honestly well, actually the Word likes you and you also like the Word, only you have not fully loved in sincerity." Hanifa.
"If you feel, Brother Firman, I don't know it yet... Does your sister want me to be with her? Are you willing to share feelings? Is Big Brother willing to let go?" Fina asked quietly as if scared by her words.
"Over my life, the Word meant so much to me, but I finally realized that there were only three things that mattered in this life, which were how much you loved, how gently you lived life, and how sincerely you let go of something that was destined not for you. I sincerely if the Word wants to open my heart and start life with a woman of his choice but who made me come to this world not because of my sincerity to the Word but my willingness to let go of my son Nana. But somehow I see if you and Nana are so familiar and close, it makes me a little calm plus if you're willing to be a living companion Word maybe I'll calm down forever." Hanifa said so clearly.
"Fina promise me one thing." Hanifa.
"Yes, what is it?" Ask Fina.
"If one day your heart is open to the Word and if destiny does require you to be together, please love her with all your heart and please love Nana, please, educate her with affection and be her best friend and mother." Pinta Hanifa's.
"For the time being I cannot promise Brother, even though I can but if the reality of the fate that has been written for me is different I can do nothing. But if fate brings us together, Brother Hanifa did not ask for anything I would sincerely do with all my heart." Said Fina who occasionally sighed.
"Honestly I say, all this time my heart was closed to anyone but the presence of Nana and Kak Firman made me feel a little different. I felt happy with them. Unconditionally I can open my heart to them, without any word of exception I want to always meet and share cheerfully with them. I really miss them!" Fina.
"Well! That is what is called love. But you need to remember when we sincerely allow love to enter the heart, then we must also be able to bear all risks including happiness and injuries that will be caused by that feeling." Hanifa said then continued, "It seems I have given a lot of advice, sorry well if I talk a lot. Maybe this is our first and last meeting, please keep this meeting of ours a secret, consider it a meeting between friends! I'm glad to know you even though we're in a different world."
Fina was so happy to hear Hanifa's words. He was also very happy to meet Hanifa in person.
Amidst the joyous atmosphere Fina accidentally nudged the stack of thesis paper that was next to her. Paper fell scattered, quickly Fina jumped to pick up and tidy up the pile again.
"I'm sorry, brother, hehehe..." Said Fina who was then startled staring towards the direction where Hanifa was sitting.
Hanifa disappeared somewhere. Now Fina's sad feeling slowly became cheerful after her meeting with Hanifa. Fina promised to follow some words and advice from Hanifa and she promised to keep their meeting a secret as a friend.
