You Love Me

The Part 32

Arrasya braced himself to enter the house. He pretended to know nothing.

" Hey baby, are you ready ? " he asked when he entered.

Adiza and Diana looked at him.

" Oh, there are guests. Diana was "guessing Arrasya when she saw the girl next to Adiza.

Diana nodded and smiled at Arrasya.

" I think you're going. Then I say goodbye. Thank you for listening to me " said Diana.

" You're okay, right ? " asked Arrasya when she saw Adiza who looked sad.

" i... I'm fine "adiza replied to Arrasya with a bad feeling.

" We're leaving now ? Later the hunt jammed you know "exclaimed Arrasya reminded Adiza. With a gontai step Adiza followed Arrasya.

Many questions came to Adiza's mind. Why did Andika keep all this a secret.

" So great is your love for me... ? Why are you keeping all this from me ? " Adiza asked inwardly.

" Diza's... Diza... Adiza dear "call Arrasya while patting Adiza on the shoulder.

Adiza nodded, "I... Da... Was it until ? " asked Adiza when she realized the car that Arrasya was driving had stopped.

" Why are you ? From earlier you dreamt continuously "asked Arrasya looking fixed on his lover's face.

Adiza shook her head, she didn't know what to answer. Arrasya took a breath and took the paper in Adiza's hand. Arrasya read it, while Adiza said nothing. Adiza just bowed lethargic.

" I drove you here" Arrasya said, then drove his car towards the hospital.

There was no conversation between them. Only the silence that accompanied them dissolved in each other's thoughts. Arrasya parked his car first when he reached his destination. Adiza immediately opened the door when Arrasya had successfully parked his car.

Adiza walked in haste even she forgot about Arrasya walking behind her. Arrasya pulls Adiza's hand because Adiza doesn't care about her.

" Did she mean so much to you that you forgot I was by your side" Arrasya said, bringing Adiza into his arms.

Adiza was stunned by Arrasya's speech. He is confused by his own feelings. He did love Andika and maybe the taste is still left. But he did not deny if Arrashe was the man who now filled his heart. Adiza just couldn't accept what had happened. Had Andika been honest with her feelings just now, maybe things wouldn't have been this complicated.

" Do I mean nothing to you ? " ask Arrasya lirih.

Adiza immersed herself into Arrasya's chest. Tears began to escape from her eyes.

" You mean so much to me... You are my future... But I can't forget it. Don't ask me to choose "Adiza replied softly, she hugged Arrasya tightly.

Arrasya stroked Adiza's hair and back. Trying to understand and dive into the heart of the lover who is stricken with grief.

" I'll always be by your side. Never forget... This time I will let you go with him "cloak Arrasya.

Adiza looked at her husband's face. Arrasya wiped away the tears on Adiza's pretty face.

" Come, he must be waiting for you "cried Arrasya and brought Adiza in.

Adiza and Arrasya arrive at the ICU room. Mama Sofie and Papa Surya were there. They were very surprised to see Adiza and Arrasya there.

" Adiza." said Mama Sofie with a choked and heavy voice because she had cried. Adiza hugged her mother, both of them dissolved in tears. While papa Surya accompanied Arrasya and patted Arrasya on the shoulder to calm his future son-in-law.

Adiza went inside the ICU room herself, while Arrasya and the others waited outside. Arrasya waits behind the door as Adiza approaches Andika who is lying weakly with medical aids all over her body.

Adiza touched Andika's face. That handsome and always smiling face now looked pale. Tears drenched Adiza's cheeks.

" Dika's... It's me. " said Adiza in a stifled voice. Adiza grabbed Andika's hand and held it tightly.

" I'm sorry, Dika... Because of me, you have to go through all this. You know, you were my first love. Even until now, I have not been able to replace you completely. "Adiza added while wiping away the tears on her cheeks.

" You saw Dika... You want me to be happy, right ? I am as happy with him as you want. I-i know... How much you love me... I-i know... I love you Andika... " Adiza kissed Andika's forehead.

From behind the door Arrasya sighed. Suddenly he felt like a third person present in the life of Adiza and Andika. Arrasya leaned against the wall then crouched down, fused his two palms together and stored in front of his face.

Adiza ran out as Andika's heart rate became unstable, her father and mother immediately entered followed by Arrasya who moved quickly to hug Adiza who was now panicking. The doctor who treated Andika immediately entered. Unfortunately, Andika could not be helped. He breathed his breath after hearing Adiza's confession of love.

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Adiza was so devastated, she had just learned the truth and at the same time she had to accept the reality of losing Andika.

Adiza went into her room and sat down on the edge of the bed. Before long Arrasya followed him along with mama Sofie who brought a letter from Andika.

Mama Sofie gives the letter to Adiza then comes out of the room leaving Adiza along with Arrasya.

" You want to read it now ? " ask Arrasya softly. Adiza replied with a nod of her head.

" Want me a company or do you want to read it yourself ? " ask Arrasya.

Adiza shifted her seat, then asked Arrasya to accompany her to read.

" Take me ! " pinta Adiza quietly pulled Arrasya's hand to sit next to her.

Arrasya sat down beside the lover.

Adiza opened the envelope and took out the paper inside. He took a deep breath and slowly breathed out as he began to read it. Adiza read slowly.

To my dear Adiza,

When you read this, you can be sure that I am no longer in the world

Forgive me for not being able to keep you company and look after you

Forgive me for not being able to honestly tell you my true circumstances

I'm sorry I couldn't repay your love

Forgive me for being such a coward who doesn't confess my feelings for you

Adiza... I just want to admit that you're the only woman in my heart

I love you Adiza, though,

Really without you knowing

You've been stored in my heart forever

Every one near you my heart breaks

A moment beside you is like you're mine

But I realized I shouldn't be carried away

You are the first to be in love

Sometimes I wonder

Why did God find

We who cannot unite

It's impossible for me to live with you

One thing you should know

I loved you

Adiza stopped reading, clear circles flowing from the corner of her eye. Arrasya leaned Adiza's head against her chest and hugged her trying to give comfort to her lover. Understand that this will be heavily passed by the girl in her arms.

Arrasya took the letter from Adiza's hand.

" You still want to continue ? " asked Arrasya while stroking Adiza's long hair. For a moment Adiza did not respond to Arrasya's question. The beautiful girl was still comfortable in his arms. Soon Adiza broke away from Arrasya's embrace.

" I'm sorry... Excuse me... "

" Yes... Why are you apologizing ? Did you make a mistake ? " said Arrasya with a smile. Adiza sighed.

" You are too kind" Adiza answered looking fixedly at Arrasya who was smiling.

For some reason, just by looking at Arrasya's smile, it has made Adiza feel calm and comfortable.