Wilds
THE DASHING MAN LEFT (LAST PART)
I just kept quiet to ease my emotions with Zulfa
continuing to hold tightly to my hand, her face looked panicked, her tears even
still flowing. And the others sat down to help me get back
quieter.
“Where is his cigarette?”
ask Zulfa to Rojali.
“I—ni,” reply while
give me that cigarette.
I take it, burn it and suck it, I see Papa
smiling at us both. He looked in admiration at his son who had
looks more mature, his son who always has a way to be able to
it makes me feel calm.
After he was satisfied to look at his son, he looked back
my direction.
“You've calmed down, son?”
asked Papa gently to confirm the condition of my heart.
I just silently nodded, then looked around me
looking at me in wonder as if not expecting the incident earlier. I
excuse me, this might be the first time they've seen me go berserk like
the shit I just did.
Rudy came out of the room where he took my mother, he
walking tight behind the house, he looked as if he wanted to alone to
calmed his mind after he only learned of his fate as a child.
“Come with him Ndre,” please
to Andre.
“You just calm down,”
her reply convinced me and then walked after my sister.
I purposely told her to accompany my sister, because of my sister
very close to him, for reasons I've said before.
“Sorry Nugy, it should
I didn't tell you about him,” said Om Ali.
“Not what Om, no
wrong, even I don't feel guilty for what I just did,”
answers convinced him.
They all went back to trying to understand
my condition.
“Your hand is hurt,” says Zulfa
while holding my hand.
I
I immediately saw my hand that was injured, the skin of my hand
exfoliate and bleed. I think some of my punches missed
the floor as he tried to dodge my blow.
“This,” Adrian gives
p3k box to Zulfa.
Zulfas
treat my hand carefully, then take it. I look
his hands shook while treating my wounds. He shuddered as if frightened
because I saw you crazy. I can't bear to see it, me either
clasping his hand.
“Company me to meet Mom,”
gently bring.
He nodded and smiled at me, and so did I
avenged. We left them walking into Mom's room. They
who was inside staring at us awkwardly. Only my mother smiled
seeing us both coming. But I don't mind it.
I
walking slowly towards Mom, I let go of the hand Zulfa held
and crouched down in front of my mother and clasped her hands.
“Looks like I made you
crying again Mom,” I said slowly.
“I'm sorry, I didn't
intent on yelling at you, I just couldn't hold my revenge on her,”
lirih.
Mother didn't return my words, she's still down and she's not
looking at me, he looked like he was scared of me.
“I have already
scares you Mom, forgive me,” connect me softly while kissing
his hands and he wanted to leave him.
When I was about to leave, Rudy came in, maybe
andre managed to calm him down. I smiled at him and held his shoulder,
then continue in my steps. When I want to open the door, Mom calls me.
“Nugy,” call it down.
I looked at him who was standing looking at me.
“Which I may be afraid of
to my own son.”.
“I've never been
said that I have 3 tough guys in my life. And one
some of them have left me. And now for what you did to
they, do you want to see me suffer for your loss too?” ask Mom
loud.
“Mother underestimated me?”
ask me firmly.
“I never doubted
your courage and strength Nugy,”, he said, now angry.
I was silent to let Mom continue her anger
to me.
“I know you can
destroying your opponent, I also know you've beaten 15 people for knowing
your sister became their bullyan material,” he continued while walking and
pointed at.
I looked at Mom relaxed.
“Then?” ask me to relax
“Ooh, even you've
dare to show your arrogance in front of me with this gaze of yours?” tannya
return to me with a cynical smile.
“I'm not
bragging Mom, I just showed my courage in front of you,”
resolute reply.
“What courage?”
I'm silent again.
“You two don't need to
showing it to me, I'm tired of seeing my tough-ass guys
in front of me, but still unable to defend against the fate that attacked him..”.
“Your father is a man
the bravest I've ever met, he's even tougher than you. But..”
Ibuk was silent for a moment as if he was holding back his cries.
“Do you see
his toughness in fighting the fateful destiny that comes his way, Nugy?”
I just remained silent without a wiggle.
“ANSWER ME?” snapped to me.
“NO NUGY, your father just
can smile to show himself to me who seemed to be holding back
the pain..”.
“And I don't want that
happened to my 2 remaining Nugy men, I couldn't do anything. If
fateful fate that you will meet later.”.
She brought back her tears, it was getting more and more
it makes me feel guilty for my attitude towards him.
“So please Nugy,
get rid of your grudges, because I don't want it to hurt you son,” said Mother
watered with tears and then sat in the corner of the mattress.
I wanted to come closer and calm him down.
“I'm tired Nugy, I
tired, you two better get out of here.”.
Rudy and I looked at each other.
“OUT YOU KIDS
LESS HAJAR,” snapped Mom to us.
Rudy and I left them behind
insides. I've made Mom really disappointed in me. Dad must be
angry at me up there.
I went to the back of the house while smoking my cigarette, which
followed by Rudy who was standing next to me.
“We haven't been for a long time
scolded Mom,” he said.
“Caves anyway often, you are
rarely, so don't be pretentious Follow-up,” reply me relax.
“Yes who told you to recline.”
“Let's just, at least
the cave can not only be silent and cry,”
“Hahaha, cave on purpose
feeling weak in front of people,” he said.
I looked at him with a pause.
“Lu know why?” tannya
to me.
I just kept waiting for him to continue.
“Because you must have come
belain cave,” lirih continued.
I looked at him more and more, and he looked at me
smiling and turning his face away from me.
“Home you can only
anurahin cave, even mukulin cave again.”.
“Cua also does not know why
you can be as hateful as that cave.”.
“What because cave more
smart from lu yak?” tanyanya looked back at me.
I kept staring at him as if I had to smile
trying to hold back her crying.
“Fearful cave ama lu bang,
so scared even..”
“Dad is just a concern
lu, I'm also just watching you doang. Only lu Doang was observing the cave
even if only to get angry anyway.”
This time I really did not dwell in front of him, I
I felt all the sadness in his heart.
“Sad cave bang, squirming
the only person who cared about the cave even went from home.”.
“Gua is scared when you
your success even throws the cave, do not admit the cave as your sister..”.
“So the cave learned
continue to let the cave can live independently with the future of the cave.”.
“Gua thinks that the cave
success, the cave does not need to be afraid of losing you, because the cave will definitely have
many temen..”.
I was still silent, unable to hear all of his words,
then he looked back at me.
“Tapiii.
will need Brother cave..”
“Because only you
mercatin cave.”.
“Though you're just mad
and mukulin cave. It's okay..”
“That important cave feel
it is considered that the cave exists..”.
“Toh depleted lu hajar. Sis
Goddess must have come nenangin cave.”
He paused for a moment and turned his face staring
fore.
“From small cave want
really play ama lu bang. But it never works until we don't feel it
gede..”.
“You are already married
any more. Definitely will not be there for the cave again.”.
“But it's okay bang,
gua seneng kok,” he said smiling at me.
I was silent to hear all the words said by
my sister's. I felt a deep lonely air from every temple of his words.
All this time he felt very empty living in that luxurious house, after all
all I did to him, he thought I was the one who made him
feel like you're in that house.
Maybe this is what he always told the Goddess and Andre.
And I was too stupid to know it, as his brother was me
who doesn't understand how lonely he's been all this time.
I
he approached her and reached for her head and rested her on my shoulder
while stroking his head.
I felt her tears wetting my clothes and
making my shoulders feel cold, I felt the void she felt during
these. I was never a good brother to him. When I was just
able to beat and scold him, instead he still expects my presence
in life.
“Sorry cave,”
slowly stroking his head.
“Gua never hated
same lu,”
“Sorry cave that you don't want
main same with you..”
“Cua is just afraid of you
ketangsangan become a rich wayward cave.”.
your brain is pinter, precisely the proud cave has a clever adek kebangetan
rich lu..”
I paused for a moment.
“In the cottage it hurts Rud,
lonely, every night the cave feels cold. The cave misses the same Father, Mother is especially the same
elu..”
“Cua know you won't
can be there, so the cave is always angry with you, so you are not entered there too
if you hit a bandel kaya cave ..”
I looked at my sister's face, holding both of her shoulders.
“Sorry cave if you can
salah” cave
“Gua never hated the same
lu...”
“Sorry rud,” I said slowly
I felt his body tremble more and more because it didn't
able to hold back her tears for what I told her. I hugged her
close to both my hands.
I didn't let go of my embrace, because my sister couldn't
stopping her tears, the tears of suffering she felt in the bottom
his heart felt empty and lonely that he had felt all this time. Tears
full of desire for me, my brother.
In the middle I hugged my sister so she could calm down,
suddenly I felt someone coming to hug us both, we turned our heads
it turned out to be Mom who hugged us. Mother came with that
others, I saw those I didn't understand were wiping away her tears
respectively. I think they were behind us.
“Bu sorryin me,” my words
down to him.
“What a son, Mother no
angry at you,” smiled back at me.
“Now you've been
being a real man Rudy,” continued Mom.
“I never know what
you want, because you're always quiet and alone.”.
“Even your Father
hassles invites you to talk..”
“But now I know,
that all you need is your brother,” said Mother, smiling at me.
“Trust me son, I
I love you so much without differentiating. I am so proud of you and
Your brother, I'm grateful to have given children like you always
makes me happy,” continued and hugged us again.
We both just fell silent, then I let go of Mom's embrace,
and staring.
“Soal I'm sorry
Mom, I promise I'll take good care of myself, I'll take care of Mom, too,
Rudy and all this family well,”, I assured him.
“Iyaa, I believe in you,”
reply with a smile.
“I will also
protecting Mom,” said Rudy did not want to lose.
“Mother is very happy
hearing it from you Rudy,” replied Mother.
I just smiled at him, this is the first
the time this crybaby said like a tough guy.
“Sok strong lu,” reply me teased him.
“Cua is strong,”
the upset.
“Yes, strong cry doang.”
“Lu, what the hell,” reply
getting upset.
“What? Wanna fight
lu? Lu straightin just used to live you new nantangin cave,”
“Hahaha, the cave is straighter
times than in your life,” retorts me.
Mom and I frowned and we saw trust
my bottomless sister.
“Mom should know, she
ever bring a picture of a sexy woman to her bathroom, I didn't know she was doing
what in it,” the story with glee and then leave you.
I became silent in shock, with a feeling of annoyance and shame
what appeared inside me, I didn't expect him to know my habits just yet.
Everyone who heard laughed at me, especially Rojali
the most spirit of my meledek.
“Hahaha, deserve you
single,” ketusnya.
“Bad you Rudy,” I said
chasing him.
I chased after him who always ran away, we so
chasing inside the house like a child, until he succeeds me
capture it.
“Ah you ga exciting, play
physically,” he said after I managed to curl his head slowly.
“Lu says the same everything
if it's all a lie, spit,” tell me to him.
“Lu will know that the cave is not
dare to lie to Mom,” buyanya.
They just laughed, until Mom separated us.
“Udah-already, like a child
just small you guys,” command Mother by holding a broom as if to threaten
our.
“Iya buk,” answer us
simultaneously while I let him go.
Se
the house was laughing at us.
That's what happened that night, a night of drama, where
I managed to get my revenge on the one who almost destroyed
my family. And that night I knew what was hidden all along
in my sister's life.
The night ended until Om Ali and his wife,
and 3 my shabat returned to the hotel to rest. Because tomorrow we will
return to Jakarta together by using the plane we used when
coming here. A good business friend loaned me a plane he couldn't
came because I completely forgot to tell him.
…
After breakfast, we headed to the airport together
delivered by our extended family who are here. I'm not really
I communicate a lot with my cousins except Adrian.
When we arrived at the airport, we greeted each other with
full of tears, I tried to convince them that we would visit here
another time. Zulfa and I just saw the incident without knowing what to do
behave how, my aunts really love my mother as a fool
alone, I'm really happy to see this family.a full family
with affection.
“You didn't let go
your wife's hand from earlier,” Adrian said insinuating me.
I looked at her standing next to my wife.
“Oh obviously, I won't
allowing a man like you to approach my wife. There you are,” reply me while expelling him.
“Hahaha, Nugy you're cruel
once,” Zulfa reprimanded me while laughing.
“Your husband is indeed
very cruel Zulfa, especially to me.”
Zulfa just kept quiet with a small laugh.
“I won't forget the taste
from your punch it was, but now replace it, I have to hit you,” he said
while hitting my cheek slowly.
“Bad you,” I said
who immediately wanted to avenge him but Zulfa held me back.
“Your hand is sick Nugy,
you are helpless now, so just surrender to your situation,” said Zulfa.
“Congratulations now,”
I'm upset with Adrian.
Then he and Zulfa laughed at me.
Asik we joked and told each other, Andre came
approaching us while smiling at me.
“Be careful yes,” he said
to me.
I just nodded.
I
and Andre does have a pretty awkward relationship. Because I don't like it
with his mother, who always scolded me and my sister every visit to his house.
And now look, her mother didn't come when my father did
died. But I didn't pay much attention to him, because he wasn't important to me.
“Lu not coming home?” much
to Andre.
“Cua to crap production
who was here first, the day after the cave kejakarta.”
“Oke, cave wait you there,”
my spoken.
“Sip, wait for the cave in the forest
your wilderness,” reply back.
I'm just smiling.
After my family felt willing to let us go, we
everyone got on the plane, with a different formation this time. Me and my wife
in front of us was Mother and Rudy, in front of us was Patricia and Dewi,
in front of them were Rojali and Ayu. Beside us was Papa, Mama, Om Ali,
his wife faced each other. And Dad's aide as usual he was by himself
in the back.
“Bu,” gently sweep.
“What a son,” replied Mother.
“Who is that?” much
pointing to the adjutant.
Mom looked in the direction I was pointing, and looked back at me
with smile.
“She Taufik, foster child
Your Mom and Dad,” replied Mother.
Me, Zulfa, and Rudy were shocked.
“One time there are people
who wanted to shoot your father while we were visiting this city.”.
“He protects your father
from that shot with his own body.”.
“We are direct
brought him to Jakarta, and luckily he was able to be saved.”.
“Your father owes you a life
to him, so we educated him for a boarding school in West Java.”.
Mom was silent for a moment looking at us who were in focus
heard him talk.
“But slowly we
knowing, that he is Sapri's son from his affair with a woman who
it's in this city,”
The three of us were shocked to hear Mother's explanation, it's a disgrace
very large.
“Then the woman where
Bu?” my many.
“He was killed by
someone who is alleged to be the man of his legitimate wife Sapri,” replied Mother.
“Astaghfirullah,”.
I just found out with all this, she has a life story
more bitter than me. I was just trying to get him to play
arriving in Jakarta later.
I looked at him, and he looked at me too. Him
I smiled at him, and I replied.
I think it's best to get this plane off, I
also no longer asking about it, because it's too sad I think.
The plane gave us a departure signal, and we
we all wear our belts.
I
looking out through the window next to me.
Congratulating
father's stay, we'll go on to our new life, without any
yourselves. And may you calm down there Dad, you've gone to your new life
without us by your side.
I'm gonna make all this a lesson to me,
I'll go with all the memories you've given us. Till
whenever we're yours, Dad, and whenever you're ours.
Wait for us to come to see you again. And enjoy your time
with the Father and Mother you love, connect me to your heart.
I don't feel my tears dripping, and I did, and then
we smile at each other. And see this beautiful city from
Plane window.
Thank you Sibolga,
you gave birth to a king for all of us, thank you for that
it flows through my brother and me. Thanks for everything, goodbye
Sibolga. And goodbye my manly man.
