Wilds
A GIFT IN THE MIDST OF DISASTER
I woke up from
my sleep, hearing the quarrels that were going on from inside my house, I
seeing Zulfa is no longer in my bed. So I went out of the room to
search for. I heard Mbok's voice angry from the kitchen
so I walked the collar of that voice.
“What's up?” many wonder.
“This is den, she appeared
early this morning from nowhere, Mbok suspected he wanted to steal here,”
panicked answer.
I just laughed amusedly while understanding the Mbok, natural
he's like that, because all this time I've never brought a woman to stay
this house except for Mother, and the Goddess never lived here, while she
just saw Zulfa, so it was only natural that he was surprised.
“Hahaha, she's my wife Mbok,”
“Well, when is the wedding?”
ask Mbok
“We'd better talk at
dinner table alone, let my wife cook this morning, I want to taste her cooking
for the first time,” said me while taking Mbok away to the dinner shirt.
I
he sat down with Mbok and told him everything about what happened
it's against me and my family, so that's why I got married to Zulfa
my bidadar.
Mbok just cried hearing my story, it doesn't seem
it was only I who could not help but cry when I heard the truth of all this
for what happened to my family.
Him
hugged me, and this was normal, even though she was just my maid, but
she's like my mother to me in this house. Mom introduced me to Mbok when I
moving into this house, Mom says Mbok is a distant cousin, and lives alone,
so he told her to come to meet my daily needs. I
accept it because Mbok is a very kind and sincere person and considerate person
to me.
Mbok let go of his embrace when Zulfa had arrived
brought us breakfast, and he helped Zulfa.
“So I got scolded, and
now I see Mbok hugging my husband,” he said in a teasing tone.
“Sorry to me Mistress,”
reply Mbok.
“Hahahaha,” me and zulfa
I laughed compactly
Then Zulfa and I ate, and Mbok left
kedapur, but Zulfa called him for breakfast together, even he poured
breakfast for Mbok, I'm very impressed with what he did.
His attitude was indeed very noble, he never discriminated
whoever, his attitude is very friendly to anyone who is near him, I
smiling saw. We ate three together.
I have to admit, my bidadar cuisine is very delicious I guess,
even Mbok admitted it, but I didn't want to praise him, so I decided
to just keep it. He was waiting for my response to his cooking in the morning
these.
After breakfast, Mbok cleaned everything up
zulfa and I took a shower to get ready for my dad's house to pick up
all of Zulfa's belongings, and Papa wants to talk long
with me.
Because
he had no change of clothes, he had to wear the clothes he had yesterday.
Naturally, all was sudden.
“You slob once,” I said
while driving my car.
“I'm not in the mood
serving you,” reply ketus.
He seems to be mad at me because I'm not
responded to her cooking this morning. I always get surprised, with the attitude of women
he always wanted to be praised for what he did.
“You angry?” my many.
“Can we just shut up,”
the answer is getting upset.
I smiled at her behavior, so I decided to
following his will and focusing on driving my car, it seems like he is also getting uncomfortable
not changing his clothes. I too quickly drove my car
his house is not far away.
When we got there, he got off by closing the car door
very hard and left me behind. I just shook my head
seeing this behavior, at once I feel anxious to see it. I also walk
following him and immediately greeted by Papa and Mama who were waiting for me
in front of the door, my bidadar went straight into his house.
It certainly makes Papa and Mama be full of questions.
I touched them both and Papa took me
the back of the house, while Mama went to the kitchen to make
we had coffee and snacks.
“What's up?” tanyakanya.
Sure
I understand the direction of the question.
“He's been mad at me since
from home, I guess it's because I didn't show any response to that breakfast
it was made for me.”
“Aahahaha it was a mistake
first of all Nugy, all women want to be praised when they cook
for his man.”
I just kept quiet and smiled hearing it.
“Ya already, no need
thought, later his anger will also subside again,” he said lightly.
I just nodded
My mom came with drinks and food
light for both of us, and then he told me to try it. And I just
nod and try it.
“How are you doing
now?” ask papa to me.
“I'm fine”
flat answer.
Although my feelings are not okay, but I
gotta try to be strong, 'cause you want that from me.
“Looks like Your Dad and Mom
it's great to educate you,”.
I just smile, when I talk about Mom and Dad,
I could not hold my tears. How not, my father will soon
leave us all, and Mother must be the one who was the saddest over
father's departure later.
“I know you're holding him, though,
you're Nugy's strong son, you're trying to cover up your fragility in time
a very short one. Just like your father, you won't let anyone
put empathy on yourself ..”
“But now we
both are your parents, so you can spill everything in front of us.”.
I was listening to her words full of
warmth, without realizing my tears began to drip, he was well versed with how
my current feelings, they both give me warmth so I feel so much
comfortable when I have to shed my tears in front of them.
“I don't know I have to
how,” says I'm shriveled.
“I've sacrificed
the feelings of all of you, even I forced Zulfa to marry me, I
never even said love to her, and I didn't know her either
love me or not.”.
“I just want to see my dad
pleased with his last wish, I was helpless when faced with
with destiny that made me see the father that was leaving me after
I've hated it for so long.”.
“I have done
all these mistakes against me, Zulfa, my family and this family. My father must have
I hate my behavior that put my compassion on him at the time
lastly, I have also allowed others to feel empathy
against our family, I ruined my family's good name at the time of death
waiting for my Dad..”.
I paused for a moment trying to calm myself down for a moment,
then continue it again.
“But I'm not at all
I really love Zulfa and I want to marry him
before my father, I admitted that I was a coward by making
this is my chance to get your son. I'm sorry, I'm right
true sorry.”
I
I couldn't help but cry over what I felt.
My heart aches because it has tarnished my family's good name,
my heart also ached because it had broken my father's principle of life, and my heart ached
when I had to sacrifice my son in a situation he couldn't understand.
And all that I did was because of my ego when my father wanted to end it
her life.
“I acknowledge you when
the first time I met you. But right now you are the only one
the man I admire Nugy. Maybe if I met your father in the past
healthy I will be his admirer too,” Papa replied to me.
“I'm very happy
in your hands, I also apologize for my son who put his compassion on your father.
But it's a natural attitude that grows out of him, I'm sure you can
make my son happy, and I'm sure you can make my son love you.”.
“You've done that
best to your father with your love for my son. Keep moving forward Nugy
with my son who will be with you, love your family, and us.”.
“Because it's not just Dad
and your mother, even us and those around you put
great expectations for you.”.
“Take my son, he
it is very spoiled, because he is our only child, but believe me
at me. She's a tough woman like your mother. I'm sure you can..”.
“With that you don't need
worried about the mistake you're feeling right now, because we never did either
blame you, as well as your family, rise up because of all of us
you deserve to be proud of you, and you deserve to be a person
which we are all proud of.”
Him
he said while holding my bowed shoulder.
Every verse of Papa's words managed to get me to come back
a speck of spirit within me. Those words calmed me down. She is
right, I just need to show everyone that I'm that guy
they deserve to be proud.
And for Zulfa, I just need to make him love me, I just need to,
and I promise to make your life happy with the love I love
have against him.
I raised my head and looked at them both
wiping away my own tears, then smiling. They also retaliated
my smile.
“Ya already let's go in,”
bring Papa.
We entered the house, and I decided to leave
met my bidadar in his room, but I washed my face first, so he wouldn't know
that I had finished crying after talking to Papa and Mama earlier.
For the first time in her room, I
looking at him who was compiling his things, I decided to help him.
“Which part should
I help?” my many.
He didn't answer me, it seems like he's still mad at me,
I approached him and sat down beside him.
“I'm sorry,” I said
slowly squatting in front of him and holding his hand.
He just fell silent looking at me.
“I should
say it, I really enjoy your cooking, but I don't want to make you
big head, so I choose silence.”
“I'll do what
just so long as you forgive me. My wife,” I said gently with a smile
to him.
He smiled at me, and he finally collapsed,
You're so sweet, baby,
I said in my heart. Then I hugged him tightly.
“Let go of me Nugy, we
must be quick,” he said as he let go of his embrace and pushed me.
“Where are you?” many wonder.
“You promised
want to do anything.”
I just nodded and was surprised.
“Ya helped me
clean this up, then accompany me somewhere,” he said with pleasure.
I don't want to ask her, she might get angry again
with me, I'd better follow her will.
We packed the stuff, I was so pissed off, too,
why so much, whether it will fit if taken with my car.
“It won't fit Zulfa,”
my annoyance.
“This is all I have to take Nugy with me,
you mind?” tanyakanya.
I just shook my head, if I say yes, he can
angry at me again.
After packing all my things, I too
bring it down to put it in front of the house to make it easier to
transported later, we joined for lunch with Papa
and Mama.
“Wah seems this is delicious
once,” he said cheerfully and then ran to his seat.
He's like a kid, you son of a bitch! you're getting
it makes me angry with you, I thought.
“How are you
melt my son's anger?” ask Papa.
“Declaration,” I replied while
smilingly.
We had lunch together and talked to each other,
mama's cooking is so good as always, I've eaten this house so
I used to taste the delicious food of my mother.
“Then how about books
marry you?” ask Papa to us.
Zulfa looked at me, as if she didn't know what to do
answer what, well it's only natural that he doesn't know.
“There is already
help me take care of it Pa, so no need to worry,” I replied
I did tell Rojali to go take care
nya, because I really don't like Repot-repot taking care of things like that.
We finished our lunch, Mama and Zulfa
get things done, and then my mom and dad took me and Zulfa
telling stories in the living room.
“So you'll bring
my son Nugy?” ask Papa.
I just nodded kindly.
“He was very spoiled, and
still like a kid, so please guide him yes Nugy,” Mama said
smiley
I saw the smile of my mother who seemed to be holding back
she cried, because soon her son will live with me. Of course he will
feeling lonely, without any children just wayangnya in this house.
“Aaaahh Mama,” whining
Zulfa hugged Mama.
“Be a good wife
son, accompany your husband under any circumstances, and do not hurt his heart yes,” said
Mom stroked her son's head
They
both shed tears.
Zulfa nodded and cried because she had to
leave his house and stay with me.
“I will definitely
put it up well, and Mama can also come to my house anytime, I
can even pick up Mama to meet Zulfa,” I said calmly.
He nodded while smiling with his tears
which is still flowing.
“Already, don't
crying, we don't have to worry, our son is already with someone who
right, our home town is also close,” said Papa calms Mama.
They were also dissolved in sadness, I could not stand it
seeing it, but as a man I held my sadness in front of me
My midwife. I should really cheer him up after this.
After that we left, Zulfa and I said goodbye
to Papa and Mama, I've decided to go wherever Zulfa wants
to day.
“Then how about
this?” papa asked me while pointing at Zulfa's belongings.
“There will soon be
who picked up Pa, he will deliver her home,” I replied calmly.
“Hahaha you always can
cope with all easily.”
Suddenly Rojali came with a pick up car, too,
it was the cafe's inventory, so he took her for a while to drop off
zulfa's things are in my house.
“Lu login directly
go in ntar” tell me to Rojali
“Iyaaa, chatty times you,”
said annoyed.
I just laughed, I gave him a lot of orders,
to take care of my marriage book, and now to take care of my wife's move, I
lucky to have reliable friends.
After Rojali left, Zulfa and I left. Gone off? Whither?
Wherever he wants to go.
I've already gotten it back
little strength to keep up with these conditions with the people
who loves me, even though my father will leave us, I still
gotta step forward. I have also married my very own bidadar
be loved. This is truly the gift you gave me in the midst of disaster
which holds. Thank you god.
